null24 wrote:Hey, Sky Wolf, and welcome to the nexus. I have found this place ( most of the time) to be a source of valuable insight, intelligence and compassion. It has been a great resource to me and a community of like minded folks-people who see the power of psychedelics and who use them to become better people.
That said, remember that if you are not talking to a professional, then please be careful with the advice given. I have not read all the responses to your post, but there's a couple things i did see that bother me and prompted me to answer this beefier i did.
There are many people here ready to tell you what your course of action should be. I can tell you though, it should NOT include keeping toads in captivity to extract drugs from them. For one thing 5meo is probably the most powerful thing you may experience outside of dying. Without exp, or a sitter, DON'T DO IT. The stuff saved my wretched life, and put me on a path to becoming a better human, but I was 42 when i did it and had lots of trips under my belt. Read up. The other thing is, well, keeping critters in cages to extract drugs from them.
Also, for anxiety and depression, psilo micro dosing is something I've found extremely useful.
the point is not to have some earth shattering experience, but rather to use the psilocybin as one would any other type of medicine. The doses are sub threshold. I experimented with this technique for a period of nearly a year with i when I was able to come across enough mushrooms to do so for several months . ( unfortunately, the last and current season have not allowed me to find as many. I don't think it has been researched to discover how it works, but it seems to modulate serotonin in some way and it stabilizes one's mood.
I'm not trying to come across as a dick, you are just having what could be or become some serious problems, problems that have led some friends of mine to commit suicide and nearly put me there as well.
like I said psychedelics changed my life and have helped make me a better person and you will find a plethora of great information and great people here. I'm sure there are some great responses in this thread. I just want you to take it easy and take your time and be careful.
Peace Skywolf best of luck.
Hey null24, you're wellcome.
I am sure and also I feel you are totally constructive in manner and I do agree with you. Because I am aware that psychologic/neurologic problems are much deeper than we think and they cannot be solved by "take the pill and fly (?!)" approach even this manner will definitely make everthing much worse. Thanks for your comments - I do respect your awareness - as an experienced nexus member and also as an experienced person (over 40 ! live long and healthy) who struggled with problems and found a way using psychedelics. My intent of course was not giving "drug" advices (I know the nexus rules and agree with) since it is clear that taking omega-3 and/or melatonin pills will not solve these "iceberg" problems. This is also clear from my real experience that's why, after my 35, I still search for answers to be a better person.
Thanks for sharing your experiences with psilo mushrooms. I have'nt tried them yet and I believe a true cure come with low-dosage but longtime use as you did.
All the best null24.