This is an experience that happened to me a few weeks ago whilst smoking the spice. I sat down in a nice chill environment with some lovely music a candle and a really quiet chilled environment, I loaded up the bong with peppermint leaves then 45mg of pure white crystals which i melted a bit onto the peppermint leaves added a few more pepper mint leaves and with intent burnt the whole cone until the ember burned its self out.
nothing,
no buzzing, no crackling noises in my head everything in my room still appeared normal no 3d effects absolutely nothing, strange I thought maybe it melted through into the water and I didn't get any, then 3 illuminous blue rubber ducks with bright orange beaks and very bold white eyes flew through my walls one sat on the bed in front of me and two on the sofa opposite me. everything else was normal I sat there for a few minutes not moving neither did the ducks, I did not know what to make of this at all. then I saw a little boy in peripheral vision stood about a foot away (I've seen this little boy many times on misfires previously) I look to focus on this boy and he disappears along with the ducks.
theory of the little boy I always see, now I have a 3 year old daughter who from an early age has always told me she has an older brother called Adam (just a kids imaginary friend) then one day she said to me and my fiancée that Adam was very sad because he died in mummy's tummy.
we were shocked we had never mentioned it to her as she is so young and we had never spoke about it between us for her to pick up on since she was even born, but my fiancée had had a miscarriage before my daughter was born, however we never did find out the sex of the baby.
so I think this boy I sometimes see is either a physically representation of that either created by a story my daughter has made up which is projected from my mind which is why when I try to focus to see features etc. it always disappears. or another theory is that the baby created has a soul and is with me in my DMT experiences i always feel a love and warmth for my family whilst i am smoking the spice.
does anyone have any similar experiences regarding family or even regarding smoking 45mg and a strange non breakthrough experience.
DMT amazes me as it really is a self teaching molecule the more you smoke it the more you learn, even if what you learn is that just as you think you are begining to grasp it the more you realise the less you actually know!