Hey DMT Nexus forum,
Recently joined after using this site as a resource. Some of the posters here really hit a bell with me. I'm looking forward to some of the experiences.
I guess I can call myself a semi experienced psyhconaut. I've tried some 2CI, shrooms, and LSD on multiple occasions. All of the experiences have been positive even though each time i've voomed before the trip got fun.
I got some spice from a friend of mine. Honestly, I wish I didn't read so much about hyperspace before trying. Now that I have the stuff, I'm scared to try it!
After sitting on it and my friend wanting to know how it is, I tried a little bit on top of a bowl of ash. The effects were incredibly overwhelming, unlike anything I have ever tried before. In my haste, I tried this alone which was incredibly foolish. The room immediately got bright, my heart started racing (panic attack), and I noticed a strange square box of light above a mirror in my room where sunlight never seems to hit. Definitely got some visuals.
During the experience, I got this immediate sense of dread. Very similar to the effect I had when I tried salvia. I managed to calm myself down by looking at the clock on my laptop. When it comes to time dilation, I've found that looking at clocks soothes the anxiety for whatever reason.
I eventually came down. A day later, I tried the remaining amount I had again. This time it was less intense, more visuals and very much reminded me of being on psychedelics again. Even more odd was I noticed my peripheral vision blotch as if my visual reality was distorting. Still, I have this feeling of dread about progressing further. I've noticed i've been very tired lately and something within me has melted. I feel definitely more at peace right now.
It probably didn't help that I tried this on Friday the 13th (Paris terrorists attacks). I was around during the Boston Marathon bombing which to say the least this most likely didn't put me in a positive mind space.
Does anyone have any tips for over coming this fear? I've been doing relatively small amounts to ease into it, but I get that this is going to be dive in the deep end sort of thing eventually. Is there anyway to slow the onset? Every psychedelic i've tried had a slow burn, this is super fast.
This thread spoke to me:
https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=68024