Introduction Essay and kind of a Trip Summary

Greetings fellow travellers! I am excited to join your wonderful community! This past August, I embarked on a life-changing psychedelic journey and the articles and discussion posts on this site have been an incredible resource! Thank-you!

A little bit about myself:

I am a 28-year-old female, though I fear most days, my maturity level is that of a 5 year old! I love to laugh and adore music and animals.

I am a bit of an odd duck compared to my family and friends and have struggled quite a bit since my teenage years to make sense of my life, this world and what my place is in it.

I am a pretty regular cannabis user and had tried shrooms 2-3 times many years ago. I was a little disappointed at the time with my shroom trips because I didn’t notice much of an effect, but my guess is just that they weren’t very strong.

But anyways, I was intrigued by the Spirit Molecule documentary a few years ago and have always wanted to try psychedelics both for self-exploration and recreational purposes. By chance, this past month everything came together perfectly! One wouldn’t think getting laid off from his/her job would be a good thing, but the timing! (And also I hated it!) Just after losing my job, I was asked to housesit for my uncle and all of a sudden found myself with no obligations (for a little while anyway) and a private space for a month!

But Dear God, I had no idea what I was getting into!

At the beginning of August, I REMOVED 40 tabs of LSD, 3 oz of pot and 2 grams of freebase DMT. (I should note that of course, all of this happened in a country where all of the above is completely legal

It was an expensive journey and one I won’t be able to afford again, if ever, for a very long time but still worth every penny. I feel like a completely different person now, almost as though my brain was “reset.” Better than any anti-depressant I’ve tried.

I had 5 or 6 sessions with LSD spaced between 5-8 days apart. (I wish I could have spaced them out further to get a better effect, but knew August was my only opportunity to partake a very long time) The tabs were said to be 200ug, but they were likely (based on descriptions I’ve read) around 75-100ug. My first trip I took 3, subsequent trips between 5 - 8. (I enjoyed all my trips, but the 8 tabs rocked my world! It was an incredible experience, but a little too intense! There was some definite ego loss throughout that trip where I would become immersed in these twirling black and white spirals.

And if it wasn’t the spirals, it was this gorgeous psychedelic overlay. Very hard to describe, but they were like the most beautiful floating crystals. This happened a few times, where I would start seeing all these patterns on the walls, and then very quickly these patterns would surround me until I was completely enveloped. It was incredible, but I just wish I wasn’t on the toilet when it happened the first time lol!

That is my one complaint, having to use the washroom on LSD was not fun…every time I’d go in, I would worry I might not come back!

The last of my LSD and DMT, I shared with a couple of good friends, but the majority of my trips were done alone, save for the company of 2 lovely cats. (I considered them to be my Spirit guides lol, but joking aside, they did help me keep my sanity I think. They were my tether to reality!)

I quickly learned that DMT and LSD are a match made in heaven! (But to anyone reading this who is new to DMT, I strongly recommend measuring your dose! I found that I didn’t need anywhere near the amount of DMT to breakthrough when I was on acid and had a very, very scary trip when I vaped too much. I can’t be sure of the amount but very likely over 75 or 80mg. (It was a combination of having a generous hit atop of a bunch of old spice residue. It was a kick in the pants that left me shaking on the couch for an hour! I thought I was done for and that my brain would never recover.)

Although I had a 3-4 harrowing DMT trips, the majority were pure bliss In retrospect, I genuinely believe that every time I vaped DMT, I received the trip I needed. (Even if it was terrifying!) It’s helped me find a renewed appreciation for my life, family and friends. (And at times, solid ground!)

Perhaps the most profound impact this month has had is in regards to my philosophy on life. Over the years, I’ve become pretty jaded and while my friends would likely consider me to be a happy go lucky girl, it’s only because the alternative is so bleak. Left to my own devices, I’m a pretty melancholy person.

I sometimes would find myself looking out at my concrete wasteland of a city and wonder “Is this really all there is? Why do we even bother?”

So it is the spiritual impact of DMT that has affected me the most. I now have no doubt that we are more than just our physical bodies and am humbled by how magnificent our world/universe/cosmos is. I feel incredibly joyful that we are a part of this.

I can’t ignore that life can be difficult and that the amount of injustice in this world is heartbreaking. But knowing that there is so much more out there and gaining a glimpse at just how amazing it is, has made a huge difference to me.

So I am now a full convert to DMT! Although, I won’t be able to enjoy it for quite some time, I am eager to learn as much as I can. This forum and community has already been a wonderful resource and I am looking forward to spending more time here.

Thank-you so much again to everyone here for providing such a great community and space!

(And also I apologize for being so wordy! But it is so nice to be able to share this with people who understand what an incredible molecule DMT is.)

My future goal is to learn how to safely extract my own DMT and also how to one day make Changa!

Welcome to the nexus lemonade.

