Hey Nexus,

DMT_Tom here: logging a post for the first time in ages. Just under a month ago, I purposely destroyed all of my DMT, as well as my 16g bucket of harmalas. It was the right decision for me.

You know why? Because again and again, the DMT was giving me the message that "you shouldn't be doing this." Up until this point I had been ignoring it, trying to glean other messages from it besides "stop, this is wrong." And it was, indeed, wrong. I have been wrongfully smoking it, illegally, and in a residence with people who do not approve of me doing so.

I have felt a huge release of burden since doing this. Of course, I have had many other life issues hitting me full-force. but worrying about being caught with DMT or flipping out on a bad trip is not one of them anymore.

I always know how to extract it (thanks to the Nexus), and in case I feel it's worthwhile to enter hyperspace again at some point in my life, I certainly could. And yes i would love to again just for the sheer beauty, awesomeness and thrill that it has revealed! But I will not force it. I have the trip of real life to deal with now, and it's really got me in circles at times. So yeah, that's good enough for me. and it should be good enough for the foreseeable future.

I had a kind of revelation to enter the health profession after smoking DMT awhile. At first I thought I wanted to be an EMT (changing my name from DMT_Tom to EMT_Tom would've been dope!) but now I'm pursuing a nursing degree. I already have a degree in music, but that's not getting me enough work for a full-time career. I'm taking Anatomy & Physiology and really loving it. My path is going along fine.

Anyways, much love from your Christian bro, DMT_Tom

Good for you Tom, if that's your decision I have to stand behind you.

What a great story this all is! One day you'll be older and get to tell some lucky lady about when you were young, you practiced clandestine chemistry in order to open up a wormhole into another dimension, and it actually worked. WOW!

Best of luck with saving lives! It's a very noble profession.

Every time I use DMT I get this feeling of "getting something I had not bargained for", the DMT acts as if humans are NOT supposed to be in these places...

Sometimes it acts surprised and angry simultaneously, like if you caught your dog driving a car or something, you would be angry and worried but also astounded by the fact a dog is driving...that's how the DMT acts, it's mad your there, but mind-blown that you got there...


For me DMT is death, it grants you access to the bardo (realms after death but before reincarnation)...these are not places to go running around in haphazardly...

I get a good deal from DMT, but it's not given to me easily.

I've always been of the opinion the DMT is NOT to be taken lightly.



Though I fully respect your wisdom and maturity in your decision.

If the universe is telling you "stop", I think you made the wise move by listening.

(For all I talk about DMT, it's rare that I use it, I take yagé from time to time, but have not smoked crystalline Dmt since 2012...I'm still processing the 2012 experiences...)

Best of luck to you! And regardless whether you continue to explore psychedelics or not, don't forget what they have shown you.

-eg

sometimes people ride the train til they get to their stop.
its all good.

my preference is always perma residence in my sleeper pullman car.
see you at the station when you return.

99% of the people with arts degrees never make any money.
the 1% that do , dont admit it for tax reasons.................

best of luck in new carreer.

You have made a good decision dmt_tom.

DMT is a very powerful thing. I have found that if the timing in life is not right, it can cause alot of stress & invite a hyperslap.

If you do return, even if that be 10 years from now, i think that having your life sorted out, a career you enjoy, & a place of your own where you can dedicate a space to using DMT & prepare a ceremonial setting, will potentially ease what you feel now.
Set & setting play a huge role in the psychedellic experience, even more so with DMT than anything else.

Think about it this way, even if your life finally falls into place & you are feeling guilt or fear of persectution or legal troubles from using DMT, a good career will provide you with the ability to travel somewhere where aya brews are legal & accepted to dive back in & experience hyperspace again

Wishing you success in future life. The work will not stop working its work even when you subside in-taking from here on, is my believe