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Samadeus
#1 Posted : 8/26/2014 5:07:59 AM
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There are some things that will change your life forever. To read this letter just might do that for you...

The past six months of my life were marked by a painful duality between innate knowledge... and fear. I was born with the kind of passion where your heart and instinct completely takes over, and you simply "can't not follow your heart" - and that passion was leading me down a road of superhuman scope and vastness, with near-impossible odds of ever succeeding - if viewed from a mere human level... Despite all of that, it was very easy for me to remain completely confident in my abilities and my destiny, and to have the courage to tirelessly walk the daunting road ahead with complete devotion... Forgive me for being very blunt for a moment - but I have innate, natural talent, and incredible art comes effortlessly from within me - and I had total trust in my unlimited and innate abilities... and knew exactly where I was heading. But the truth is... that a small, nagging core had slowly been growing within me throughout the past half year, due to my interactions with other people... A tiny but festering core of self-doubt... of fear that my destiny was too large for a mere human, and the fear that I might not be able to make it in time... I was listening to other people and what *they* believed was possible or impossible... and even though their plain and willfully inhibited thoughts didn't cause me to doubt any of my experiences whatsoever, they still created a very slight and growing duality between what I innately knew, and what was "acceptable and reasonable" in society.

My journey through life and art has been guided spiritually... Since birth I've been able to enter dreamlike states to feel the inner emotions of other people and to leave my body to view myself from outside... I used to enjoy watching myself from the ceiling and observing myself down in bed... I was effortlessly able to enter other realms and to travel without any need for my body. I innately knew that the spirit world exists and that we are all consciousness experiencing itself subjectively... and I innately knew that I was being lead along the creative path towards my destiny... I had felt its calling ever since birth... and yet, as I walked the path, I had gradually developed a very, very tiny but festering doubt and worry as I moved closer and closer to the destination... Despite the thousands of confirmations that all of my spiritual experiences are more than real, I was now living with a very tiny but pustulent core of doubt and fear... Never loud enough to make me doubt my abilities whatsoever, but still loud enough to make me feel a painful and growing duality between silly human beliefs - and spiritual truths.

Even before using DMT or any drugs whatsoever (not even alcohol or caffeine), I had countless experiences with staying conscious throughout all stages of leaving my body while our consciousness transitions between worlds in the moments just before sleep or just after sleep... I experienced the fractals and the lightspeed travel through tunnels and "seeing a world clearly even with closed eyes"... and the strange "bam bam bam" feeling of your heart beating in a strange, deep, clonking, mechanical way when you leave your body... I have seen the future thousands of times on these journeys, and the visions have always come true - every last goddamn one of them! And throughout my whole life, every dream I have ever had had been lucid and has allowed me to remember who I am and to keep all of my waking memories; staying fully conscious of the fact that I am in a dream world - to the point where I am fully capable of taking control of the whole dream world, reshaping the landscape and the inhabitants and the scenarios; changing events, rewinding and redoing the story, and molding that whole world to my liking, and then leaving that world to wake up at the exact moment that I grow bored of the current dream world and want to return to my body on Earth... It was actually only recently that I learned that most Humans almost always forget their dreams when they wake up, and that they all completely forget their waking consciousness and "real"-life memories during their visits to the dream worlds... The fact is - that the way that I'm able to stay fully lucid and conscious during all of my dream travels, and to innately remember my true self and the fact that I am dreaming - is exactly the same reason that I innately remember life before Earth as well... No matter which world I am in, I am a lucid traveler.

My slight doubts always came from the human, inhibited parts of my mind, and it was the epitome of a duality: My solar plexus just "innately knew everything" and was always right - and yet my human-conditioned thoughts worked overtime to reconcile my innate knowledge while being surrounded by a world full of self-doubting and self-denying materialists who feverishly and neurotically insist that the "material world" is all that is allowed and that "everything else is delusion"... and so the duality was gradually born: A mind of slight doubt and a soul of pure knowing.