Sounds like august was a life changing month. Please be sure to read the attitude page as there is no talk of buying/selling and is against the rules. But your right it sounds like the timing fell into place with all the right tools to rock your world. Proper dose is good when flying alone and might not have been as scary as you mention.

It is always better to learn to extract your own and is an experience in itself. All the information you need is here as well as for making your own changa which I recommend. Do your research and then proceed other than that enjoy the benefits of the community and do your travels safely! Thanks for the intro/trip report.

Peace

Dig in the site
you'll find many info, maybe much info, but there is a hurdle to take and then things come together nicely.

Welcome to the Nexus!

I think you are likely to enjoy your time here! It is a wonderful, magical place!

Have an awesome day!

-The Grateful One-

Thank-you so much for the kind welcome! And I’m sorry about the slip up that has now been removed. (I understand and respect why that was done, and it won’t happen again!)

But yeah, I did have 3-4 DMT trips that were difficult to integrate right away and reading about other people’s experiences and advice helped keep me sane! There’s no amount of thanks I can give you guys and gals that would be enough!

And you are so right regarding how we need to be careful with our dosage. My scary trips happened near the beginning of the month because I thought I was smart enough to eye ball it.

After I bought a mg scale, I’m embarrassed to admit that I had been loading far too much and while most times I didn’t clear the bowl, it meant that a lot of residue started to get built up…and that I was soon to get a major kick in the pants.

Also I wonder if having too high of a dose is why I didn’t remember my first few trips right away? I would hear a loud buzzing, feel myself begin to vibrate and then the rest of my trip would be a complete (though usually blissful) blank until I’d start to come down.

The craziest thing is that after I measured a 30mg dosage and entered DMT land, all of a sudden my past trips began flooding back. I wish I didn’t forget my trips so quickly, but I sometimes would try to give myself a message and during that one, I clearly remember laughing and thinking “oh yes, I’d been breaking through, it was simply that the experiences were way beyond my comprehension!”

One of my favourite experiences this past month was meeting (what I think may now be) Terrence McKenna’s elves. I thought of them as my little buddies and have to say I love them so much! I know, they could be a projection of my subconscious…but…

Never in a million years would I have imagined these adorable, dancing little creatures. They did not look anything like the elves or fairies in our story books, but nonetheless that’s what I suspect that may be. These beautiful little creatures, were about 2-3 feet tall and were incredibly joyful and loving. Maybe a little mischievous but in a humorous, playful way. (Not scary at all) I felt so much love from them and it felt like they were really cheering me on.

I can’t help but wonder if they are the “fairies or elves” that our ancestors believed in. And perhaps this fairy realm exists right alongside our own reality but we simply can’t perceive it. (Perhaps hidden amongst what scientists call “Dark Matter?”)

Oh dear, I’m sorry for being so wordy again. But how could I ever talk to my family or friends about seeing elves?! Hehe, I’m now into reading mode – this site is a gem! so I’ll try to limit my spontaneous trip reports and promise my future posts will be hopefully less convoluted! Thank-you again!

Welcome!

Don't apologize for being wordy, your posts are so far cogent and great to read. It's nice to hear so much about why you're here.

Doing what you did takes some guts, some determination and a hell of a will for self discovery. You belong here.

And yes, read up on extracting, it's extremely easy and incredibly rewarding, and there's no better way to develop a deep and intimate relationship with your ally than directly working with the sources yourself.

Thank-you so much!

The encouragement here means a lot and I feel a really positive connection to this community!

I have found my people!

And you have no idea how excited I am to extract my own. It’ll be a while before opportunity arises, but I’m looking at that as a positive thing, because there is a lot to learn!

Lemonade,

Welcome to the Nexus .

Your essay was great (minus the removed mistake of course) and was the perfect length in my opinion, as was your follow-up. I feel like I really got a chance to know you better. So thank you for taking the time to compose and edit like that.

You have definately come to the right place. There is so much juicy information here that a lot of good people have worked hard on assembling over years. I hope you like what you find.

Please feel free to join us in chat at any time.

Again, a very warm welcome to you.

Thank-you so much Pandora!

I am sending you a virtual hug!

Today was a rough one --- with the bottom of my extraction jar breaking off into the hot water bath! I don’t even want to guesstimate how long a full tea kettle of water will take to evaporate! But I have it spread out on a long glass casserole dish under a fan….so hopefully before New Years lol!

But it was a learning experience (will never use Mason Jars again!) and fortunately this happened on my 3rd pull, so it could have been worse. At this point, whatever I can salvage from the bark will be a bonus.

Anyways, I’m very grateful for the welcome and support you guys gave me on chat today --- I was almost in tears and very likely would have thrown out all the water that the bark had spilled into.

But I’m much happier place now...may have sampled a little sprinkle from my first pull hehe)

I hope you have a wonderful night wherever you are Pandora! And all the best to Nexus family!