So, another essay. I'm familiar with plenty of those being that I'm a college student. Luckily, I doubt the moderators on this site will mind if I get a little bit informal in my prose. So, here goes.

I came on this site looking for...something. Can't really say what, but I know its linked with my relatively new use of psychedelics. Ever since I engaged in it my life feels a bit different. I feel like a veil has been lifted from over my eyes or something and I desperately don't want it to be placed back over.

I like this new me. The only problem is that I'm worried. I'm worried that it's just a placebo effect and I'm imagining all of this change in me. I'm worried that soon this new clarity is going to be fogged up again and I go back to that dreaded "normalcy" that I was before. So, I guess I'm looking for some answers (aren't we all?) or maybe just opinions.

I have friends that also do psychedelic's yet we don't get the same thing from it. I mean we all get high because it's fun or whatever, but I feel like they do it only because it's fun. I mean it really is and I'm okay with that. Still, I want something deeper with this new relationship of mine.

So, I was wondering if I could get some insight from others who have been doing this for a while. It would really be appreciated.