hello to everyone here at the nexus.

This is my first post here although i have been a member for about a year. I just realy wanted to say a massive thank you to everyone here and share my storey for anyone who is interested. and hopefully wont bore any of you to death with the following storey...

I had been a cigarette smoker and heavy cannabis user for 10 years. 17 to 27. I first took mushrooms when i was 18 10 years ago and they must have been bunk as i didnt feel much to be honest. I wrote them off and did not try them again until i was 26. Now this second time trying mushrooms blew my mind in a good way. I had the most magical experience. It realy changed me. for the better. It didnt just last the trip, it changed my life totaly.

Now, before the above experience, i would have never said i was depressed or ill or anything. but i used to get a bit down sometimes. dwell on the bad things that happened and worry to much about stuff i shoulndt worry about, and i was quite self conscious all the time. A few years prior i had tried to stop smoking cigs and weed but always failed miserably. This over time had affected my self asteam and i was daily smoking weed and cigs.

I had a few more more trips as i was amazed by this experience and wanted to learn more. After my fouth mush trip (december 2013) i woke up after tripping the previous nite. I had no desire to smoke weed or cigaretts anymore. At 1st i thought maybe it will come back and its still the effects of the mushys, but no. The desire never came back. Also i had a massive after glow which still to this day i have with me. I have now not smoked a single joint or cigarette for over 14months.

I was so amazed by my experiences and what had happened to me that i needed to know more. That led me to the internet. Which led me to the shroomery. Which then led me here at the nexus.
I had never heard of dmt or ayahuasca until coming here. Now i have successfully made my own ayahuasca brews which i have experienced twice now. Then in August 2014 extracted my own dmt which i have had 2 breakthoughs in November (after numerous failed attempts due to vaping technique). I am sure you can imagine that this was a massive shock!!! Mushrooms in no way prepared me for this experience. Infact i am still integrating my ayahuasca and vaped dmt experiences. Although so far all possitive experience, there is still a lot to understand and think about/integrate.

At first i was amazed that id never heard of ayahuasca or dmt before. I could not understand how something as amazing and powerful could not be well known and why is everyone not trying it or have at least tried it. But now i understand. its wierd, i actually have no desire to tell my friends. i dont want to sound arogant but i feel as if some of my friends are not worthy of this. does anybody know what i mean?? i strongly believe that if psychedelics are meant for you, you will find them on your own or they will find you. when your ready. I have one friend who knows what ive been up to. In fact all my travels have been with this very trusted person. (best mate for 25years).

I will maybe put some trip reports out one day but i think i have written far to much here allready. So il end with a massive thank you. Thank you to everone here who has helped me by sharing brilliant teks and chemistry lessons. I am truly gratefull and i am a changed person thanks to every1 here. This last year and 5 months or so has realy been amazing for me. I am no longer ever down anymore. I absolutely love life and the little things life throws at ya just dont bother me anymore. I just carry on. Happiest ive ever been, and to top it all, my productivity at work has gone through the roof and i got promoted earlier in the year. In part i have to thank you guys n girls here for all the shared info on dmt ayahuasca and also life and lifes issues in general.

seriously... thank you all so much. This is a fantastic community you have here!!!

ok im sorry. essay over!!! peace to all.

Thank you for sharing your life story with us.

I'd like to hear happy stories like this every day. I am really glad and happy for you my friend.

I understand what you mean by saying some of your friends are not worthy to talk to about this. If I may I would correct it and say may be it would not sound so selfish if you say something like they are not ready to hear this instead of worthy. The information is out there for them to find out you can not force them to hear you. Maybe if you think of it this way your will not feel bad about you and them neither.

When you feel like write some of your experiences we are here to listen.

ha ha yes is it was a bit of a life story. i got a bit carried away. but here i feel i am in the company of people who will hear and understand what i am saying. without judgement.

thanks for you input and yes i agree actually that is a much better way of explaining what i mean. they are just not ready for it yet. in fact id say a year or 2 ago i would have classed myself in the same way and if someone had tried to tell me about this stuf i would have been sceptical.

finding psychedelics has definitely changed my outlook on life for the better. i still feel there is more i am yet to learn however. but i am in no rush.

once again thanks to many here on this site. its been a good year