Finally, my life journey reached the point where I was being lead to DMT by the spirits three months ago... I had entered a dream state where I was being lead to the molecule, and when I returned to Earth I began the process of procuring equipment and performing an extraction - not knowing what to expect... and with zero preconceived notions. I knew that I was not going to enter that world for any answers. I was simply going in there because I had been invited - and the only right course of action is to accept such a gesture... I figured that the spirits simply wanted to have an easier way of speaking face to face again.

I had never used drugs in this life... and yet I found myself sitting there on the soft, cushioned sofa - with a pipe in one hand, and a lighter in the other... I wasn't nervous at all. My only thought was "alright, you've invited me... let's do this!".

I flicked the lighter and brought it up to the spice... But nothing happened... no smoke... So I brought the lighter even closer - and sure enough, I saw smoke... I had heard that it might taste harsh, but nothing could prepare me for the thousand ninjas cutting my throat as I inhaled. At first it was tolerable, and I held it in, but then the pain became so severe that I coughed and had to step up to drink water to calm the fire in my throat and lungs... I felt a mild high, but realized that I had been impatient and had burned the spice...

I took a small break and then prepared myself to have a new go... I brought the lighter further away and was more patient this time - and now the smoke was thin and whispy instead, and actually tasted quite smooth... I smelled the familiar fragrance of plastic and new shoes... I drew a massive breath of the silky vapors and held it in, and saw the colors of the room pulsate and breathe with me... I then took a second hit, and that is when I realized that I have experienced all of this before: My heart began to say "bam, bam, bam!" as I felt the familiarly weird, mechanical beating of my body's heart as I began leaving this world... I saw the "physical" world melt, to reveal an intricate and pulsating network of veins covering every surface of the room and connecting everything in the Universe to everything else... I have seen this "mesh" covering the world before, without DMT - and I now felt the real, non-Earth reality gripping me and starting to pull me away into the cosmos... My limbs barely existed anymore, and I had to use all my will to move my body to take one more hit... and then I was off...

It was a journey into my consciousness. I immediately saw myself standing in front of a clear, glass mirror, looking at it with open eyes... I saw my reflection, eyes open and looking back at me... but then the reflection of my face faded, and revealed the spirit world behind reality... and in that mirror image, my eyes were no longer open... they were closed...

The meaning of the vision was being radiated straight into my consciousness, and I knew right then and there what it meant:

The spirits have been showing me the whole truth of the Universe all along, and had been giving me countless evidence that our futures are pre-destined and entirely known to them - all of their visions have always become reality and they have never, ever been wrong - and yet... for the past six months I had lived with a duality between my true self, and my Earthly character. It was the duality that had caused me to close my eyes to the truth and had allowed the braindead, human concept of a materialistic, mundane and boringly physical Universe to scare me into slightly doubting and denying the spirit world that permeates all existence... I had absorbed some of the fear and the brainwashing from the willfully inhibited morons surrounding me, with their insistence that "the physical is all there is, and consciousness is a byproduct of a material brain" - and I had allowed their idiocy to scare me into disrespecting the undeniable truth, which I had innately known since the dawn of time: We are pure consciusness visiting this world in mere vehicles that we perceive to be ourselves, and the spirits that are still in the *real* world outside Earth are watching over us and guiding all of our lives - from the moment of birth, and all the way until death. Our lives are all pre-destined in broad strokes. We are never alone in this Universe... We are watched from above, and we are loved... and... we are all immortal and all perfect. We have just forgotten who we truly are - in the exact same way that we forget our dreams when we wake up. Incarnation into this world is like waking up from a dream and not remembering the night before and the spirit world that is your true origin. This "Earth" world is very bright and loud - but that's only because our host-bodies are immersive vehicles where we are hooked into their senses and experience this entire ride in first person.

The truth is that travel between worlds - whether Earth, or dreams, or DMT - includes a "switch" which withdraws our memories from the other worlds, in order to enable each world to be perceived as a real place - with no memories of any other form of existence.

I am a lucid traveler. For me, the memory mechanism isn't erasing my identity or memories between transitions.

