Pretense:
I've posted 2 other trip reports on this welcome page. All four of my trips have been a continuous experience. Like themes and characters I see have reappeared between trips. In my last trip a trippy ritual occured where several figures become one and this single figure became a dark entity that to me looks like satan as depicted by the christian church. This satan figure scared me shitless and took advantage of my fear and began burning my mind. Eventually I came to and decided I wasn't gonna smoalk for awhile. I guess awhile for me is about 3 weeks cause that is all it has been and I just got back from a pretty cool trip.

Physical Setting:
Bedroom in bed, no sitter, curtains closed but ambient daylight shining through, enourmous tie dye tapestry enveloping me in my bed . Also over ear headphones playing ephemeral by Bassnectar followed by the next two songs from that album. I picked that song because I had a moment during a set while he was playing that song.

Mental setting:
Tired, not much on my mind, a little anxious cause who doesn't get preflight anxiety?

The Toke:
I pre-melted ~15mg onto my version of "The Machine" let it cool down for a few minutes and then just took one really long slow hit. I may have been able to get another, but due to my previous experience and how it scared the crap out of me, I was okay with leaving a little spice for next time.

The Trip:
As I exhale the toke things have already gone all crystaline and warpy. The tie dye wrapped around my body was a vortex of color and if anyone has tie dye tapestries I highly recommend covering yourself in them next time you go to space. My eyes were open for the majority of the come up. I was expecting audio distortion from my music but got none and that was cool with me. The music was so perfectly synced with the rhythm of the trip. At some point I closed my eyes.

I saw Satan again so I opened my eyes. Then I told myself "Satan when my eyes are closed is just a trip man, lets check out what hes got goin on, he cant hurt me if he has manifested from me". So I close my eyes and hes there but out from the center of his face a woman takes form and she begins dancing to my music. The more I focus on her the less apparent Satan is. She is dancing for me, but not like a stripper dancing sensually or anything, but more just dancing in a really pleasant happy way and she liked that I was watching so I did. Satan flashes in and out but he's much less apparent as the woman's dancing continues. Then the trip begins to end and she actually waves goodbye to me!

Afterthoughts:
-I think this evil figure I see stems from my fear and awe of the intensity of the trip.

-I think in the next few experiences I will get better at banishing this fear from myself.

-I took a much higher dose my first time trying dmt and I got absolutely no complex cevs, same with my second experience. This time however it was a lower dose than I think I've done ever, and was still interacting with things as opposed to just a trippy wall of color. Weird.

-Rick and Morty inspired my best mantra to stay calm yet: "SHOW ME WHAT YOU'VE GOT, I WANT TO SEE WHAT YOU'VE GOT." I just mentally shouted that at the trip as i was coming up and it worked really well to not let me get too overwhelmed.

-Overall: still can't entirely avoid being overwhelmed, once I'm peaked (or maybe it's during the come down) I am able to relax myself. But during the initial rush I just can't take how crazy it all is. The woman towards the end was genuinely kind, the way she was sort of caming out of Satan's face made me a little skeptical, but a feeling that she meant no harm was there the whole time. It was almost like Satan was on channel 1 and the woman was on channel 2 and both the channels had interference with each other and were fighting for dominance.

Edit: grammatical errors

Holy Goodness Rick and Morty! Love that show! Thank you for sharing your awesome experience. The woman you speak of reminds of me when I listen to Deadmau5. I too have had experiences where I felt "Satan". I didn't see the "Christian" sense of Satan. I really like to refer to Satan as having no name. The Nameless. This figure did not come to me in an illustration but rather a feeling. It's strange to me because when I see entities when I trip, I don't see figures. I feel them. When I read other people's trips, including my own partner's, they can describe very well what they look like. I could see your Satan when you described your trip. LSD and Psilocybin Mushrooms are really the only head spaces I can see figures. And it's usually not fully put together. Sometimes I see entities with no arms or legs. Sometimes I see creatures that look like starving little gray alien people with no eyes. Sometimes I see colorful pixelated fractally looking people with their faces all over the place like in a Picasso painting. This "Satan" I feel when I trip on DMT doesn't feel like what Christians depict as Satan so I don't really want to call it Satan. I think that confuses the idea I have about Satan in my mind. This massive ball of black shadowy energy was just sitting there in the back of my mind, particular to the left rear. I remember it so well. I felt soooo much emotion from it. Mostly despair, sadness and fear. I didn't feel anger from it. Although, it did have a strange presence of containing a lot of aggressive energy that was dormant within it at the time. I felt it observing me, at a distance. I didn't talk, It didn't have much of a shape, other than kind of a spherical shadow blob. But I sensed curiosity from it. "What is this thing in my world?" I told myself pretending I was the blob in an attempt to guess at it's true intentions there, if it was even capable of having intentions.

