Hi
hello everyone.
This will be my first post here. Being reading and exploring this amazing site for almost a year now. I gain so much emotional strength and knowledge from here, it's time to step ahead and introduce myself : )
First I will apologies for any mistakes that may appear. English is a second language for me and there is always so much more to learn.
23 years old in this place and time. Burn in a small country in the middle east well known for his share of problems. My family is strongly religious and the heavy weight of tradition was felt in all aspect of life. My journey led me out. As a teenager I found myself out of my parents house and community, free to make my own decisions and mistakes in life. Doing exactly that one of the things I discovered in those days was psychedelic drugs. LSD open my heart to the simple and incredible enjoyment that can come from within, and open my eyes to just how much amazing is this world.
One part of time that I remember closely was just after a lonely and hard winter when I was all drown in depression that I had contacted to this amazing and colorful group of people, many of them are my family in so many ways up to this days, and I being shown how healing it could be just to dance out your problems into madness.
But soon i was to start on a different way. In my country when you are 18 you are draft to the army. It's a key ingredients of life over there and even having a mix thoughts and feelings about it I found myself putting all of me into it.
To my and pretty much every one that now me surprise, I pass a really hard week of physical and mental testing and I found myself in a training of a special unit. These is a pretty big deal back home and It became a pretty big deal for me as well. A way to prove myself. I didn't succeed. After almost a year I did my mistake and I was out. I know now that I didn't belong there but back then i was pretty broke. By that time I was a soldier as you can be and pretty fast I found myself as a small commander in a well grease and operated battalion.
I had some shit going around me but, thank ja, I had luck. The truly bad things that happened to many of my friends being saved from me. My service time was in relatively quiet. Still when I was coming to finish those three years I was a totally different man from when I enter. The last month's before I finished where the hardest. In that time I ask not to be any more in commander positions. had no strength and belief for that anymore. Wasn't any good any way. spending hours alone in a garding posts I was full of anger and hate. the reasons was everything I could pick. From the house I could not grow into the society that used me. It was a breakdown starting from fear. Did not know what I going to do with my life... Will I still don't know, but I don't fear of it any more.. i am actually kind of excited about it now a days: )
Any case back then the only thing that made sense to me was the idea of flying as far a way of everything as I can. I really needed to reset my mind. The army really didn't do good with me..
So i finally finished the army and by the way of looking for a job i get attached with an old friend that had this crazy talk about a music festival in Europe. It was definitely one of my better decisions ever. For a month I worked every day long days and in the end of that month I was an a plain to Hungary.
That festival was good on a life changing scale : ) to be there, surrounded by all those beautiful people, in this strong vibe of freedom, was truly opening the heart.
The first time I smoke changa was there. I was not expecting anything since we didn't really ever hear about it before. ( in some point it just became a drugs fast with as ordering everything on the menu..) wow. That first time. Wow. I feel it was exactly the right time that it came into my life. Cleaning and healing. remaining and revealing to myself who am I. I could feel It washing the years in the army away from me. What can I say to describe. There is no no words : )
Coming back to my country I had a decision in my heart. I am going on a travel. Toke me a few months and I was on a plane to India. Pretty fast I found myself buying a motorbike and living a dream. In reality the dream had some sharp edges and is the same difficulties as always, but still became into the bust time I had in my life. For Seven month I cross the country and clime up to Nepal and the very north. Grow up a lot during this journey. Changa found the way to me again. Moments of magic and light that will always stay in my heart...
Running out of money I needed to continue. From the green and beautiful Himalaya I found myself in Melbourne Australia looking for a job. I am now almost a year here in Australia. Being learning so much over here. Working in a cattle farm, a Pistachio Farm, construction jobs and finally rope access jobs I being moving a lot around a few states. In Australia I took my relationship with dmt a step forward. While staying in a friend place in the country she and I decided to try and do an extraction. After days in the bush and a failed attempt I understood that there is a lot to learn first. Deeply regarding the trees I stupidly harm I order from the net. That first extraction wasn't the best and so my first changa. It still did wonders. From my second extraction, a few months after, I got a pretty poor yald but a pretty good changa with syrian rue extract and some good herbs. I truly want to thank this community for all the wisdom and knowledge that being put here, and for all the care and sharing. Thank you : ) it's open the door for me to a very interesting world.
So my year here in Australia is about to get over. time to move on. My next stop will be Peru at the start of july. I feel there is a lot for me to learn and discover there. There is an amazing girl and a beautiful soul joining me at the end of august and we are dreaming about a small house and a good community of people to share creativity and to learn from. I really want to learn about the proper use and the powers of the sacred plants. Don't know much about Peru so if anyone can give us same guidelines and directions- it's will help a lot : )
Thank you very much for reading all the way for hear. I had in mind a small introduction but it hard to stop when you start writing...
Peace and love
Eagle23