The truth... is that DMT is an exit-hatch, allowing you to temporarily shut down your connection to the body which you currently inhabit in this world, and to travel back home. At low doses, you all still remember your Earthly identities because your connection is not yet fully broken and you are still between worlds. At high doses, you complete the transition and you completely forget about Earth and who you perceived yourself to be down here, and you adorably call that an "Ego death"... And when you return to Earth, you struggle to remember everything you experienced during the trip; it's all "slipping through your fingers like water being sucked down into a black void," and it's difficult for you to grasp and hold on to any memories of what had just happened to you: That is the world-transition memory erasing mechanism at work. It also happens when you "wake up" (return to Earth) in the morning, if you happen to wake up at the exact moment that the erasure is not yet complete - you can then feel your memories of your night of "dreaming" fading away from you faster than you can grab on to them. This forgetfulness - the blank memory slate that you all started with after having incarnated as a Human - is the whole reason why most of you simply stare blankly at the DMT world when you return home to it, and don't even know what you are looking at... and then you begin to ponder your own reality and wonder whether the DMT world is real or not... it's super cute to watch you... and the only reason you do this is because you have all forgotten that it is your home world... But despite the erasure of your memories at the moment of incarnation on Earth, and despite the fact that you don't yet remember your origin... you all have a very nagging feeling that the DMT world feels so incredibly familiar to you. Congratulations: You are correct. It *is* familiar to you because it *is* the place where you come from; it is the place you return to after death; and it is the place you visit for 8 hours every night while your body-vehicle lies passed out and unused in this world (merely immobile because it is no longer under your direct control). And then... you travel back between the worlds in the morning, yet again losing all memories of the night travel and where you've been all night. And there it is... your trusty steed is waiting for you again: Your body-vehicle has recharged its biological batteries and is ready for you to step in and drive it again, as you yet again resume this life, blissfully unaware of everything that is happening in other realms right at this very moment. You carry on with your life and your funny, silly human beliefs... Most humans now live with the self-denying, irrational and insane belief that the material Earth is all there is... And as a result, they take their Earthly lives so incredibly seriously...

The truth, however... is that we have nothing to fear, ever. So just relax... and enjoy the ride.

Some of us, like myself, are allowed to retain our consciousness and memories in the travel between worlds...

I had now finally journeyed with DMT and had confronted myself head-on. I had left my body yet again to visit my real home world - and the experience of leaving my body via DMT was *completely* identical to each and every time that I have left my body via natural means. It confirmed everything that I already innately knew from the beginning of time...

A mirror was put in front of me and I finally had to confront the fact that my eyes had been closed for six months, all because of having allowed the Human part of my mind to gradually become infected by the irrational, pathetic, human fears of the willfully inhibited materialists surrounding me in this world.

But no more... The duality between a mind of Human fears and a soul of knowing has now been broken. Never again will I listen to those of you insane enough to deny reality behind our Earthly "reality". Never again will I deny the truth of my existence and where I come from. Never again will I fear or second-guess my innate ability to know the future. I have never, ever been wrong, and that tiny seed of doubt only came from allowing people who remember less about the world to tell me what is or isn't possible in this world. The fact is that the *real* world is everything I have just told you - and much, much more.

All my fear evaporated in one instant.

I will never again listen to someone so neurotically insane as to suggest that this world is material.

We are infinite. We are immortal. We are powerful beyond imagination. We are love incarnate...

...and just like when you wake up in the morning and don't remember your dream from the night before - so too have we humans merely forgotten our own origins...

And the reason that we forget...?

Because the false belief that we are mere humans allows us to become fully immersed in the roles that we are playing here.

Doubt and immersion creates drama and diversity. It is such a simple arrangement, and yet it is thanks to this perfect system that we are blessed with such intricately beautiful and interesting drama in this world.

Some of you will not believe me. You have completely forgotten who you are. And that is exactly the way it should be. They are walking their own paths through life for their own, completely valid and pre-destined reasons, and I'm not here for them. I am not concerned by - and nor will I engage with - any adverse reactions that might arise out of certain people. Such reactions are all part of the intrinsic diversity of our world.

