Hello all
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Having registered here i feel somewhat like being accepted at Hogwarts ^^
DMT research is still pretty new to me, but i have heard about it like 10 years ago through whatever David Icke has to say.
There is a lot of personal history as to why i didn't delve into it much earlier.
I did have keen interest in Shamanism, Etnobotany and Psychedelic experiences as a teenager , starting with occasional cannabis use over reading Castaneda and using M. amanita and some other locally sourcable things, thanks to some books by C. Rätsch
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; actually my personal interest in magical plants and belief in a real colorful invisible world reach as far back as i can remember; my Grandmother was a pharmacist and taught me a thing or two about the right relation to plants from a pharmacists view. My parents are an artist and a writer, i grew up in a major urban city with it's own magic and spent summers in the forest in scandinavia, needless to say a very magical place as well. My whole background allowed me to become as open minded and creative as i want to be, except of course for having to deal with parents worries and the establishment and personal insecurities like everyone else. Which also made me depressive
I had a deep personal crisis around the age of 19 and also got confronted with a not so easy lingering effect from psylocybin mushroom, i had a serious eating disorder, at the same time i developed a substance sensibility which gave me inner visions and bodily sensations every time i ingested anything, it was scary. In a way it was the shamanic initiation i had asked for, but i did not have a social network of people to face me with understanding and help me making the best of it, instead i was treated like a disturbed patient which i was by common definition; and i drew the conclusion that if it is that what it takes to live this aspect, i rather don't want it (at the time). It took me years to establish myself again in life, and it was through total submission to the system in a way, making money and a career. That was in the early 90's when all my friends went to techno clubs and consumed a lot of drugs, i did not take that experience with me then.
After 10 years of hard work in a workaholic state of mind, i retired to live a secluded life in the tropics, burnt out pretty much, but happy to have made the leap.
I married a man who i knew was the right one for me, trust, reliability and allowing freedom to each other being very important. he is catholic and from a different culture, and albeit very open minded for his background, i know he can only accept but not always understand me. Lucky for us we share a common interest in gnosis, topics that lead over hidden history, aliens, spirituality even to DMT ... but this becoming an acute interest right now is still a new situation for us. He is very accepting with me smoking weed from time to time, but psychedelica have only played a role anecdotally in our 13 years relationship so far. I have not had a real DMT experience yet, so these times are intense and exciting and require great care.
When we moved to the tropics, we arrived as city people with very little knowledge of handling a tropical garden. We made many mistakes and faced soil degradation and a need to become real stewards to nature in order to let a paradise flourish.
A few years ago i found out about Permaculture, it was the single greatest revelation i had in a long time. A sure pointer at where the healing of the planet begins. Consequently i found out about the role of fabaceae plants as nitrogen fixing pioneer plants and i started collecting and raising fabaceae from seed and fostering whatever already grows here. Little did i know this way to heal my soil would lead to the second greatest revelation of my entire life, 2 keys in one as a possibility to heal earth on a much greater level.
Nature reveals itself in all it's power in the most mind blowing way. And that in times when the need for it is the greatest.
Actually, when i started identifying plants in my area, i already stumbled about DMT contents but for some reason i still didn't start the research but kept my distance in utmost respect and perhaps a trust or understanding that all things will fall in place at their time.
Now i am almost 40, my life has been set up in a satisfying way and i feel it is finally time to push my own horizon once more with the aid of nature's magic that is literllay pushing itself into my horizon out of it's event horizon (what a terrible movie by the same name, come to think of it)
To my astonishment i realized that all these tall trees around our house contain 5 meo DMT (A. auriculiformis), the impression of living in paradise got once more new depth to it ... actually the name of the area where we live translates to : acacia haven.
Now ... if that isn't a serious pointer. Or god's humor and gift of gratification for following a path that feels right.
I have not yet tried to use the tree bark, but i am wondering weather we are breathing the substances anyway, just as all the substances we ingest influence us in many ways. Using DMT, a concentrate of something we probably all have ingested in smaller amounts already, still sounds like submitting to be turned into something else, a drug addict, something to be weary of, when in fact we probably all have been there from birth on and only become conscious of now.
I have however made a yopo sort of thing from another plant for sublingual testing and will write about this in another topic i suppose. It was only 1 week ago and i am still observing and analyzing it's effects on me and it was just a tiny first step on this journey and most of all i am currently still very very excited.
I am grateful and happy to find a place that looks as promising and serious as this one.
sincerely, a new year 1 student <3