Hi I am new here and figure ill get started by introducing myself.
Im a professional guide to the subjective workings of the soul and its liberation and have recently become fascinated or I should say, more fascinated by the possibility of catalysing insight using non-ordinary states.
DMT has showed me something preposterously profound and transcendently beautiful. It has suffused my life with a new multi sensory aesthetic appreciation and has brought the existential contact of life to the forefront of awareness, something like being washed clean.
In fact on one of my most significant forays, I found myself being washed on the bank of the river nile beneath mercurial waters which reflected within crystaline artefacts, cultural representations or symbols of the superconscious realm. It pointed first toward the deep wellspring of natural hope and profundity flowing down from the eschaton, clothed in the beauty of our human diversity and then reminded me of how far we have fallen into nihilistic, narcissistic horror. I cried at the beauty of who we truly are and at the tragedy of our fallen state. I returned with a sense of great reverence for life and a firm footing in my life purpose.
My next most profound experience was meeting what I can only assume to be a god, likely what the hindus point toward as Shiva. The approach was the most ecstatic and playful death, moving ever deeper, merging and differentiating with this numinosum and infusing me with a knowledge that deep within my being is a locus of transpersonal motivation, a fiery intelligence which can be met only through submission yet who rewards the willing sparring partner with a taste of the infinite bliss. I recognised in this being the greatest ally of my life, that which I have feared all my life and that which rewards my courage to approach with something indescribably intoxicating, the fire of the holy spirit maybe, something playful and dangerous but ultimately purely loving and in service of our best interests, of love and connection.
The third most important trip came after a meditation, the disillusionment into the visionary realm came in a jolt, i could feel my identity dissolve almost violently as I sunk into hyperspace and lost all boundaries, Here was revealed the secrets of the patriarchy, I saw myself confronted by a lion spirit made of fire, surrounded by black tentacles and concentric rays of red and blue light. I was shown the necessary defences of my personality in service of establishing a vehicle for spirit upon the earth. I saw the innate animalistic violence and the manipulative dispassionate aspects of myself, I saw my piercing eyes and revelled in the empowerment of my evolved defences with a background of horror at what I have become.
In one of my first trips where I was seeing coherent realities beyond the machine like lights and colours, I was raped by a lion headed goddess, a rape which initially seemed deeply intrusive and unwelcome but once submitted too became the opening of all the chakras. I felt at one stage as though I was about to wet my pants until it became clear that my third second chakra was spinning full force and it just has a sensation which felt slightly similar to the urge to pee.
In this same way, each of the chakras were activated, this was my initiation, multidimensional sex. I am reminded of the great rite of paganism.
And so here I am, eager to engage with the community who have access to these visionary realms, to communicate and debate and to learn in various fields.
I hope the community welcomes me and I hope that I have something to offer.
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