So, my friends,
after a long hiatus from my dear ones in the realms beyond linear comprehension
I decided to dabble a bit and see what it was like to return.
The first night I smoked one or two hits of lower-grade deemsters, leftover from an extraction
conducted by a friend of mine a couple years prior. Extremely familiar, but I was intrigued to reach for the extremely potent professionally extracted micro crystals of alchemical gold.
I took a small triangular pile from it's home with the tip of my knife and set them carefully onto a ticket stub from an extremely good show that reminded me the importance of staying in touch with Higher Reality, on LSD.
I had previously mentally noted that whatever I pull out, I will smoke down. I pussied out of the powerful blast off dose and decided to take about a third, just to re-acclimate.
This stuff is the Real Deal.
I sit in the center of my floor, meditating briefly, and set my intentions for smoking.
They had been calling me, I just knew.
"To remember, to tap into the untapped, for grounding, wisdom, knowledge, clarity, direction"
Several months before this, I'd taken a hiatus from my beloved muse and lifelong friend Mary Jane. Oh how her delicious cannabinoid nuggets had caressed me, tamed me, amused me, enlightened me...This means my mind was particularly clear.
I raised the lighter to the bowl, carefully delineating the words in my mind: With immense respect, I surrender myself to you. What can you show me?
Right before this I had contemplated putting on some music. I'd briefly forgotten that DMT + music =
for me personally, and decided against it.
For the last many months of my cannabis hiatus I have been earnestly directing my energy to a more matured spiritual practice and efficient conduct all around, including writing a book -albeit half-arsed- feeling rather evolved beyond previous versions of myself.
As soon as I exhaled, I recognized the inconceivable power and magnitude of this glorious, beautiful, DEEP experience that I had only seldom visited throughout the years of my hiatus.
I was "still here" and uttered something along the lines of, oh my god, thank you so much, this is exactly what I needed to hear, I REMEMBER!
Since that night a little while ago, I've been on the most upward spiraling comprehensive wave since my days of copious psychedelic usage in years past.
A Great Wealth of Inner Secrets have re-presented themselves to me in full luster, enabling me to understand beyond the surface of the fleeting curtails of semantic notes scrawled on unorganized paper everywhere, mantras that have become generic such as, Be Here Now, Everything is Everything, and so on...the TRUTH of these minuscule archetypes and emanations of Deep Meaning has become emphatically infinitized and thusly, I've grown a lot in the past few days, by virtue of the surreal taste of the Most High I had until very recently been unintentionally neglecting.
Everything is so rich with meaning, I'm drawn to Act upon all of the mental representations of wisdom and knowledge accrued through numerous ventures of my psychonaut career.
Which drew me to this community. Perusing the forums, I've never found a collection of this many individuals with the unique capacity to understand the pettiness of earthly tribulation, to question the unexplored, to let go of the inertia of consensus reality and to Truly Live an Enriched Existence full of Gratitude and Pure and Deliberated Intent,
in One place.
The primordial Nectar has revealed itself again to me, and I am so elated in the lasting humbleness this brief revisitation has yielded.
I'm sure you lot may understand what I'm about to say...
Let's get FUNKY.
But for real, there's something extremely alluring about the exploration of that which is beyond our "every-day understanding"
Many may have also had the realization of the near toyish, almost trivial nature of what happens on earth, in the midst of the initial "Pulse." of the DMT Realm. it's...cute, in comparison to the oceanic transcendent realm of the Most High. The Transcendental Object at the End of Time, the End, Ground Zero, may be fundamentally unattainable, uncontainable, by the human organism, let alone the hyperspatial organisms who still have some sort of "form"...who are still evolving, building yet greater vessels to Sail the Sea, until we all become the See Itself.
It's greatly empowering to keep this realization at the forefront of my consciousness as much as possible, to unify Heaven and Earth.
It would seem that even in the seemingly small, trivial, or far less complex realm we inhabit...there have all ways been more than inklings of the transcendental, right where you sit now.
I'm glad to be nowhere with you all.
Love and Gratitude
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