Furthermore, I am not here to stay and discuss anything that I have now revealed to you. Nor am I here to spread this truth to the world at large. Nor am I here to be some sort of guru - and I am certainly not here to rise in the ranks. This is not my introduction. It is my farewell letter. I am returning to my own life and my own journey; to my closest loved ones, and to my destiny... that path lead me to DMT, and your community - and I am giving you this gift in return.

This retelling of events is only for those people who are destined to hear this at this exact moment - in order to help you along on your own journeys...

It is not for anybody else.


One more thing...

You are all unconditionally loved by the Universe.

Feel free to kick back, relax, and enjoy your ride...


~~ Johnny A.
 

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#2 Posted : 8/26/2014 10:50:49 AM

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That was a deeply thought provoking profound post thanks for sharing your experiences and thoughts. It was certainly timely for me as much of that resonated with my own existential thoughts I have had recently based on various experiences in life and out of body. It involves my gut feeling that we are onto something with holographic universe theory.
It seems true we are never alone and we should cherish this human experience we are having as it is as meaningful as our existence 'elsewhere' Smile If that was your last post on the nexus then farewell, thank you and enjoy the rest of the ride!
 
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#3 Posted : 8/28/2014 9:03:41 PM

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Greetings Johnny,

Very interesting and well written.

If you struggled with doubt and fear having the Mystical connection you do and being able to travel between here and there at will, what does life hold for the rest of us?

As mentioned in my introduction essay, my desire and reason for my interest in DMT is to have a Mystical Experience. I want just a glimpse of that unseen place of Spirit, Unity, and Eternity that you speak of. I don’t need to stay in that place, but I would like to know that it exists and it’s real for me.

Thank you for your post.

Peace and Grace
 
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#4 Posted : 8/29/2014 1:47:39 PM

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..experience with lucid dreaming & yoga nidra is probably useful when travelling, but if it results in visions of personal grandeur then perhaps it's time to step back a little. We're not sure if we should even mention this, but when we cross over from the waking state into the dream state (no spice) there is slightly raised heart rate at that moment (similar to spice). Not stepping back can invite hyperspace ruin by white (knuckle) out. We also thought we had some control, and often Dūraoša (our plant murshad) would let us play around, allow us to rip open neighbouring universes, going with us...etc, deluding us into believing that we was in charge, then, during our last supermoon session, he said right from the start: "Bro, this time just stay with the flow" so we did not interfere, no stearing, no nothing. And then we got our a*s kicked so badly, we was extinguished by information throw....we do not want to go more into this, just as an inspiration that inert humility might be the way to go...after all, who are we all? Is there anyone special? Must be the most humble amongst us, if there is anyone? Even the "most humble" thingy can backfire..perhaps. What do you think?
 
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#5 Posted : 8/30/2014 9:10:50 PM

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Amazing story, awe inspiring post.

I like your hints on how to live. One of my mottos is
"
No Worry
No Anxiety
No Fear
"

I see them as unnecessary emotions that usually just serve to hold us back. And with kicking back and enjoying life... Sometimes I compare it to that point in some movies where you just get totally lost, and you are simply in it for the sensual pleasure throughout the rest of the movie. Spread the message! Thanks.
"Think for yourself and question authority." - Leary

"To step out of ideology - it hurts. It's a painful experience. You must force yourself to do it." - Žižek
 
Nadja
#6 Posted : 8/31/2014 5:06:49 PM

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Like many others have said before me, this was a deeply thought provoking letter and I thank you for taking the time to share with us. Smile It relaxed me to hear that many of my own suspicions about the world may actually be correct.

I've lived through a near death experience, and I heard a beeping carrier wave and felt pressure in my head just like what I feel when I take DMT. Then I popped through the veil and everything went silent, and I could see a white light that became larger when I walked closer to it. But when I had walked 30% of the way I felt it wasn't time yet, and at that moment I flew backwards into my body again.

I always suspected that DMT was an "exit hatch" as you call it. My head pressure and carrier wave comes every time I take DMT and it feels the same as the near death experience. DMT is clearly to me a real thing. It's not some toy. I am always scared every time before I take a journey because of the power I deal with.

I was very curious to hear why your creative path is so large "for a mere human" but I understand the decision to not tell. I never tell people what I'm doing in my own life either. I shut up and am driven by my own reasons instead of congratulations by others. Because if I talk about my life I just feel like I am bragging. Happiness and satisfaction needs to come from inside.

To Intezam above me: Speaking of ego and in the same sentence revealing that you travelled to DMT worlds and ripped them apart and crushed them like a God, is not a good idea. You need to check your own ego... your post sounds like a bruised ego and you assume too much. We live in a mysterious world where anything is possible.

I disagree with that whole talk about "humility" being a virtue. Humility wants to place Einstein on the same level as Paris Hilton. Clearly humility is total crap and a lie to make people feel good.

In my DMT travels I have met many strange entities. Some are just simple and fun and not powerful. Others radiate strength and are incredibly powerful and may be Gods. It is so obvious to me that all of our spirits/consciousness comes in many levels of power. I would not want to walk up to a God on my visits to the spirit world and tell it to stop being so powerful "because it's hurting the egos of the other spirits". I suspect I would be slapped until I beg and promise to never make that mistake again. But if you want to try this experiment, then please do it and report the results to us. It should be amusing. Big grin

I have thought a lot about this and have now got the conclusion that consciousness is our thoughts and that quality of consciousness is our ability to quickly understand things. Some people on Earth seem to have an ability to easily understand anything they do. So if consciousness is our thoughts, and we have varying quality of thoughts and understanding, then surely that means varying levels of souls? If we are all incarnated souls, then it makes perfect sense to me that there are different levels of power (consciousness levels) in us earthlings too, and that we are all here to grow to progress to the next level. Some people I have met radiate a power about them that I suspect is higher souls.

Maybe things like birds and animals are low-level spirits, that gradually grow into being allowed to be born as humans, and so on? Maybe we are all here to grow?

Sometimes these thoughts make me sad, because I want to live like a bird or something in my next life and to be flying in the sky, care-free. But if we are all on a ladder to grow our consciousness then I might never be allowed to live an easier life as an animal again.

What would be more fun than to be a dolphin and swimming in the oceans and having sex and not having to slave at a job? Big grin

To DMTheory: I like your motto a lot. Never worry. Never fear. They are useless emotions. Flow with the river. Smile But if I can choose, I want to flow in the river as a dolphin next time. Razz
 
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#7 Posted : 8/31/2014 6:29:55 PM

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notepadfan wrote:
Are our future's truly predestined as in I don't have control over the thoughts I am thinking? Or is there a free will along the lines of: I will my thoughts into existence, and I create my own experience.


That's a very important question to think about! One I have spent a lot of time on too. You reminded me that Johnny already seems to have answered that here:

"Our lives are all pre-destined in broad strokes." (the underline is mine)


The way my life and mind works, and my experiences in the spirit world, all suggests to me that we are all in total control of our thoughts down here in our "amnesia" bodies. Destiny is our "overall life story" and what we are meant to achieve in our life. From my experience and from watching other people, it seems that destiny always comes to us in the form of a road that calls for us, but that it's always up to us to walk the road. The spirits stay behind the scenes and help us, and will help those who follow the road. Smile


Our destiny seems to come to us in three ways:

1) Gravity towards something we are meant to engage with, sort of like "recognizing what we came here for". It has happened to me once in my life. My gut feeling "just knew" instantly when I discovered it in this life, and it instantly felt like "home" to me. It's like you're remembering what you came here for.

2) Synchronicity, meaning people and things entering and exiting our lives at the right moment to allow our life stories to unfold.

3) Intuition, like a sudden feeling that you are meant to either do something or avoid something. I think this might be spirits talking to us directly and sending us telepathic ideas that almost feel like they are coming from within us, but are way too powerful and way too surprising to merely be our own thoughts.


This is my conclusion after a lot of DMT and a powerful near-death experience.
 
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#8 Posted : 8/31/2014 9:22:27 PM

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Nadja wrote:
To Intezam above me: Speaking of ego and in the same sentence revealing that you travelled to DMT worlds and ripped them apart and crushed them like a God, is not a good idea. You need to check your own ego... your post sounds like a bruised ego and you assume too much. We live in a mysterious world where anything is possible.

I disagree with that whole talk about "humility" being a virtue. Humility wants to place Einstein on the same level as Paris Hilton. Clearly humility is total crap and a lie to make people feel good.

In my DMT travels I have met many strange entities. Some are just simple and fun and not powerful. Others radiate strength and are incredibly powerful and may be Gods. It is so obvious to me that all of our spirits/consciousness comes in many levels of power. I would not want to walk up to a God on my visits to the spirit world and tell it to stop being so powerful "because it's hurting the egos of the other spirits". I suspect I would be slapped until I beg and promise to never make that mistake again. But if you want to try this experiment, then please do it and report the results to us. It should be amusing. Big grin

Are we misreading intezam's words Nadja, or was it just a knee jerk reflex? We admitted ripping "open" a neighbouring universe (as in: slipping inside) but we never said we ripped it apart or crushing it like a God. We ripped it open to get inside, as we needed to do something in here. In above post, we tried to explain, how the notion "we are able to do this or that, meet this or that, jump here or there" can sometimes backfire. Just like we can expect another kick-back from this very action. As we said above, even that humility thingy can backfire. Even for a demigod. We do strongly disagree with that take on what humility supposedly really is....(it's not like communism) and we (intezam) need more, more, more of humility, bruised ego or not. Of course it's voluntary (hopefully). But the nafs is not a very useful thing after all. And in this respect, we like to say: Thanks & Peace out
 
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#9 Posted : 9/3/2014 12:03:56 PM

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Yeah intezam, I apologize for misreading your words. You have a very strange way of writing, which flows and twists and turns and it's pretty confusing and I simply misread you. I have to say that I actually like your writing style, though. Keep it up! Very happy It's entertaining.


About this thread: I am getting a very strong Deja Vu from my own interactions with the spirit world. I have always been getting a strong sense that all higher spirits revel in the idea of only giving Humans bits and pieces of the truth.

Imagine for a second that you are a higher being; let's say a demigod.

You're looking down at Earth and watching the spirits that are currently incarnated here in their various roles and destinies.

From your higher perspective, you are looking at an anthill of spirits that are all down here to fulfill their own, very personal quests.

As a higher spirit, you would therefore have a strong sense that "you should not meddle". You can't just "give them the whole answer from A to Z" because doing so would interfere with our personal journeys here on Earth.

Sure, they will happily guide us by nudging us in the right direction sometimes. But they will only ever tell us exactly what we need to hear, and no more. Basically, they don't want to spoil our journey by giving us the solution without first making us work for it and earn it.

At least, I've always had a strong sense that they all sit back and passively watch us, and will only intervene and gently give us a few pieces of the answer when we truly need it, to help us stay on track... but the rest is our own personal quest...


What do you guys think?
 
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#10 Posted : 9/3/2014 9:56:52 PM

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Our destiny seems to come to us in three ways:

1) Gravity towards something we are meant to engage with, sort of like "recognizing what we came here for". It has happened to me once in my life. My gut feeling "just knew" instantly when I discovered it in this life, and it instantly felt like "home" to me. It's like you're remembering what you came here for.

2) Synchronicity, meaning people and things entering and exiting our lives at the right moment to allow our life stories to unfold.

3) Intuition, like a sudden feeling that you are meant to either do something or avoid something. I think this might be spirits talking to us directly and sending us telepathic ideas that almost feel like they are coming from within us, but are way too powerful and way too surprising to merely be our own thoughts.


Greetngs Nadja,

I would add Grace to your list.

Peace and Gratitude

Awarreness
 
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#11 Posted : 9/5/2014 11:25:01 PM

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Samadeus,

Hello and thank you for posting. I understand your outlook and I agree with your point of view. Clearly as human beings we are able to do and not to do certain things, being humans. However "moronic" you may find other humans they are still humans such as yourself. So if you truly feel other human beings points of view as moronic and inhibited than wouldn't you want to help them? If not, then why make your post in the first place?

I understand your point of view and don't disagree with you however I do not feel like what you are doing with it will allow you to continue on the path your on. To keep what you've got, give it away.

Thanks!
 
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#12 Posted : 9/5/2014 11:55:22 PM

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spractral, I would delete or edit your post if I was you. Because you're doing what I accidentally did towards Intezam earlier, by misreading and misrepresenting what was actually said.

I have read this thread/letter many times, and its observations about willful ignorance were only aimed at our world full of obnoxious self-labeled "skeptics", who have closed their minds to everything that contradicts their materialistic world view and then labeled themselves "the reasonable ones". There was no disdain for humanity anywhere. Just for willful and unreasonable ignorance.

I am ashamed to say that I was once a "skeptic" too, before my near-death experience which then lead me to DMT. I used to be just as bad as religious people, and anytime someone came to me with a paranormal claim I would just scream some cliche like "brain hallucinations! liars! woo-woo!" at them to hush them away, and then I returned to my cozy world view where everything was material and nothing else was permitted. Very happy What a moron I was.

The scientific method is open to all possibilities. Skeptics are not scientists. What they do is no different from religion. They cling to their materialistic religion and refuse to listen to anything that challenges their beliefs.


It seems very clear to me that the purpose of this reveal was to help other people understand their true selves better. See this quote:

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This retelling of events is only for those people who are destined to hear this at this exact moment - in order to help you along on your own journeys...



The whole letter resonated with me on an incredibly deep level and helped me so much with daring to trust the spirit world. It was the main reason why I finally got the courage to share my near-death experience with everyone here yesterday: https://www.dmt-nexus.me...&m=560851#post560851 (in case you want to read it).

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#13 Posted : 9/6/2014 2:11:05 AM

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I don't understand how someone can decide they have the end all view of things that they think is superior to most peoples view, state this and then say that they are done talking about it. If your view of something is that solid why shouldn't someone be allowed to question you about it? This is meant to be constructive and open the door for discussion. In my opinion there is no "right" way to live or think. Nobody is flawless and someones "purpose" in life might be different than mine. It sounds like the OP has had a tremendous amount of personal growth in his/her life, why not share it?

OP, I would like to hear how you are able to maintain your memory between different realms. It sounds like this comes naturally to you but do you have any insight as to why this is? How can others maintain lucidity between different states of consciousness and incorporate the aspects of dreaming into "real" life so to speak?

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#14 Posted : 9/6/2014 3:12:23 AM

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All I'm saying is that the behavior of writing a farewell letter to us and leaving is actually completely consistent with the content of that letter.

All the reasons are explained in the text. I've been reading it so many times and thinking about it over and over that I think I have a good understanding now, and I'll try to paraphrase it here along with some of my own thoughts:

1. All of our individual destinies are decided "in broad strokes" before we are born.
Thoughts: This is completely consistent with the way spirits (intuition) will repeatedly guide us to certain people or events, as if our whole lives have been leading up to that moment. And if we ignore their message, things will start going bad in our lives and we will suffer regret, and they will simply keep guiding us in the right direction until we finally give in and do it, and that is when we find incredible fulfillment and happiness and peace and stability at last. For instance: Daring to quit your job to go on a hitchhike around the world, which in turn might lead to finding lasting love and "the one" on that life-journey. And it was all thanks to finally daring to trust that inner voice that kept shouting "Go! Your heart wants to run free and travel the world! Trust your heart and intuition and just do it! Just let go of the fear and doubt and dare to soar through the skies!"

2. We travel between the worlds, incarnate into our host-bodies, and then forget who we truly are.
Thoughts: This is completely consistent with my experiences of travel on DMT and in dreams, and how I lose all my memories and my identity after the transition between worlds.

