SpathiEluder wrote:Very interesting Bodhi thank you. I try my best at that, but right now my stress comes from the fact that I am suffering depression due to lack of direction in life, and therefore struggle to look forward to a new day as it means a whole lot of self inflicted pressure that I am trying to make sense of. I am trying my best to relax and meditate before, I get to the point where I am happy to sleep and a little cosy, but somehow I stay slightly lucid.
I find I fall asleep OK when I am extremely exhausted, like after a near all-nighter. Once I get into the habit I might be ok. But anyway, here goes! Camomile has been consumed, melatonin has been swallowed, and so has magnesium.
I will either sleep or shit myself
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Appreciate your assistance and will definitely do some meditation now.
Good night!
You have answered your own question. Once you get over your depression and have a purpose in life, everything else will follow.
Depression affects your normal physiology. Depression is a self-perpetuating stress response, often triggered by a traumatic event. The key word there is "self-perpetuating", like a cycle. Once you break the cycle, you should conquer your depression. Easier said than done, I suppose. But just because it isn't easy doesn't mean it's not worth it.
Take up a hobby, talk to a variety of people (even those who you may not vibe with). Get out there and bring purpose into your own life.
I had a massive existential crisis a few years ago. I did not know what was the meaning of existence and the meaning of MY existence. "What's the point in anything if we're all going to die anyway?" was a thought that ran frequently through my mind. I came to the conclusion, "Life has no meaning, YOU must give it meaning." Since then, I'm living life with purpose.
Be one with YOU. And learn to let go of it, so that when you grasp it again, you can appreciate it that much more.
I'll leave you with this. Every morning, I read this poem that I have on my wall.
"Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy."
Max Ehrmann, "Desiderata".
"A common mistake that people make when trying to design something completely foolproof is to underestimate the ingenuity of complete fools."