As far as the woman coming out of Satan's face. You reminded me of a philosophy I would like to share but don't want to delve too far into philosophy on someone else's post. I'd rather wait to become a full member so I can post in the philosophies section. Unless you would like to hear about it. I'm adamant about not imposing my ideas onto others unless they are willing to delve into someone else's imagination. I find it too often leads to arguments. I try to avoid arguments by using maybe, might and I'm probably wrong... but that doesn't always work especially when someone is passionate about their own beliefs on what they see during trips. It's a very real experience to all of us. To me, the imagination is real so I cannot deny it's existence at all. My goal is to find a way to bridge the gaps between imaginative reality and physical reality.

" It was almost like Satan was on channel 1 and the woman was on channel 2 and both the channels had interference with each other and were fighting for dominance."



Love this description. This reminds me of how we are always fighting our own demons within ourselves. Conquering our own questions about reality and learning about ourselves and our existence. I'm particularly fascinated with demons and creatures of the like. A lot of my trips I have seen plenty of snakes and spiders and I welcome ALL of it. I love creepy things. It's like how a skydiver loves the adrenaline rush of the fear. I get most excited when visited by spiders and snakes and demons. It's a thrill!

I'm on a mobile device so this is going to be a short reply but of course I'd like to hear your take on my trip! if I didn't want people's thoughts on my experiences I would just write them in a journal. I'm interested in whatever you have to say

Edit: if you want to get a better idea of this repeat character that I can only describe as Satan check out my trip report 3. Might give you a better idea of what I went through before meeting this character again.

Also the figures I see are always warped up in tippy patterns but the patterns are so complex that when I describe these beings I'm only describing the essence of what I'm seeing. In other words the Satan character essentially looked like Satan and the dancing woman essentially looked like a dancing woman. for example however, when she waved goodbye her hand waving was all over the place in my vision not just attached to her body. Hard 2 explain but yeah. I'm not seeing totally clear 3d figures but rather the patterns unfold in such a way that they give the essence of physical characters I can interpret.

Great I am just going to go into my perspective and hope I make any sense. I do not by any means, completely trust or believe in what I see entirely. I am always learning new information and evolving my personal channeled philosophies therefore I prefer to keep an open mind when it comes to alternate realities and I strongly suggest others do as well to avoid conflicts with others.

In your description of a woman coming out of Satan, you reminded me of a Woman who had a satanic kind of shadow. A cage of some sort and when she found something she loved, she broke through her demon. If God is everything, then God is both man and woman. The demons of a woman may be "manlike" to some degree of perspective. Perhaps they are to show you that you have a warrior spirit in your life that is either close to you or connected to you from a distance and is conquering some of the challenges for you that you might not be able to in order to lure you closer to her path. Eternal Unconditional Love. We all can learn a degree of unconditional love for one another but I don't believe in the whole that unconditional love exists. For instance, I don't love a man who would rape my child. I would love him in the condition that he changed, permanently. That is conditional love. There is still a lot of war among ourselves. Humans and animals and atoms of the like. Constantly crashing, colliding, bonding, splitting and warring with each other. If you already have a love in your life, it could even represent some of the struggles you both have gone through and conquered and found those peaceful moments of dancing and singing which made facing Satan all the more worthwhile. A reminder as to what our eternal goal might be in this universe.

The wild thing about dmt is that it can be so abstract that if everyone had the same exact same trip visually and emotionally they could still all come up with completely different meanings behind it. I definitely feel that the visual of the kind woman coming out of Satan's face was some sort of obstacle being conquered. This woman has been the first truly positive entity I've encountered on dmt. It would be very cool if she stuck around or guided me to others as kind as her. I am completely and utterly illiterate when it comes to spirituality so I don't know what to say about the whole warrior spirit thing. I like to think that maybe this woman is an aspect of myself that is able to triumph over fear though. Cause that is what she was doing. But I swear it all came back to the music. I feel like if there hadn't been the music, the woman may not have even shown herself at all.

Also just curious about how you said you only feel entities but don't see them. If you don't see the entities then what takes up your vision during a trip in place of them?

Click on my username and view my Introduction Essay and it will tell you about my best DMT trip I ever had. I remember it like it was yesterday and I have a bad memory so that says a lot for me. I see light and colors. They have their own unique forms that I have never seen before. I can only compare them to things I see. Loose example but still an example: When you describe a painting, telling someone it is shaped like a square won't give them the full picture. But if squares are the only thing you have ever experienced, you won't be able to describe anything beyond that. So you need someone else to come in who has experienced clouds to say oh there are some clouds on top. And someone else who has experienced water to come in and say there is water on the bottom. Now we are starting to get an idea of what we are seeing. I like to look at trips this way. If we combined all our stories together with what each individual has experienced, we might be able to find a greater picture. A real truth behind the ideas. You know what I mean?


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