Hey everyone,
I hope you are all well and enjoying your lives, I'm writing this because, almost exactly a year ago I had my first experience with DMT that changed my life in enourmous ways, It's going to be a long read but I hope it interests and helps you all.
I'll start with some back story, I've been in Australia since I was 17, when I was 18 my dad (who was controlling and manipulating, and overall a bad person for my whole life) moved home and I stayed by myself with a couple of close friends, all was good I had a stable job I enjoyed but then I started partying, drinking 4-5 nights a week, at my peak taking MDMA 4-5 nights but generally at least Friday and Saturday, Ket, Acid, pills, anything, I was young and naive to what drugs really were.
So with all that, and work that stressed me to bits I ended up breaking down a couple times, couldn't take it, then one day about a week after a festival I was driving to work crying when the thought to drive the car into a tree entered my mind. It was my lowest point.
Thank fully I didn't, but a few weeks later I was offered DMT, I'm not going to go into details of my trips but I'll tell you the basics. After my first time taking DMT I felt a switch snap in my brain, a lot of the mental constraints I'd built up in my head were instantly blown away and replaced with a sense of freedom and lack of care for the little things that bothered me. I was in love (and still am)
So that was with crystals, I did a further 3 of white crystals and had my best experience, I ended up floating in a bed of clouds, the sun shining its rays of crystal white light on to me, every particle of energy flowed through me. Then a beam of light shot down from the sky and hit my solarplexus, sucking out all the negativity that I harboured from my father, replacing it with only love. I bawled my eyes out for hours after and couldn't look at the sky with out bursting into tears.
And thus began my real relationship with the spirits above, I ended up doing it close to a hundred times. I'd say maybe 50-60 big ones where the world dissapears, maybe 5 breakthroughs, to be honest I never wrote anything down and I did it in such a short space of time that it's all a blur. I'm not bragging or trying to impress, I wouldn't suggest it but I knew I had to. I never had contact with entities such as completely seeing them, but I can remember when I'd be coming down, I'd say thank you and these faces and a complete city would be in my bedroom, the people starting at me, loving me, I know their behind me and with that knowledge I have very little fear of normal life.
And so it brings me to the present day, I'd like to just stress how much work the last year has been, mentally and emotionally. DMT is not an instant fix, it takes a lot of time to even begin to make sense of the basics. For me, it's taken a year, but I can say I have honestly never been happier, or felt more like I'm on my destiny even though I lost my job and visa two weeks ago and have to leave Aus in 3 months, but that's ok
If you're embarking on this journey, remember to take the time to integrate and learn about yourself. DMT has given me control of my mind, in a way I never thought possible, I made a promise to myself after my best trip, that I would reach that level of happiness in normal life, and I can genuinely say I have, and I hope you all do too.
Peace and love x
P.S Sorry if it's a bit jumbled, I'll go through and edit it but I just needed to get it into writing