This is exactly how i feel. It's been 3 years I've learned what DMT is.
In the beginning i thought the problem will be to find, extract it. And i'm sure if i had it at that time, when i didn't knew much of it, i would try it directly... but NO, this isn't the problem.
I have it now with me, in my fridge, and i'm so scared to smoke it. It's really weird.

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I want to thank all of you, for the prompt and helpful replies and all the great advises you gave me! I appreciate this very much!

I’ll follow your suggestions and start with a small dose(10 mg) and make my way up, even though I was convinced (from reading about it) that smaller doses are more difficult to handle for the mind than bigger ones, and that is better to have an instant breakthrough that struggle with smaller one.

I have previous experience with mushrooms, twice with a medium doses.
Both times it was in the forest and for me it felt like a beautiful colorful fairy-tale, i loved it and i was laughing all the time. :-)

I'm just waiting for the day, i'll wake up and feel ready for it. I already know it will be one of the biggest days in my life! It's really helpful to know that i'm not alone experience this weird fear of DMT.

Peace & Love and many thanks again.

Exactly my point. It's real easy to be brave your first 50mg dose. The second time you'll have second thoughts for sure. I usually do 50mg doses, the first time scared me off for quite a while.

Hypnosys:

You may just as easily find out that you leave that part of you behind. You may not have thoughts about who you are. Hell on my last trip, I was an ugly fat lady janitor cleaning a floor. I believed this to be true. Until I realized it wasn't and had a good laugh about it!

That's the beauty of DMT. Nothing is impossible anymore. Anything may happen, and I'd be willing to bet anything you'll forget all about your simple, worldly worries. In my experience, I have no memory of who I am or anything prior to crossing over. Even wondering what I'd be worried about is a thought I'll never have.

Spice is a gift, a sacrement. It is a truely precious thing indeed. I dunno what else to tell ya.

I was always more afraid of taking Ayahuasca than smoking DMT. I couldn't get my hands on pure DMT, but then i got the chance to drink with a curandero, and i really needed the healing, so i did it a couple of times.
The fear has vanished, i am not afraid of Aya nor am i afraid of smoking changa, which i did a couple of times in moderate doses.
Never had a difficult or bad experience with the spirit molecule or the medicine.

For years i took shrooms, but was VERY fearful of Rue (or other plant RIMA's).
Now after over a decade it took me to overcome the fear, i can say that Rue is one of my favorite plant allies.
Same with the shrooms. I always had a love/hate relationship with them because i did not really know how to properly work with them. 40% of my shroom trips where difficult, but i know now that it was my resistance which made it difficult (and the regular strong doses of 3+ gr). My ego hated and feared the ego dissolution, but my higher self pushed me to do it again and again expecting a different outcome.

My recommendation would be to
take a small/medium dose of shrooms, which will most likely dissolve your fear and bring you halfway there, then you can start with a low dose of changa.

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above for my last report, very mild visual, body buzz etc... so this was a rather small dose and/or a fairly bad ROA.

At this point, all I wanted was the trip to go further, it was frustrating

in the end, I was afraid just like you are, doing small, introduction "trips" removed that fear (at least partially) and only left me with wanting more.

once I started to feel the effects, it felt so great, I had no fear at all, only eagerness to go further and finally see/feel what it's all about.

From what I've read, bad experiences often came with lack of respect from the user and/or ridiculously high dosage (50mg, 100mg or even more!)

I'll get myself a proper pipe now and I'll start around 15/20mg and work from there

10mg in a proper pipe should be enough to dip your toes. I don't think there's anything to be afraid about in low dosage. I could still pretty much figure out where I was, move around if needed or talk. I just was at a point where I actually "wanted" the world around to go away, and even almost begged for the trip to "take me away".

just relax a bit before, do something that you like to take your mind off things, prepare your dose beforehand, and when you feel a little more relaxed, stop thinking, sit down or lay down and light it up.

remember to breathe and don't forget to smile

3rdI, you're a riot



The reasoning behind this is, that a decent dose will leave no room for fear or ...well, anything. That's why it is easier. Doesn't mean you can't have painful experiences (even though chances are very high you won't).

Smaller doses will leave you more intact...more room for worry and such. I guess it won't be an issue though, if you have taken mushrooms before. As a newcomer i would not advise this combination, because it is nice to come COMPLETLY down after your experienmce. That is one of the beauties of dmt. Even difficult experiences are over quick.