Hi Nexus

It has been a while. Life has been going too fast for psychedelics recently.

Just wanted to post this - mainly for myself - but if it is of interest to anyone else then that is good.

I have a couple of bags of cubes (golden teachers), left over in the freezer from the summer. I decided to take a 2g bag (dried) yesterday to aid in a satsang/meditation.

I prepared my space, stated my intentions (To know what is true) and lit some incense. I then crunched and ate the dried shrooms - my favourite method - they are like little dried snacks.

I then put on a Mooji satsang (https://youtu.be/ntSgWktJ2nE)

Sat in front of Mooji, the shrooms came on strong. I wasn't particularly expecting 2g to be that strong - but I somehow knew that they would be. I always get the feeling that I am merging my conciousness with the mushroom - its like I invite the mushroom to express itself and share my conciousness for a while. I don't know the reality of this of course, but this is what it feels like. In this state it seemed easier to objectively observe what was happening - thoughts were easier to recognise as just impersonal thoughts, feelings as feelings - without any identity attached.

2g seemed like a good amount because I didn't get too confused.

I was confronted early on by a blobby like spirit behind my closed eyes. It felt challenging - but unable to affect me - unable to affect my awareness. We has some playful interaction, and I asked it what it wanted. It seemed to suggest that I was going to die of cancer - to which I replied that was OK and I didn't really mind - death is the contract of life.

This was all serious and totally un-serious at the same time. The mushroom seemed to find some 'serious' parts of my personality amusing. Or perhaps I was seeing them objectively and found it amusing. 'I am meditating, with mushrooms, in earnest - asking what is true.' a spiritual explorer - serious and totally ridiculous.

Mooji guided me into self-inquiry. And the mushrooms seemed to help me.

I found an awareness that seemed to be untouched and untouchable. Mooji suggested that this is what I am, what everyone is. And it seemed like he was right. Ego, thoughts & feelings, the hallucinations caused by the shrooms - all come after awareness and are nothing more than a passing light show. But awareness seemed primary and permanent. I was astounded and awed.

After the Satsang finished I was left in pure bliss. The shrooms were giving me faint images of the god head -it seemed like the source of everything. Some figures danced, faded, imperceptibly in the distance. I smiled and understood. It felt very similar to my experience with the god head on DMT - except less hyper real.

I thanked god/the spirits/my imagination and went to bed.

Today has been beautiful. Awareness is quietly in the background, untouched and untouchable. But is it imagination? Perhaps it will reveal itself further.

Ben x

Just started to investigate shrooms, thank you for sharing. How long did your meditation last? The effects of the GT shrooms?

Hi finite fox.

In this case both the meditation and he shrooms lasted about 3.5 hours. But shrooms can last much longer (5/6 hrs) until baseline. It comes in waves, the waves gradually get weaker and weaker, but sometimes surprise me - I'll feel pretty normal, and be convinced that it's all over - only to be dragged back under by another powerful wave.

Small doses (1-2g) are WONDERFUL in nature. You see everything as if for the first time and the beauty is awe inspiring. I'm not a fan of doing psycadelics outside - I like to feel safe - but shrooms are definately an exception for me.

Happy travels

That sounds like a beautiful experience Whatis, meditation and mushrooms are a wonderful combination. I find psilocybin quite physically sedating at times which can really help to be still and relax into a deep meditation.

I’ve never taken a psychedelic during a Satsang but I can imagine it could be pretty powerful. Years ago after trying LSD for the first time I attended a Satsang the following day and it was very intense, if anything it was even more overwhelming than the previous evening.

I’ve found that ~2-3g cubensis can certainly come and go in waves like you describe, whereas with a similar dose of liberty caps they usually come on and keep going for a good 4-6 hours or more. I’m the same with preferring to dose at home and find light doses in nature can be really nice aswell. Nice to see you back around these parts. (: