Hello all,

I'm excited and very appreciative that I happened to "stumble" across this site. After reading a few discussions I was honestly blown away by the respect and valuable information that the members had. I've read many different blogs regarding drugs, and I've always had a certain level of apprehension as a result of some of the posts of disrespectful members. But, until now, I've never felt compelled to truly join and to speak on my own behalf until I found the Nexus

These past two years brought to me a world of changes and shattering revelations. For my entire life I never attempted to seek out alternate truths or even question the world that was presented before me. Maybe it was because I had spent many years battling severe depression that mentally I didn't have the strength or desire to try anything new. To me, it was easier to just accept things for what they appeared to be, rather than to question them or to seek out truth or new knowledge. It wasn't until I had taken my first class in philosophy that something in my head finally clicked, so to speak. It was like an area of my brain that had been locked for my entire life had finally cracked opened, and my ability to see things and appreciate the possibility of the unknown finally leaked to the surface. Along with my first successful trials of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Dialectical Behavioral Therapy, and Mindfulness, I started to grasp how truly unbelievable and powerful the human mind can be.

I had begun experimenting with hallucinogens just after I had gotten out of high school, and I can say that I had a life changing experience without even realizing it was a possibility. I can honestly say that at that time, I had no good intentions with these drugs. Out of my own naivety, I hadn't the slightest clue the sheer power and seriousness that these drugs possessed. I had the most terrifying experience of my life, leaving me damaged for months afterward. And, perhaps out of luck, or maybe some sort of greater picture, I had another experience with mushrooms after that, which left me taken aback by the amazingly positive, psychological effects it had on me afterward. Something within me had changed, and I realized at that point there was so much more to these drugs than I had ever imagined.

Which brings me to where I am now. Although it was years ago that I had those experiences, it wasn't until recently that I developed a genuine desire to learn more. Having just begun better practices of maintaining my health, such as yoga and meditation, I'm slowly beginning to open up to the process of learning more about myself as an individual, as well as my interconnectedness with the universe as a whole. I'm thankful for having found this website, because I know that in my future experiences I want to have deeper knowledge and understanding, and of course to practice safer methods in order to truly appreciate my future journey.

What was originally ignorance has finally developed into a genuine yearning to further my journey and experience in this world. I know that at this point, I am not ready to take on DMT, because I don't believe that my psyche is in the right state of being just yet. However, I am eager to use this forum as a way to learn as much as I can, so that when I am finally ready for my journey, I will be able to do it in a way that is best for me and my body as a whole.

Thank you for this opportunity, and I am excited to be able to learn from the experience of others as I embark on this experience myself.

Welcome. The nexus is the best psychedelic site on the web IMHO. The level of maturity and respect found here is unparalleled.

I too went through a phase in my younger years where I used psychedelics as I would any other drug. To party and get wasted on and had my fair share of bad experiences. I recently returned to using them after learning about how effective they can be at personal transformation and growth. The nexus has helped me in countless ways. And while I very rarely use DMT or any psychedelic. I'm of the mind that everything has to be just right and I have a very busy life these days. I frequent here daily and probably more then anywhere else on the web.

I resonate with your story in a few ways. Glad to have you hear and look forward to hearing more from you.

Good luck and stay safe.

Thanks for sharing a little about yourself, Al-Wasi! It's really nice to see the way that everybody can honestly share with one another here.

The personal transformation and growth is definitely where I am at right now. And I can appreciate and agree when you talk about the fact that things must be right or of a certain way before you use any type of psychedelic. There are days that I still struggle with my own personal battles, and I never want to take these experiences for granted.

Thanks again for your response.

Hello theChangeWithin,

Welcome to the Nexus. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. That was amazing. It was also well written, thought out and edited, which I really appreciated . . . it was over all too soon.

What an amazing journey you are on. I love your attitude and please do not worry, there are a lot of Nexians who do not actively use DMT, who have never done DMT, etc.

Sounds like you have already begun to delve into the forums. I'm sure your explorations will be eye-opening, discourse producing and exciting. We have a chat room that you might enjoy - there is a link in the upper left hand corner.

I'm up/YES voting you for promotion and encourage others to do the same.

Warm Regards,
Pandora