Hello
Infectedstyle wrote:Yes, I think I know what you mean. Do you have experienced with Ayahuasca/Mescaline or other naturals? How tolerant are you to drugs and how effective are they in producing hallucinations?
I have some small experience with mushrooms and morning glory when it comes to naturals. They both weren't very visual to me. My hallucinations after mushrooms were shining lights, usually red, blue, and violet, enhanced colours, space distortions, moving textures, tiny, moving fractals on edges of existing objects like leaves, plants etc. And with morning glories similar but without lights. Visions I had after both were more like a dream, maybe more vivid. And I had to have my eyes closed. With mushrooms I can also "dream" like this with my eyes open - it's hard to explain but then I simultaneously see the visions and my normal eyesight.
Infectedstyle wrote:The way I deal with it is through body movement, music and breathing.
Could You explain it a little more? I mean exactly what You do with certain body sensations?
Infectedstyle wrote:Just a funny factor, I have been working with body tensions. And I'm still not sure if we are talking about the same things. I find that a certain drug will make me aware of the pains. While at other times, I will not feel anything at all. But.. When taking a drug or doing meditation, the pain will be felt again at exactly the same spot. And unless I work to remove it, the pain will always be a recurring thing.
I'm think we're talking about the same thing, but I would refer to it as a "pain". I mean I never felt any typical pain, let me write some examples what I've already felt:
With morning glory:
- a "block" in my throat, as if I swallowed a pill that stuck in my throat. I tried to make me vomit to help this but it didn't. The feeling began during coming down and stayed long after trip ended (up to couple of days)
- a pressure to my head, as if some force were pushing it towards my torso. I wanted to push my head into anything, a wall, some furniture... It was a malicious feeling that was only getting more intense with time. A strong nausea accompanied this; however it may had been caused by morning glory itself (the nausea). I was kneeing in front of lavatory seat, feeling very bad, having visions of people being eaten by the lavatory seat. Then I decided to try to draw my vision, I took a piece of paper, made few lines and suddenly puked violently. It really purged me, both physically and mentally.
With acid:
- on coming down - some kind of energy that was travelling from one part of my body to another, whenever I focused on the part that was occupied with it - it escaped to another. Then I tried yoga that partly helped. The tension preserved however in jaw and limb muscles.
With mushrooms:
- a tension in my upper neck, I tried to rotate and move my head back and forward but the feeling was still there. Then I asked my girlfriend to massage it a little bit that partly helped. After a month I had the same feeling after 2C-P. It's a very recent thing...
Few years back I usually had problems with entering trips. I would take my dose and before any mental effects came I would feel uncomfortable with my body: a lot of nausea, unrest, tensions and wriggling. It would last until I gave up my resistance and then my experience would get pleasant and possibly visionary.
Infectedstyle wrote:I ask about Ayahuasca/Mescaline because I believe these two medicines can make the tension become more pronounced in tems of actual physical illness and naseau etc. resulting in the common purge. Psychological/metaphysical purge is but one way to remove the tension
Do You mean actually vomiting can release all this bad energy that's being trap within the body? Like in the situation I had with drawing a scene of a man being eaten by lavatory seat? Or I understand it wrong?
Infectedstyle wrote:Try getting some blood circulation and working with cold/warmth and see what it changes. Mess around with cold and hot water.
E.G. U mean like to put something cold or warm to my neck when I have the tension?
Infectedstyle wrote:Another thing that I think should help are Paracetamols.
I wouldn't want to take any painkillers when I'm high, maybe only if I really felt some ache but I suppose I would tend to see it as something more from my psyche than from my body anyway.
Infectedstyle wrote:I hope my gibberish helped, if only a little. We are all students I am just trying to share my story, hope it helped.
Thank You for what You wrote, I find it very interesting.
And one more thing. I also heard about Holotropic Breathework. I haven't read the book although I read a few other books from Grof. They were very inspiring to me. Sometimes I think going for a session of HB would be a good thing to me, maybe I could learn how to deal with these sensations.