Most of the people I know who take part in Ayahuasca ceremonies do so to attain healing. I'm curious to know what it feels like to be healed.

Are you all of a sudden happy everyday, whereas before you were always depressed?

Do you wake up every morning with a bright smile on your face and shout "YES, I CAN"?

Are the annoying (and sometimes terrible) thoughts and judgements that linger in your conscious and subconscious mind suddenly gone?

What does being healed feel like? What does it do to your life?

It's probably very idiosyncratic for each person. I know that with smoked DMT at least, feelings of "healing" I get involve the sense of a soul reset. It feels like starting clean. There's a bounce in my step, and it's a pleasure to breathe.

It can mean many different things, for example from releasing traumas, getting rid of patterns, purging negative energies...for me its creating a feeling of inner peace and yes that can contribute to being more happy, less inner chatter, waking up with a smile, though i have never shouted "YES I CAN". What ever it is it doesnt last, as everything else in life but you need learn how to retain the healing and things that take it away, being aware of these things can give much benefit in life

I agree. It's got a lot to do with releasing negative energy, which then manifests as physical, spiritual and mental healing.

actually my first post on the nexus (have been lurking for about 2 years^^) :-) hello to all of you!!!

healing manifests in different ways i guess-for me it's two things (at least):
1) I stoped smoking tobacco after taking ayahuasca twice!--> definitely healing!
2) healing as a process- moving forward in life- developing...

Entheogens allow me to break through the ego-borne encrust ration that shrouds otherwise an ability to peer unfettered into my psyche and self. They allow me to separate the way I perceive things from the way they really are and therefore I can identify and address issues that are holding me back from fiully experiencing life.

I am not a subscriber to any religious belief system, but yet recognize that there is a source of all this that I can only refer to as divine. Something I am both part of and is part of me- or am wholly if I can only remain aware of it. They help remind me just how small, and just how important, my life is.

There also is a definite physiological effect upon my body and brain chemistry, and small doses of tryptamines will often dial me in in between the bigger blasts that are like a hose to the cobwebs in my head.

These things do not last however and for me, irregular use is needed to maintain equilibrium. I refer to the "encrustations" of my ego, that is all the inner and outer self doubt and the struggle to maintain a state of inner peace in a brutal world, and like the phrase implies, these doubts and other negativities build upon each other in a seemingly nefarious scheme to subvert happiness. When it gets to a certain point, I smoalk.

They are my medicine, my only medicines.

Very well written!

Last summer my partner had a powerfully healing 1P-LSD trip. He tells it better, but I'll do my best.

A little background...he was a heavy-use heroin addict for 20 years, having decided to get clean 3 years prior and having gotten off methadone about 6 months earlier. He pushed his personal boundaries in ways that most people would never consider during that time, and he was not at peace with many of the things he had done and people he had been.

Two years earlier, a year into methadone trestment, he'd found Dale Pendall's Pharmacognosis and made a aya analogue brew using Pendell's recipe. During that trip he got the words "Open your eyes." The next day he started reducing his methadone dose.

He and I met though one of these forums and become friends, talking daily but never having met in person. I invited him to come to a regional burning man with me, a first for both of us.

Before the event I told him I was setting an intention to bring to the burn (an interesting story for another time) , and he decided to do the same. On the ride down (he spent 24 hours on a bus!), he came up with the word "Redemption" and set that as his intention. We were the very last people to climb up the effigy the Saturday it was going to burn, and I drew my sigil and he wrote redemption on it.

That night, as we sat watching the effigy burn on 300ug of 1P, he experienced a time dilation during which he closed his eyes, saw himself as every manifestation he'd been and his future selves (he describes it as looking like how you see yourself in angled mirrors, going out into infinity) and realized that every single thing he had ever done, every decision he'd ever made, had led him to that moment right there, and he loved and forgave himself in that instant. He had peace and redemption.

He heard the words again- "Open your eyes," He opened his eyes and saw me bathed in the glow of the fire, and was in love. We found each other, and reality ripped apart and remade itself as joy and beauty beyond my wildest imagination.

My experience report where I met female shaman who healed me.

Why would I write it all over again. I haven't touched any kind of booze in over a month. Everything was explained to me in detail. She's is the master of healing!

Being healed doesnt mean you dont have problems, or that you are suddenly a perfect person.

Even if you heal depression - it doesnt mean you never get depressed again - it just means that you are no longer constantly depressed and depression no longer rules your life. Instead of depression hanging around for weeks at a time it hangs around for an hour or two before you remember to enjoy life.

Everyone gets depressed sometimes - it is a natural human emotion. The goal is not to be some emotionless being, but to no longer be controlled by your emotions. You can feel emotions without them taking over your life. Emotions are good for you - they teach you a lot.

Sometimes healing happens super fast and sometimes it happens over time... Sometimes it takes a few years even. Sometimes it takes a single second. Sometimes it is just a change of perspective - sometimes you can even physically look different afterwards. Each persons process is unique.

You know the answers to these ironic questions very well, why asking them?

What is healing to me?

That there is more flexibility allowing for desired dynamics in a widened scope of possibilities in contrast to a former mere stagnated situation.
Bodily - mentally - being.
Nothing is really gone yet different tuning becomes possible, achievable, addressable.
The old situation gets tough competitions from outclassing never-expected angles.

The former situation has not to be dealt with, not concurred or beaten down, not over-won, not healed, not cured. It's the new arising possibilities that are so seductive, fresh and energetic sparkling that a movement toward them is only natural, and by making that movement, this dynamics, the flexibility ripens. The old stagnation is not *bad* but starts to look rather silly-only-one-point, like a bird sticking tight in a nest to never use it wings. The old stagnation is absolutely not *bad* rather a very necessary point to start off to the next. Healing is the dynamics between points-of-being to the fruit of flexibility. IMHO.