(times are approximate)
T+0h 280mg Tabernanthe Iboga TA extract
T+1h 1 cup of Rooibos tea
T+5h 1 cup of decaffeinated green tea
T+5h ~2g Ashwagandha root powder
T+6h 3mg melatonin (with 10mg Vitamin B6)
T+7h 500mg Passiflora Incarnata 10:1 extract
Oh boy...
It had been a while since I'd taken more than a microdose of iboga and had been feeling quite lost recently and in need of the loving guidance that only that special endangered African plant can bring, so I weighed out 280mg of TA and poured it down my neck at 7:30pm last night.
I'd had two previous experiences of TA of 240mg and ~400mg, so I knew roughly what to expect at this dose level. As before, it was truly awesome and also as before, incredibly difficult to put into words. But far greater men than me have taken far greater doses and written far greater trip reports than I could, and that's not what this post is about. After coming and going in waves over the course of about 7 hours, the visuals had completely faded and I was very tired and went to bed.
Now, I can only logically assume that what happened next was down to one or all of the co-administered substances listed in the itinerary above. It was about 2am, I crawled into bed eagerly anticipating some much-needed sleep. Within seconds, something felt wrong. Panic. Anxiety and heart pounding - fight/flight reaction. Uh oh. The visuals were back. The whole trip was back. But not just BACK - it was way, way stronger than the peak had been 4-5 hours ago, and unlike the normal low dose TA trip which is 99% nice and pleasant and uplifting with very few rough edges and almost no sinister vibes, this trip that had been completely over a few minutes ago was turning nasty fast.
These were by far the most powerful visuals I've had on iboga, surpassing those I had at the peak of my 400mg trip a few months ago in intensity, velocity and vividness by a factor of 10. And they were not friendly. They still fit the same "style" as "normal" iboga visuals, except now they had much more power and depth, and were nearly all extremely sinister and dark. This was easily worse than that 1p-LSDMT hyperslap I'd had on 200mg of acacia fumarate 3 months ago. It was one of those "Oh my god, I'm never taking drugs again" trips.
I wish I could describe these visuals. Looking back at them now from a relieved state of detachment, they were amazing. Lots of demons and zombie-like figures with menacing faces in scenes of depth and colouration that put DMT to shame. Unlike all my other iboga experiences, including this one up to this point, I felt quite a lot of dissociation, in that the fear and demonic visuals had such a grip on me that my handle on the outside world was diminished. The "fear gateway" of dissociation - that feeling of being pulled away from terra ferma... by demons.
Unlike the visuals in the earlier part of the trip, which I had to carefully "feed" by relaxing and letting go of trying to control the experience, these ones imposed themselves on me, and I had to employ similar techniques to *suppress* them. I would see faces of people in incredibly detailed situations, and I'd be forced to keep looking at their them as they twisted and contorted into evil grins. At times it was like I was looking through at CCTV camera footage in another universe. The intense, yet distorted, realism was incredibly disconcerting. Each interlude that I got sucked into would overpower my grip on reality.
The DMT entities smelt blood and joined the party, making themselves known through the "iboga portal" instead of the DMT one. Imagine a DMT entity attack, but in the "style" of iboga. Those "hands" were grabbing at me, trying to catch me. A couple of times I managed to fall asleep and the fear was all gone, but as soon as I woke up a few minutes later it was back on me 100% - like an inverted nightmare - where the waking part is the scary part and sleep is the relief. If this had got much worse I would have fired up the computer and jumped back on chat again, because this was something else.
Melatonin and/or Passionflower look to me to be the two most likely culprits for this massive alteration of a spent trip. It won't be the ashwagandha since I've taken that before bed every day, every trip, for the last year, with no noticable effect. It reminds me of what Jorkest said about taking MXE at the end of an LSD trip - it brings back the LSD even stronger than it was at the peak.
I'm caatious about combining substances since that 1p-LSD debacle, but popping a little melatonin before bed at the tail end of a low dose iboga trip sounded perfectly harmless to me at the time. Guess not, lol. I'd be interested to see if anyone else has had similar experiences with this combo, and would warn anyone who hasn't, to not
peace,
alk
Uh uh. I know what you're thinking. "Did he load 40 milligrams or only 30?" Well to tell you the truth in all this excitement I kinda lost track myself. But being this is DMT, the most powerful hallucinogen in the world and would blow your head clean off, you've gotta ask yourself one question: "Do I feel lucky?" Well, do ya, punk?