FANTASTIC INFORMATION from everyone. Thank you all SO much!!!!
Really can relate to most everything posted, and i have tried versions of those techniques.
i forgot about CBD.. must check that out!
Like someone mentions you cannot just replace with another substance,
and you never get that effect you're looking for when trying replacing,
but it can help for sure! and at times it can be better than nothing.
i had some magnolia bark tea... it's slightly relaxing.
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Passionflower, Rhodiola, Lemongrass and Ginger sounds good! especially the first two.
ALSO California poppy is one that i should try,
would include chamomile, limeflower, skullcap and betony,
the last of which is recommended for helping overcome addictions."
@DesykaLamgeenie; sounds like you know exactly what i was saying...
i'd been thinking about trying some discipline. Like scheduling exactly when,
and how much to use. Because i really LOVE cannabis, but i REALLY hate being
so dependent on anything, or anyone. You gave me much hope for what i want.
@endlessness
my bad i didn't realize.. Thanks for the advise and fixing the thread.
i can concur with you about day 2-3.. They are the worst, and then it's all mostly mental.
Also like you say, i realize a setting where someone often smokes has many habit triggers.
So i usually clean up all evidence. Then it's not all staring me down, reminding the habbit.
And to those who mentioned exercise, and distraction.. indeed i've been gardening ALL day!
Last night;
After getting back home, i lay down on the bed, and just sort of meditate.
i decided not to try the harmalas then, because i was feeling SO tired, it
was almost relaxing to be so tired. Also i had been drinking coffee before.
Noticed an interesting symptom that, i'd sort of noticed earlier,
there seemed to be a cloud of white smoke moving near the ceiling,
it was moving a lot with a contrasted black shadow, and also there
were many dots of color in the dark room. Earlier i had noticed the
outlines of things were not stable, but moving slightly, not much.
iam sure others here can see some visuals if they focus a little.
it was like that, except there was no focus needed. interesting!
Something else happened iam excited to happen again....
The two 1000ug B-12 vitamins i took earlier that day may have contributed.
i haven't had such a vivid dream in years!
and dreaming is like my all-time favorite things.
and it wasn't fragmented, but deeply detailed story line.
Unfortunately, i didn't think to lay there and memorize everything.
i was given a choice between a handful of two kinds of seeds..
Pshhh, that is about all i can remember now,
except a feeling i made a wise decision on my choice of seeds.
SO iam feeling much MUCH better today, that 'need to smoke' has gone.
i still think, oh that would be nice, but NOT oh iam in hell i need smoke!
Another thing, i suspect that the cigarillos i use to wrap with are also addicting.
if i had nothing to wrap it and used a bowl, it just wouldn't satisfy the craving..
SO my new plan is to not smoke for a week or two.. and then
Maybe a couple hits at work (that is our bonding moment) NO NO HITS!!
NAh i might lol, but the prospect of having dreams gives me strength.
Then, i will try only smoking from bowls, no more tobacco cigarillos.
And have a schedule of how much i allow myself per day, hm two bowls.
One more thing i should mention to is i must be detoxifying, or something,
because my face has broken out, and some of my glands have become swollen.
Especially above the atoms apple, my lyphnodes i think, is a swollen knot,
So google says it's caused by a mild infection of upper respiratory tract.
*ALL WAYS WITH LOVE