Hey guys,
How's everyone on the forum?
This'll be a big write up. / trip experience
I'm a new user, saw that the current register option was closed, then remembered the details after multiple attempts an old account before, felt good when i got logged back in haha.
Anyways back when i originally registered, I had high curiosity in DMT, only after testing nbomes and feeling like a top c***, saw your avg dmt videos and probably let both the biased and the true / w.i.p knowledge about the subject sink in, taking it both too seriously.
I would often say to people about my experiences in dmt when i was about 18 - 19, re-creating scenarios for myself to speak to others to imply my knowledge of psychedelics, purely because the psychedelic world had my curiosity at it's peak, in my family it would be considered worst then the most addictive stimulants. It's not their fault, but it adds a heavy level of guilt etc when it's a hard topic to elaborate on, anyway i had never smoked dmt, and this went on for only a couple months, the simple thought of dmt (not from enter the void, don't worry, moreso from corroborated sources, similar to this site itself, including this site haha) had my head in a twist and i had my hands on large quantities of nbomes, and I would take up to 5.4mg trips (25i/c) when around others who long story short, didn't like me, wanted to see how far it would go by testing everything out on me first hand, i enjoyed it because i was fargone, but events changed and he left the picture.
Anyways shortly after this, spent a couple years just smoking cones, day in day out gettin buds through a few different sources, had a good mate pulling me through the shit, i came from a really sheltered life, same home same routine period, he was the opposite but we fucked shit up together. that was in primary school, didn't know him for a couple years and hooked up back with him through facebook of all places, barely used it myself and discontinued to use it this year.
This whole time i was putting my mind to music, i never visited the dmt nexus, and i was just smoking with my mate doing same shit and same day is what it felt like, putting effort into rap, never showing many people but mates who would chill, didn't record because the only shit mic i could get was cheap and i couldnt hear static and put effort into things that didn't have quality in my own eyes, whatever.
A while after this i got my hands on LSD, pretty much had gone bad, started using stims, speed and mdma, heavily and my mind was completely turned off psychs, didn't like the thought of them, but my thought practically stemmed from nbomes, and a couple shroom trips.
I dived in with a 400ug trip in 2 microdots, had a friend who had the same, he's had nbomes and loved them, since he hadn't been around acid in a while, and got sick of them after a while too, tried some lsd and he said it reminded him of the old days, we tripped all night laughing our asses off learning to take it a little easier for a bit, fu** after that night i felt so refreshed, i slept so well and vise versa for my mate, honestly it restored my faith in psychadelics, continued with this on a casual basis, until i said to myself that i was ready to attempt smoking some dmt.
I got my hands on changa, hoping to breakthrough. haha
I was alone at home, have my usual archive of beats that I update everyday almost playing in a loop i selected pre smoke, went to the bong and kneeled, packed what was about 300mg of changa into the cone, beginning to light it i could recognise what people said about the smoke having a plastic scent, the herb wasn't easy to light, nor difficult, i continued ripping through to the end and held it in for .7 of a second before thinking to myself:
"what the f*** did i just do"
my heart, arms, legs, neck, stomach, instantly became alive, all colors became crystal clear all at the same time as i was being kicked back to what seemed like the centre of the room, i felt like a giant baby at seconds, as i instantly dropped and laid my head on the floor to breath, as that felt most logical, I remember seeing a colorful imploding ball with main colours of static red and white and it felt like wet plastic that didnt leave a drip that was imploding in on itself to make itself bigger, i thought my legs were sinking halfway under the room and these balls were supporting my head.
At first when all this happened in a timespan of about 4 seconds i thought to myself, with a massive ACME looking smile, "It actually exists" for 25 seconds i just looped on that thought, as intense as it was, as scared as i was i felt great to be experiencing something like this, but at this moment my breathing was really starting to intimidate me, i wasn't falling lucid into a dream, or breaking through the veil, but my breath sounded like another creature from another universe with multiple parts each of which i could feel and communicate with, and i did, but it consisted to make my breathing feel harder, then i had a chatter of my teeth everytime they touched, and it would echo for 3 seconds, all these thoughts consistently being thought was very intimidating, i decided i needed to get up, I went to my pc chair to listen to some beats.
