Hi all,
Saturday evening I had my very first DMT experience.
I decided to go with Pharmahuasca, as I have no good device for smoking and feel like I can dose more accurately orally. Also like the idea of a less intense, but more spaced out experience.
Dosed 250mg of freebase harmalas and 70mg of freebase DMT into one glass of ~250ml orange juice.
I did not eat any fatty foods 36hours prior to this. And on this day, I only had a huge smoothie (bananas, grapes, greens) around noon before drinking the medicine.
Drank the OJ rather quickly and right after prepared another smoothie consisting out of four bananas to activate digestion.
Could only finish half of it however, since it was hitting me hard just 20minutes later.
I had already experienced mushrooms and a rather strong dosage of LSD before, but this comeup really scared me and I was not sure if I'm going to be able to handle it.
My skin felt like it was penetrated by pencils, not painful but irritating. My ears were buzzing with some shrill sound. Colours became very bright. My LCD Monitor showed a ridiculous bright white.
This all happened so fast, and it hitting me after 20minutes already really surprised me. It must have been the empty stomach.
Felt the need to lay down and cover myself with a thick blanket, so I quickly went to my couch. I don't recall much of the next 10minutes, pretty sure it was not hyperspace, but I was in panic mode, as I was not sure what was happening to me.
After these 10minutes I calmed down and realized I could control the situation. I checked the watch and saw that not much time had passed. This was intense. Noticed that I was crying quite intensely. I say noticed because it seemed to be a mixture out of emotional outburst and some sort of bodily response.
The next 2-3hours were quite emotional, and I realized why this is called medicine. I kept crying a lot, it felt good though, and was accompanied by euphoria, love for myself and a very positive outlook on life. It felt like a really good release.
I thought this was an awesome tool to look at the past and present relationships I have in my live and appreciate these people and forgive them for their (perceived) shortcomings.
Also admitting to my own shortcomings and be welcoming to them.
Felt a great compassion towards myself and others.
Felt some nausea, but did not have to purge, came close once but it only felt better and better as time passed on. Was so relived that I won't have to spent a long time in the bathroom!
After about 4hours after drinking the OJ, I was coming down again and was also becoming a bit tired of this state. I think even though it was very relieving, it was also exhausting for me. I ordered some food and watched some TV. Fell asleep soon after and had a good nights sleep.
Overall, this was a very positive and breathtaking experience for me. I'm still in the process of integrating this, very powerful stuff!
This site and the people on here have been a great help to plan this experience, thank you!