My first solo DMT trip into the abyss!!
Hi everyone, I want to share my experience with everyone. I first tried DMT a year ago. I didn't break through on my first two try's. A year later well let me explain!
Iv smoked DMT about 9 times in the last year. I had previously blasted off with my best friend about 4 days earlier. I did break through but I felt my trip was interrupted by, firstly I have my tongue pierced and my stud was rattling against my teeth the noise was so intense! I felt like a tuning fork was next to my ear! Vibrations were making the visuals vibrate! "They" told me that next time take my tongue stud out!! Secondly I could hear my friend coming back and to in the room to check on me. My friend had told me before that to completely break through that I have to keep my eyes shut! But I kept opening my eyes when I heard him enter the room! I still had a amazing trip that night. My friend loaded my pot pipe with another good hit. He had to leave and suggested I try a solo journey later that day. I decided to wait and try to prepare more. I had already read everything about DMT when I first tried it but not about going solo. I spent a few days reading other people's solo experiences and how they prepared.
I made a playlist of a few songs, I'm going to play music through some earphones to cancel out any outside noise that could disturb my trip.
Tongue stud removed, I had a lamp in the corner the fire glowing the room felt comfy and safe. Bottle of water to hand.I had a pre rolled spliff to help me relax for a few minutes. I had a glass ashtray and a mat under it to prevent any burns if I drop the pipe. Music was not loud, but enough that I could not hear anything else. All the preparing that I felt I could do. Deep breaths I ready!!
Paying attention to my lighter flame, make it glow not burn! "They" told me before??? Wtf! I had just remembered from last time! No one else had told me that! Slowly draw the flame into the bowl inhaling long and slow until you taste it! There is no mistaking the taste, the just when you think you can't take anymore into your lungs just take that bit more! Hold it!! I concentrated on the pipe and my lighter then slowly exhaling through my nose I spark the lighter to take another hit, concentrating so hard on making it glow! The puff of white smoke I inhale as much as I can, my vision and senses are beginning to warp! Quick take one more I can't see my lighter I some how did it! Inhaled all I could the held as long as I could! The boom!! I don't remember exhaling at all, I heard the clinch of the pipe hit the glass ashtray, I keep my eyes closed i wanted to check the pipe, I knew I couldn't burn myself but had I taken the whole hit??
To late for that as I was now being thrown, pulled, pushed everywhere all at once. Everything was all as one, there's was no I anymore. I was everything! I feel amazing I'm happy. I've been here before, but this is slightly different. I can concentrate and pay attention to what's happening. It like it's all slowed down so that I can make sense of what I see. The vibrations that made my visuals vibrate has gone. Is that why I couldn't make sense of this before? "They" were impressed that if had figure out how control my trip better. That I had listened to their advise. Don't be afraid anymore. "They" knew I couldn't hear them speak because of the music I had playing so they instead showed me what they wanted to say and made me feel it too! "You listened and removed your distractions and now we can take you..... I describe them as "they" because they had many different forms, every time I tried to concentrate on what it looked like then it wold warp into something completely different! Every fibre of the fabric of the universe was there before my very eyes! I could see everything as it stretches and bends out before me, I glide between the millions of dimensions, worlds and entities that I cannot describe! I feel so far away. I suddenly start to think about where my body is?? "They" tell me it's ok that I'm still exactly in the same place. I don't know if I believe them. I can't recognise myself! I start to feel slightly confused. "They" try to calm me, "open your eyes" they told me! They are laughing dancing around me, popping out here there and every where, teasing me somehow making me more confused??? "Open your eyes" they insist. No! No! I refused I don't want to spoil this if I open my eyes I won't go as far as I should!! I don't want to leave! "But your already there. You have come as far as you wanted!" They are pointing at my eyes coming close then really far away! Then "pop!" It was like they poked me in my right eye! I instantly opened just the one eye! "See you ok still where you always were!" They didn't poke me in the eye or my eye would hurt and steam, it was like the blew into it. Hard to explain. I closed my eye straight away, I knew I was still me. Then I was pulled back, not as far as I had been. "It's ok, open your eyes now" as they wave me goodbye, No! No!! I don't want to leave you! I felt like I was falling, spiralling down. Then I stopped was I floating?? A pile of what seam like cards, thousands of them neatly making spiral pattens as far as I could see. Each card resembles something... Not sure exactly what, people? Realms? Dimensions? Worlds? But there's millions of them! Then one glowing card comes away from the patten/pack I think it's a person or a entities? They study the card then grow it back, another card does the same! This time they agree on this card, (I couldn't see all of "them" in the background before!) they all pull in the card until BOOM!! A gold bright sort of light rips through everything! "They" are showing me that this is how they decide who breaks through! Eyes open or closed it doesn't matter! If your ready then they will guide you on your journey! They want me to return, I don't want to leave!
Then I was back, I immediately opened my eyes my vision was still a little blurred, everything was tracing! I grabbed around for my phone next to me, I had to tell my best friend about this amazing experience!! As I struggled to focus on my phone my fingers were like light sabers of Star Wars! Lol I managed the first line of txt then everything started to become normal again. A little shaky and trembling with pure amazement!
Don't be afraid to do this solo, it is after all ment to be a solo experience!
Find a way to feel comfortable during your trip, if you can't pay attention try to change something slightly. More importantly you have to be at one with yourself, trust your thoughts and feelings. Experiment with different settings and techniques until you are happy to go alone.
After previously breaking through, this was by far the most amazing, eye opening of them all! The best experience of my life! I feel I remembered more of this trip because I was alone, prepared, I could concentrate and pay attention. I will defiantly be doing a solo adventure into abyss in the future! 😊
