It was like being stabbed in the Temple with a spike that was hitting the back of my eye. The pain was so intense I began dry heaving violently. I begged god for it to stop. It persisted. I begged him to stop. It persisted. I begged him to kill me. I lived. What seems like an eternity passed before the next morning waking up, feeling as if I had been struck with a baseball bat across the face.
This describes most of my cluster headaches until recently now it might go something more like this:
The pain was beginning, and then suddenly evaporated, as a vine of pure love and light enveloped me and told me I was safe, and being healed. As the light persists I could see the tentacled thing retreating from the great plant spirit giving me relief.
I'd like to thank the DMT Nexus (specifically Tat) for getting me to get into changa, and because I have, I have a lot more control over my condition. I've been using a moderate dose of 1:1:300mg MHRB extract:mullein + caapi leaf:Rue Extract mix to abort my cluster headaches successfully since August of 2014. I prefer this method for relief because it has a very short intoxication and often gives me a really great after glow.
WHY did I resort to Changa? I can't afford my prescribed medication eletriptan which is 40$ a pill. I am fortunate enough to live in an amazing climate that allows me to grow several DMT containing plants as well as Caapi, so it is very easy for me to grow my own medicine, versus paying an obscene amount of money for something I don't really even want to take (side effects are pretty undesirable for eletriptan) A Cluster Headache can be a very ego destroying experience, but it to me is the exact opposite of psychedelic perception. In whatβs known as a prodone I experience perceptual disturbances starting with my mental perception and vision first thing I notice is depression then visual changes where details become blurry, faces become unrecognizable, colors are desaturated, depth becomes harder to perceive making the appearance of 2d objects rather than 3d, the world seems dull, these turn into confusion and inability to communicate or understand commutation. Stimuli like sound, certain kinds of touch, light, and smell become nauseating and painful. For years I had no treatment because of being misdiagnosed, and even when I would describe the intense pain I suffered the best I ever got was 800mg Ibpreufin.
How did I discover this? Well I had nothing but DMT at the time. I tried smoking it by itself, got temporary relief so, I knew it worked a little bit. I eventually tried changa became familiar with it, then began trying doses to figure out how much I needed to abort. Started at 20mg... eventually ending up at 45mg.
I can return to work and do anything I need to do after an hour. This method above all the others gives me control over my condition because of the shorter intoxication vs. LSD and Shrooms. I prefer to use LSD to prevent my clusterheadaches, but I am still working out my dosing regiment, so in the interim changa is my "sumatriptan"
I have tried a lot of things for this condition, not everything, but MOST things, and I prefer this Changa + LSD method. At some point I will try ayahuasca and also mescaline for this condition and report to the community. I can post a list of things I've tried in there effects as well. I have tried quite a lot of substances for this lol.
Creator help me live in a way that will make my ancestors proud.