As this is my 1st experience and flight report I would like to mention that I had researched the spice for months before getting to this point, accessing the Nexus assisted greatly as did more than a few TMK clips. I believe I was as 'prepared' as you can be for spice travel, and to be honest more prepared than I have been when travelling to any foreign country or engaging in somewhat risky sporting activities and adventures, thanks Nexus. To all would be psychonauts, do your homework, and thanks to all Nexiuns for the wealth and depth of shared knowledge and experience.
I was with a trusted and more experienced traveller in familair and comfortable surroundings. I ate a good meal ealrier in the evening, my head was clear and positive. Set and setting were perfect, our tools were homemade and methods somewhat inefficient. I experienced some pre flight anxiety, which I believe to be perfectly normal when preparing to enter the unknown. We were both determined to fully launch into hyper space. What follows is a combination/jumble of recollections of my 1st flight. The first two hits were straight from a home made bottle, we also had a spiced joint to enhance/extend flight time, and this seemed to produce the desired effect.
I inhaled as much as I could, holding for as long as possible before repeating. I was still inhaling the second hit when it began to take effect. Body vibrations, slowing of time, buzzing sensations in fingers and feet, my lips tongue and the roof of my mouth also began to buzz and vibrate though it felt like a different fequency and intensity to the vibrations in other parts of my body. Control of body and motor skills began to slow, visually my body and the room began to dissolve as I lay back into the universe. What followed was a complete disconnection from my physical self and this reality, the most beautiful and profound experience of my life. I closed my eyes touched the roof of my mouth with my tongue, it felt like I had flicked a switch and that I had launched, thinking 'too much, am I dying' at which point I reminded myself to let go and embrace the experience.
I was confronted by a super hi res image of my cats head which morphed into a wall of multiple tiny fractal characters, they broke out of formation and moved towards me shifting into fractal geometric shapes. In retrospect it feels like they were playing a joke but there was no malice in this. They were beckoning and communicating and this was warm and amusing. They started drifting away, think I took a few tokes of the joint and this point.
I heard clicking over my left shoulder not unlike the digital keyboard click of my phone. I was greeted by a Deity/Buddha/Humanoid/Alien type entity that was floating and beckoning, it was brightly coloured, radiant and beautiful, crossed legged and appeared to be floating. It's arms (elongated limbs that morhphed and transformed) were extending and it seemd at times to have a long tongue or mouth that appeared to be take on a long trumpet like shape all the while encouraging me to follow and or observe. We seemed to be driting upwards together. There were no words but communication was definitely occurring. I had lost contact with my body and physical self but remained calm.
Multiple events unfolded the order of which is jumbled as were my senses. I was following the entity through the fractal geometric dimension. My perspective continued to flip from observed to observer and and back again as I rushed through the scape. It felt like was connected to multiple experiences at the same time. At another stage I felt like was a tiny item of amusement or that I was being born or popping through a film or liquid surface, not unlike a fish in a pond or tank. I felt that I was being observed and that I was surrounded by beings, some sounded like children. I felt like they were tapping on the surface to get my attention and that when I drifted towards them they reacted and there were was a connection, laughter and joy. I felt smooth like a fish or like water or maybe both at the same time. It then felt like that I was removed or even consumed? but this was not unpleasant either. I was unsure sometimes if I was breathing but it didnt bother me.
Fractal patterns and geometric shapes that were intricate beautiful and infinite scrambling my senses locked unlocked and morphed into another entity and at times with me, I was moving around and in and out of these 'heads' at which point my senses were completely mixed up, at one stage I felt like I was viewing the scape from the inside of another entity's head, it felt like my visual field was 360 degrees or that there were multiple entities sharing an experience. I was unsure if I was in communication or just conversing with myself I think a bit of both but I felt information was being exchanged. I was recieving the message 'no not like that' it felt like my senses did not function the same way in this space and I was being encouraged to let go of my senses also. Language or speech was inadequate and it felt like new senses were available to access although not entirely within grasp. I recall trying to blink my eyes and was not sure if my eyes were open or closed, it felt like I had no contact with my body. There was a mechanical swish when I blinked and to me this sounded like the eyelids of an entity were moving although this could have been a sound occuring in the room where I was located.
When I began to return to my body I remember hitting the bottle again, we also spice loaded a joint so as to top up and continue on the journey. At another point I reached for the joint the tiny fractal shapes/beings became excited and encouraged me to smoke, which I did with enthusiasm but almost zero control and hindered by my laughter and astonishment of what was occuring. It felt like the spice was also encouraging me to smoke and the morphing objects were jumping in and out of the joint, I could observe the fractal shape as an entity but also as spice and flame as time slowed and both the tiny fractals and myself flicked between realms, I laughed spluttered and drew until I new that I was taking off again, and I was back in the embrace of the universe, rushing through peaceful light having left my body and sense of self as I decided to let go and be held in and of the fabric of time and space. I was confronted by a number of insectoid like beings in what felt like a cockpit or control panel. It felt like we were part of a living organic machine or ship, perspective shifting constantly as I felt like I was one of them, or that I or we were all shifting in and out of each other, and that we were all inside an insectoid brain all at the same time, it felt organic but did not look like any familiar type of organism. I shifted again and felt like I was moving back and that I was losing contact and drifting back to reality. I brought back a sense of connection and understanding that there is so much more and that it is us. Hardly revelatory for any experienced physchonaut but more than enough for my 1st spice hit.
Peace light and unity to the seekers psychonauts and travellers
[color=red]Our world is in crisis because of the absence of consciousness. To whatever degree any one of us can bring back a small piece of the picture and contribute it to the building of the new paradigm, then we participate in the redemption of the human spirit.
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