T: = 1 minute 20 seconds in.
I sit on the chair for a couple seconds, going back to the how is this real man, then i thought about how many people i would tell, blah blah blah, and then a beat that did not life my mood came on, it felt like it pushed me back from the chair into the ground, and i began to see what Terrance Mckenna describes as the veil, and my god was it intimidating, i began to think about my family ontop of all my other thoughts, so for a second i just decided to get up, and breath.
I thought really clearly here, more clearly then i have in ages, i just took a good hard look at my past thoughts, with a consistent feel of euphoria and i said to myself.
Man, you've been going way too hard at this shit lately, take a break.
T: = 3 minutes 30 seconds
After lying on the ground for a bit with an insanely massive grin on my mouth, chewing on the spilt bong because i did not give twooooo shits, i couldn't tell if the bong was upside down or vise versa, but i knew i was holding onto it, so i just decided to put the bubble of the bong around my mouth and attempt to chew it. The glass was kinda cold and nice but i decided just to go into bed for a bit, the bed was insanely comfortable, i just laid there having a controlled spasm and i felt great, laughed at the idea of someone walking in, finding me getting admitted to an asylum just as my trip stopped, trouble is, it hadn't. and i began to think about how naive my joke was, thought about things i shouldn't have, and the idea of established connections, heard of westside connections? imagine something that exists, operates and is a lot bigger.
anyways this caused the veil to reappear, at a much darker purple rate, didn't like the feel of it, i didn't think i was going to break through but i knew it was something i wasn't quite ready to handle so i walked out of my room, downstairs to a sliding door, i still felt like i was gliding through everything i saw, like i was crosseyed.
obviously there was too much information being seen that aside from the veil i remember none of the patterns, but a few of the events, I went down to a sliding door, which looked completely unfamiliar, and i thought i had to rediscover the way it was operated, and im like -__-, least to say i had no idea this is what i was in for.
with a little bit of force 20 seconds of thought later, i pushed my way through to the effervescent light of my backyard, it was a warm day, didn't think that meant much, found my cat, walked close to it and for a bit it looked directly at me like it knew exactly what i was seeing, or experiencing, similar to my bong i couldnt tell which direction its head was in, legs were in, which head it was looking at me with, so i just decided to pick it up and sit down under the sun, the bodyhead of the cat and head from the sun was way too much, so i stumbled back inside lol.
sat back at the pc for a bit, continued listening to the beats that were left playing, and by a random coinsidence, after chilling for a sec on the chair, this blues rap beat i have had for a short while came on, it sounded f****** amazing, the instant it happened my arms and legs and body just shifted, and i began dancing, sometimes i dance when im working out, as i feel it smoothens out my workout, instead of being bricky and dumb, i like to be fluent, and when i began dancing on DMT it was like i was on 10grams of speed, i was flying around in circles in a not completely open space after stumbling everywhere i felt like i was dancing like a do you think you can dance finalist, but just kidding, i don't watch television anymore haha, this felt amazing and it refreshed my whole outlook, the dmt drifted off as i thought to myself i wanted to remember the fractals and geometrics, but i couldn't grasp the memory.
either way, i'd like to get an opinion if you believe i broke through or not from some people a little more experienced, i had a few mates who were close and have known about this substance for a long time, i kind of over prepared them and it made one of my mates really freak out on the initial kinda psych rush, but i gotta admit that f***** with me too.
I think in the future, i want to put occasional DMT use towards creating music, and i'd like to join in on the forum, there's so much curiosity to me with this subject, and it's hard to go at it alone.
Hoping to break through in the future, any advice is 100% welcome
also my apologies if i happened to break the rules in this thread
(and i made an introduction which i slightly remember a few years ago when i originally registered, but i figured it's better off to start again)
Looks like a great community looking to learn lots.
Ofcourse in reference, i'm just a clown, and my experiences are all false.