DMT has been on my to do list for about a little over a year now and I just didn't know anyone around me who would dabble with a powerful substance like this. Well I have experienced plenty of other entheogens before and would consider myself a very spiritual person.. ever since I was a young lad I was brought into a very very "born again Christian" family seeing as my father eventually became co-pastor and my mother a deacon. Christianism ruled my life, it governed every aspect of life day in and day out, I couldn't even curse cause I'd think I'd be going to hell. Once I got to college I took a Philosophy 101 class and it changed everything , I started to ask more and more questions about things that didn't make sense. My parents basically told me off.
I pledged a fraternity and even though I love those guys it did bring on my alcoholism (runs in my family) I drank and smoked every day , abusing substances to basically fill an empty hole in my heart. I've had visions and many spiritual experiences in the past, and have came face to face with evil entities , I can also speak the tongue of "angels", things that people told me I was lucky to be picked. I didn't feel lucky at all, I knew that religion was pretty much BS, in the sense they take everything so literal, I became an atheist. I then met my ex girlfriend whom eventually we decided to move out and get our own place, I fell stupidly.. she ended up after a year and a half, cheating on me and lying to me about It, needless to say I was heartbroken. her family never helped with my alcohol problem either since her stepfather was more of an alcoholic than I ever could be. I contemplated suicide and was depressed for a while afterwards. I then went and drank my life away for weeks afterwards, in such a way that one day I was drugged at the Gansevoort Hotel in NY by a so called "friend" bartender and woke up in the hospital with no idea what happened , the nurse to me I could have died... that really stuck with me... I cut my drinking a bit afterwards but still drank consistently (this was last summer) among other bad drugs (I.e. coke).
It was until one day I had one of my brothers sleeping over and decided to go on an acid trip that Sunday (I've gone on only one experience before hand and it changed my life, and answered many questions BUT I disregarded most) well what happened was a friend for a few years (met in college sorority/fraternity life) messaged me that day asking if I wanted to smoke, I said sure and she came to my apartment. I asked her why she hit me up out of the blue and she said she broke up with her ex a while back and needed to get away, I asked if she knew about substances and she said yes. Long and behold she's only done acid once as well and she had a guy. We picked up and went to central park. Needless to say that trip opened my eyes and it was interesting to me how we could see the exact same things (her and I) I mean same visuals, same thought patters, and it was so strange to me how that could happen, we chilled that night and just watched a movie until she went home. I used to be someone who would go from girl to girl and not give a shit, but she was different, the next day I could NOT get her out of my mind... like all I thought about for days afterwards was her... it was so strange. So I told her straight up, " I cant stop thinking about you" she knew the rap I had in school for being someone who was looking for a quick bang, but eventually she opened up, and I have not been happier in my life how I am to this day.
We started talking and eventually she told me, we wont do anything until you drop everyone else and I'm your one and only, I did. And from that day we were official. We have gone through many trips together and to sum up some of my trip reports ; I saw she was me, but not in the typical we are all one way, but in the way that we were the exact same soul, split up into two different bodies. We were soul mates. Just a few notes; my birthday is her little brothers birthdays, my sisters birthday is her baby brothers birthday, my moms birthday is right next to her birthday weird shit. We went through our childhood, and it was pretty much the same... Same dog names, same events at certain point in our lives, same abusive background by our father. We communicated telepathically, and she took me on my spiritual practice of yoga and meditation. Through just those methods I've had OBE's and unbelievably experiences in which I spoke to the universe, and i met my spirit animal (owl) If you guys would like to read any of those trip reports, let me know ill post them. She moved in, and my apartment hasn't looked this nice ever. Its been a trip in the relationship, highs and lows, but I know shes me and I know I am her, so no reason to worry.
Well long story short, I was able to do extensive amounts of research and was able to do a tek, the first one failed, the second time failed (my own mistakes) and the third time I did Cybs Hybrid ATB Salt Tek and the crystals stuck! until I left them alone for a while in front of high fan and they melted into goo. I wasn't going to let that stop me, I redissolved into more naphtha, and I took the goo after a while and sandwiched it between Black Caapi vine , put some Icaros on and my soon to be wife went on a journey. They (the trips) were strangely similar but different, there was work we had to do on each other, but it came into synergistic communion after we baselined we were in awe. The space didn't seem alien to me, and It wasn't a simple DMT breakthrough, I feel the Caapi played a role in the breakthrough because the entities were definitely Aya entities and they moved with the Icaros, and at one point we denied they're knowledge, they completely stopped, I asked for forgiveness then they continues to teach. There's so much more to say but I will post a trip report later on tonight and Ill post it on this thread.
