smokerx wrote:Welcome and thanks for joining us.
Maybe when you feel the time is right tell us a little bit more about your self and experience with psychedelics.
Oh of course. I was introduced to LSD way back in high school and knew right away that psychedelics were for me. After high school I got away from the group and didn't use any for a long time. Not because I didn't want to, I just didn't know how to procure them. Then in 2005 because of certain events I found a drive to find psychedelics again. I didn't ask people at work because I was nervous of losing my job and I just really didn't have any friends. So I turned to the Internet. I started ordering mj from holland and after a few orders found that my guy could get mushrooms. I ordered a small amount. It didn't exactly knock my socks off or anything but it fueled the drive. I ordered some spores and put together a mushroom growing setup. The first batch got sick. The next batch didn't do much better. The only place I could put the setup was not very well temperature controlled. Moving on I found a shop that sold San Pedro and bought a few feet to experiment with. First I tried a brew and I just couldn't get it down. Then I thought maybe I could dry it, chop it up, and kind of swallow it with a gulp of water. Not too much better. Then I tried putting it in capsules and ate like 90 capsules(guess) of dried San Pedro or Peruvian Torch I can't remember I tried them both. That was a success. I remember watching my hand turn into a wolfs paw while playing WoW or Everquest II. After that the next thing I remember was being at my sisters house moving my hand around and watching the tracers. I know there was more. But this was quite a few years ago. The same place where I was able to get the cactus also sold salvia. I bought some 20x and smoked it quite a few times. What an incredible roller coaster. Most times I panicked as the universe started slicing. (I don't know how to explain it. But there were a few good experiences. One for instance the last time I used salvia, I took two hits and tried to take a third and a female voice said, "no more hits for you." And the pipe floated back to the desk. I saw a flowing cloth or fabric. My view moved in and the closer I got I saw the fabric was made up of millions.. Billions of people. We are all one. And I awoke. Shortly later the herb shop where I was able to get the cacti and salvia was raided and again I was without for a long time. I contented myself with making Rick Simpson oil for a while. Recently I moved to a place where acacia Confusa grows all over the place. I tried to find b. Caapi or Syrian rue here and I couldn't find a source. I think I'll have to order online. But in the mean time I used Cybs tek to make some crystals. I really like smoking. But I think I like the whole ritual of the extracting too. Last night I know I was taking a hit but don't remember that part. I remember blackness and two high pitched voices like those of the chipmunks saying, "it's too bad he won't remember any of that." The first one said.
"Yeah I know." The other replied as I returned to consciousness and exhaled. Maybe I will find techniques to remember these events that I missed. Maybe there was no event I missed and the voices were talking about something else... Im not sure. I don't like is that the trip,only lasts 20 or so minutes and it seems difficult to maintain by taking hits from my machine. I can't wait to get a supply of Syrian rue or B. Caapi. Is the oral experience just as intense as smoking? If so it would be perfect.
Anyways. There is more to me than just this but at least it's something.
[MOD EDIT: PLEASE READ THE ATTITUDE // NO USING THE NEXUS AS A MEETUP TOOL]Got it. Thanks. It was just part of the essay about me. Not looking to use the nexus as a meetup tool. Part of me is being alone and searching for a pack/group/family/herd/ect.