Hey, I have mild experience with psychedelics. I have tried so far LSA, LSD, and Shrooms before I tried DMT as a sort of test if I had the mental ability to withstand the change in perception and reality. I felt like I was ready but oh boy, DMT is whole different beast. Not scary but I didn't even know I left when I was gone. I was ejected from my body and sent straight to hyperspace, I didn't even realize it until after I started coming down.
This is what I wrote in my notepad.
I was pretty nervous and just told myself I'm going to end up smoking it eventually, why not now. So I packed about 40mg in a bong with some ash to layer it. I'm pretty sure I fucked up and torched it but I think I still got some good smoke in. Wasn't sure if it was kicking in as I was pulling as much as I could and got it all in one breathe then went back for one more. I felt like jello in my chair and leaned back and couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. I saw these red towers that came inwards toward me and kept repeating infinitely. Everything felt so warm and comfortable to me and I felt like I was being watched, but like a warm motherly gaze or something upon me. As I was looking through the door I wanted to go through but I couldn't.
I'm pretty sure that's when the peak of my trip fell off and I was just sitting there in astonishment going "wow". I looked at the floor and it had all these designs and intricate patterns and this sort of black liquid seeping out of it that formed thorns.
I was scared before, but now I view it as something beautiful. I definitely want to break through the next time!
Decided to try again 7 hours later, this time somewhere around 50-60mg's worth. I decided to do it outside because the sunset was really nice looking and my back porch felt like it had an awesome atmosphere. Holy shit. No words. I can barely remember myself thinking "am I even getting affected by it now?" and I put down the bong and then exhaled. I don't know what happened but sometime during that exhale I just disappeared, I wasn't scared I was just enamored and amazed. I didn't even realize I existed as a person anymore, I was this consciousness looking at this what I think may be an entity? It was a black void with these purplish tentacles flowing from it and it was showing me all this...how do you even describe it...and then after watching this for awhile (I have no concept of time in this state) and I soon feel like I'm falling through hyperspace back to reality. I eventually realized that my physical self is still here and I can hear myself just repeating "wow this is beautiful" over and over. I'm going wtf is going on, then I try to think objectively as possible and that I should try to shut myself up before anyone hears me going off. I don't know what's going on at this point and try to look around but I saw these amazing colors of lights all around me just forming unfathomable patterns. I barely managed to stumble back into my house and the lights are off. I fucking see all these machine elves around me, I can feel them touching me and just surrounding me. They felt very negative but I just embraced it and they went away.
Next time I want to try breaking through without music, I'm not sure if that tentacle thing was an entity or not....but it was so beautiful, I'm glad to have experienced it and I'm looking forward to it in the future. I think I experienced ego death, to the point where I felt like I no longer existed to myself, I had no concept of where I am, I just was. I loved that I had a chance to be an observer in true hyperspace