Oh wow
I am floating back from an extended session trying some Pau d'Arco Changa I made recently. The DMT was extracted using Jorkest's limonene tek. The Pau d'Arco was also enhanced with an acetone tincture - I left some of the bark in a jar with acetone for a few days and used that to melt the spice and enhance some dry Pau d'arco, 1:1 ratio.
It was a long session! I'm not sure how many times I went back to the bong, maybe 5 times... not sure. I was shown amazing things. I felt totally honoured and thankful to be shown such beauty. At one point it got extremely sexual. It almost felt like some entities wanted to feel human sexuality, like they were urging me to make myself orgasm. It was crazy and beautiful.
Once that part of it was over, I went back in .. after smoking a bowl of 10x enhanced Caapi leaf, one last hit of the Changa. I have such a clear memory of some almost hilarious scenes with the clear face of a good friend of mine in impossible morphing clown scenarios. I had some teachings about him, that he is being protected, him and his mother, I wont go into details but that he is possibly a reincarnation of an old old and important entity. Who knows if its really true but that seemed to be a clear message. In realising my connection with him and his mother, the connections in my life began to unfold, I was shown what family really is, how we are all connected by many (infinite?) threads on different levels and planes/dimensions. I was taken deeper into the rhythms of the earth, shown the rhythms of life and existence, and was shown where I was at my current place in the universal & earth rhythm (which was lying in my bed at night before work the next day).
I was quite amazed, it felt like I have seen the beating heart of existence itself. The constant rythm of birth and destruction. I was shown parts of my life, of the importance of certain people in my life, the levels and ways in which we are all interconnected, for example through sex, language, and even now the internet (albeit on a very limited level). I realised that everything has beauty, even great pain and suffering, it is all part of this amazing game we are playing. Existence is perfection.
Its like you can see and feel and be the realisation that love is the fabric that holds the universe and existence together; not in a cheesy way at all, just it is the fabric of reality. It so hard to put most of it into words, language is amazing but so limited.
Well, I think that is about all I can muster right now. Sleep is needed!
balaganist is a fictional character who loves playing the game of infinite existence. he amuses himself by posting stories about his made up life in our plane of physical reality. his origins are in other dimensions... he merely comes here to play.