Hello everyone, I am ZonSun, this is my first post.
I hope that you could spare your precious time to read this.
Before my transformation I was a success oriented person, all my life was directed to being successful and getting money and fame.
Things started when my mother died, when I was just 9 years old, at that point I hated everything in the world, I hated my father, I hated my sister, I even hated God.
I started doing bad stuff like stealing and smoking at a very young age. My father was an alcoholic and my sister was 2 years younger than me, so I had no one to educate me.
After a while I started using cannabis, and here is the point where everything turned in a way that I still to this day can not understand.
Weed made me a different person.At this point the only thing that I was interested was inner peace and being something special(finding my true self)(still ego driven). I started reading spiritual books and watching spiritual teachers online, I slowly started to become fascinated on all the things we are capable of. I learnt about enlightenment (Moksha, Nirvana, ect).
And so I started seeking inner wisdom and the truth of life, I wanted to become one with everything and with God.
So I started meditating, I just meditated for like 10 to 30 minutes,(sometimes high, sometimes sober), and started to get insight. Especially when I was intoxicated I became very philosophical and questioned everything.
And one night something very very amazing happened, I smoked a bowl of weed and started meditating, I entered a trance like state where I stayed that way for more than 5 hours. When I came to earth again I couldn't remember much, but it was the most joyful and blissful feeling that I had. it felt like I just met God, like the key to the wisdom of the whole universe was given to me. JUST AMAZING!
So that was when I realized the psychedelic properties of weed, and started researching on other psychedelics, I was fascinated by them, especially the reports about DMT and since then I am eager to try it and explore that familiar world where I have stepped into with weed, once again.
I came here to broaden my knowledge about psychedelics and become ready to embark into the journey of spiritual development, by helping others and by helping myself I believe I can be a good part of this wonderful community
We wondered what happiness would look like if we could give it a physical form. If I'm not mistaken, I think it was Marijane that said that the shape of happiness might resemble glass. Her reasoning made sense. She said that even though you don't usually notice it, its still definitely there. You merely have to change your point of view slightly, and then that glass will sparkle when it reflects the light. I doubt that anything else could argue its own existence more eloquently