Emptiness wrote:Once again you just want to attack and put down me, telling me to "grow up" "complain to myself". You honsetly think that I just skipped this step and came straight on to the forums? Yes, folks... you can cure yourself of DMT induced PTSD TODAY FROM JUST THIS ONE SIMPLE STEP.. heres our sponsor pitubo with the secret answer... Pitubo says: all thats needed here is a simple dose of "grow a pair".
I am sorry you are being heartless here. I hope for yoursake you stay out of this thread unless you have something more to say that is actually constructive.
This tone seems juvenile and unwarranted. Pitubo seems to be addressing this matter from a position of valuable experience and with honest criticism, and has taken the time to share some truly seasoned perspective... Perhaps you are mistaking criticism for hostility, or perhaps you may be reacting a tad too defensively. Nobody is being heartless; misleading and ridiculing confused honeymooners like you can be
a total riot, but that's generally not what we do on the Nexus and it's certainly not what's happening in this thread.
Since you seem to be spinning things so wildly out of proportion, emptiness, let me make something clear which may help you put the replies in this thread into perspective:
Exploration of the unknown is a challenging and risky undertaking which requires a maturity, strength of character, purity of intent, sound physical and mental health, a flexible and educated mind, and dedication to you path and your work. If you do not approach the challenge with at least this much preparation, then your ride will be a trial-by-fire that you are likely to lose. There are well-known and thoroughly documented risks to psychedelic use and access to this information has never been more available.
If you are not prepared to question reality, your worldview or your sanity, then you are not fully prepared for the alteration of consciousness which psychedelic use can provide.You must accept that there are those who DO want good reason to question their sanity, who are capable of gracefully navigating through effects such as persistent hallucination, efflorescence of Deja Vu, derealization or hyperrealization, abstract thinking and permenant, profound alterations to perception, who pay no worry to those hangups or challenges which may traumatize or distract others, and who display a great deal of courage and charisma in their approach to the psychedelic realms...
And you must realize that you are not one of these people.We are not here to nurture you, coddle you or validate your emotions, nurse you through difficult experiences or spoon-feed you the exact information which you seek. We are here to
learn, share and expand our consciousness. If you are here seeking input on your situation and are expressing trepidation or displaying signs of mental illness, then you should expect to be educated on self-responsibility, strength of mind and character, and objective critical reasoning. Self-work is a discipline; Expect to be chastised when you attempt it on your own with little self-discipline to begin with.
The truth is that scores of people here have been through similar or incredibly more severe hardship than you have, traversed it with grace, and yet still took nothing but healing, growth and inspiration (among other manifestations of their good intentions) from the experience... They're just more able and more prepared to use these tools than you are; They do not fear and distrust the unknown like you do, and they do not cling to their beliefs and illusions like you do...
And that's
okay.
There's nothing wrong with opening the door to the unknown and realizing that it's far bigger and far more powerful than you can cope with, or had even imagined it could be. Discretion is the greater part of valor, and there is no shame in stepping away from an opportunity which you sense will not assist you in manifesting your intention.
The challenge presented to you should be clear; You can face your reservations and allow the power of the substance and the experience to immerse you in that which challenges you most and be initiated in the fires of trial and defeat... Or you can leave. It's that simple.
I would personally suggest the latter, since you just don't seem to have what it takes to turn this into a beneficial experience; Find another path which suits your limits and abilities.
If you choose to keep going, then it's up to you to gather your wits about you and get through it on your own two feet. Nobody will be there to throw you a crutch when the rubber really hits the road, and it is your responsibility to manifest what you seek against potentially impossible odds.
If you choose to back away and seek shelter in your material, 4-D world of everyday life, then do not be so foolish as to assume that you'll be stuck in some quasi-psychedelic limbo of alien derealization forever... That very assumption is all that has the power to keep you there; The mind will adapt to meet your needs and manifest your intention. Faith in your will and the power of reason and neuroplasticity will win out in the end. Obsessing over your current challenges and unfamiliar states is undisciplined at best, and at worst weak and foolish. You seem at least bright enough to keep yourself out of that trap.