Hello Nexus,
I've been reading in this website for months. I find it so refreshing and full of so much beautiful love, light, knowledge and people knowing how to respond and add to ideas of other "seekers" and "thinkers".
I've been wanting to share but for some reason I am very nervous. Like you all know it's hard to put some of these "lessons" and "feelings" into words.
but I'm going to try.
I started having serious connections to the great "something" about 2 years ago now. In my soul I always knew and felt a higher power in myself, the world, and everyone around me. "There is something else and it loves us."
Everything changed however, and strengthened my relationship with the "great mystery" when I began doing LSD and AL-LAD on a regular basis when I came to college. Once I felt the presence of those "millions of people around me" and going to "the room". I was in and knew I had to explore further...like there was something (someone?) that needed to tell me a very important message. I always hear the first part of the message...but never can stay there long enough, to hear the rest. I began doing it alone, because that's when I found I could "get there" faster and more focused.
Everything started coming together like a puzzle but each piece was a piece to another puzzle.
I've been places...I've felt so much there. "they" pour so much into my head but never have been really able to "see" or understand fully.
When it begins it feels like I'm remembering, and I vibrate and am lifted. They always welcome me...show me, me...then take me away, float me back, always leaving me with the phrase "say it"
"they" have also sent me to my past and places that "I feel like I know"
I want to try DMT.
I am a little afraid that I may be a bit crazy...because I feel like I'm going to figure "IT" out but I know you can't...but ohhh how it pulls me.
Thanks for reading...if you did haha.
Thanks for being on this website.
It's beautiful confusion I feel and I would really love to hear your thoughts, reader.
I know there is something more, I love that we all can ask the question, why?
It's just a beautiful mess and a cosmic coincidence.
I love it...and I love you too!
Sending love and light to you all and always.
May the peace and seduction of the great mystery be upon you all.

Be loving, kind & patient with yourself laurasaura...


And welcome to the nexus!

I don't know if you will ever figure "IT" out, but you will surely learn a lot on this path! I've realized that things don't always come as fast or easy as you'd expect so like Doc Buxin said make sure to be patient with yourself. Life is fun

Hello and welcome.

Dont worry too much about being a bit crazy! Everyone around here is at least a little bit off in one way or another! I know I am anyway!

Welcome once again and may you find everything you are looking for!

-The Grateful One-

PS. Your introduction essay posted twice for some reason, btw!

Someone once told me DMT will find you. (Mind you, this was a girl telling me it found her through me)

Be patient, open and willing and it will find you when the time is right.

Better yet, go and find the vast treasure trove of DMT the universe has given us, and make your own time

Welcome!

Just try it when you're ready, and write a trip report.

I'm sure you will learn a lot.

I certainly didn't seek it out, DMT discovered me much more than I discovered it, I was given bark I didn't ask for. It turned out to be a wonderful life changing gift. I have in turn done the same for many others, gifting bark unsolicited to people who might find it intriguing.

But if you feel called, listen, and create the reality you desire, the one in which you have your own DMT at any time.