Hiya,

I've visited this site on and off for many years now.

I've always been interested in reading up on others experiences and find ol deems to be a very fascinating drug.

I've never tried it personally.. and im not looking to do it anytime soon, not at this point in my life anyway.

I have a lot of respect for the substance, and psych's in general, especially after experiencing full blown ego death on cid a few years ago.. That was a big wake up call!

The reason I'm finally signing up here is because there are topics of discussion I'd like to join in on.. eg., how psych breakthroughs transformed, lucid dreaming, the spiritual/philosophical side of things.. oh and, of course, to connect with others.

This year I have grown a lot as a person.
I'm continually told by friends how much they've seen me change and evolve for the better.
To give you an idea as to what promoted this growth; this year, I've gone through a breakup, severe illness (Crohn's disease), x2 surgeries, going through chemo, having to move back with my parents and a week ago my brother passed away..

My bros organs failed him due to damage from alcohol addiction.. he was young, only 33.. the doctors told us (my parents and I) that they had never seen damage so bad at such a young age.
Many people tried to help my bro, but as i have learnt over the years.. you can't help someone who doesn't want to help themselves..

Anyway.. back to what I was saying about growing as a person.. I've been feeling a lot more spiritual. Sure, the seed was planted years back, when i experienced ego death, but things are all falling into place in my head.
I've taken a break from facebook. and have been focusing a lot on myself lately.. writing in my journal, playing keyboard, listening to music, connecting with nature.

I guess the only 'downside' or challenging aspect to all this growth is that I now feel I'm on a different plane to most.. I'm wide 'awake' and to even try and explain to a 'normal' person.. well, I'm sure many of you understand the kind of space I'm in.. another one of my reasons for joining.

anyway, thanks for reading. looking forward to becoming a member of the community

peace ~

Welcome

Welcome to the Nexus! You have been through a lot and I'm sure you'll find the Nexus to be a welcoming and supportive place!

Welcome to the Nexus!

Life is a challenge, but you know this. You have my deepest condolences for you and your family during this difficult time. It is never easy to lose a family member. Rest assured that the discussions here are genuine and so are the people. We actively pursue greater knowledge and share insight and experiences. I think you will fit in well around here.

Welcome once again and may you find everything you are seeking

PEACE

-The Grateful One-

thank you for the warm welcome

Welcome my friend you have definitely made it to the right place to learn share and expand your mind with like minded people and I can already tell you are very wise just the way you told your introductory story about acid how it was a wake up call it's okay not to be ready to move on to bigger things that's one of the rules of psychedelic is being ready physically mentally and having the right settings you make an excellent part of this community as do all the members new and old take care and have a wonderful day.

♡Best regards marz♡

Woohoo!
Seems like you will have an exciting journey!

Hey, welcome to the Nexus man

Good luck on your journey. It's always amazing to look back at where I have been when I found my path and compare it with where I am now. Im glad that others are waking up as well and going down their own paths... And man, don't worry about people - as you change, the people around you will change as well and eventually you will find yourself surrounded by people who will both understand and challenge you to further growth; exhibit A - The nexus.