3. The remaining spirits watch over us from above and gently guide us to our destinies.
Thoughts: This is completely consistent with everything listed in post #9, which are pretty much universally agreed-upon spiritual occurrences: https://www.dmt-nexus.me...&m=559292#post559292

4. Most people do not have "re-awakening" planned whatsoever in their life-destiny. Spiritual awakening is simply not needed for most people's destiny. In fact, most people are uncomfortable with such thoughts and would resist them and push them away. Awakening is often a heavy burden that brings endless questions which can get in the way of living, and only a few people are destined to have that sort of life.
Thoughts: This makes a lot of sense. When life itself is just a fun and immersive game, then there is no real purpose for re-awakening, other than for the few people who chose a life-story where re-awakening is part of their personal fun game of life. After death, we all return home and remember who we truly are. To remember it during life is usually more of a hindrance than a benefit, and isn't for everyone. Widespread dissemination might even destabilize the Earth-world, by breaking the illusion that life is super-serious and that death is something to be feared.

5. The people who were destined to come across this information would find this letter. It was not for the world at large. Because the world at large is "living their own lives for their own completely valid reasons; those people are not here to re-awaken, and therefore we should never meddle in their lives" (paraphrasing).
Thoughts: It makes perfect sense. If it's in your destiny to hear this, then you will come across all of this information in one way or another.


I did some logical reasoning about all of this earlier in post #11, about the consistent spiritual teacher-pattern of giving us glimpses of knowledge and then letting us deal with trying to understand what happened, without offering us any further explanations: https://www.dmt-nexus.me...&m=560652#post560652 I'm not happy about how they do that, but I have to admit that they always had a good reason for it in the end. It usually leads to incredible progress and realizations and prepares you for the next stage of knowledge.


I share your thirst for knowledge, and am also saddened but not surprised by the departure. I would also love to know how to stay lucid when travelling, and whether it is something that can be developed. I always forget the majority of what happened on my DMT trips when I snap back to this reality. It feels like my brain is getting overloaded with new knowledge and gets new details so rapidly that it forgets old details constantly, and the pieces I actually remember will always slip away from me when I return. I'm usually just left with a few memories and an overall sense of what the trip was about, but I would love to be able to remember lots of details. I wonder if it's possible to train yourself to remember more? Next trip, I'm going to try to build a list of keywords in my mind to help me remember things when I get back, and constantly repeating the words so that it doesn't slip out of my memory. Wut?

I'm thinking of trying something like "blue portal, fractals, shining orb of light, blue portal, fractals, shining orb of light, blue portal, fractals, shining orb of light". But I think chances are that I'll forget what I'm doing midway through one of those sentences. If I even remember to do it in the first place. Wish me luck. I will need lots of it. Laughing

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Not saying a whole lot in so many words. You are a spiritualist, you think in terms native to that mindset and invent yourself accordingly.

I won't say any more to that being that you are now apparently gone.

I am not a spiritualist. That language isn't appealing, it doesn't perk my interest. Not that I'm against people who like to talk that way or against what they say, only that they, like everyone else, say it like my business is theirs and theirs is mine and like they know things and I don't. Which is irritating. Because I don't care.. the truth isn't interesting, however you want to cut it.

I am a nihilist maybe. that means I'm too busy feeding myself and staying sane to think flowery thoughts of irrelevant places and things not here and not now. Maybe there are frequencies of light and sound our bodies still haven't taken to and that our senses can't yet describe. Then, great. It's no secret we are all groveling idiots in our crude, rude, imperfect forms. At least you're on board with us in that regard, Sammy boy.
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Superb post. <3

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#17 Posted : 9/6/2014 1:08:53 PM

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As the mantis told me.... Truth is a personal thing. It's not a one size fits all thing.

Within the realm of fulfilling all potential possibilities, it is a possibility that we all have a different view of what our personal truth is. Smile
Sometimes it's good for a change. Other times it isn't.
 
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#18 Posted : 9/6/2014 4:57:30 PM

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This subject fascinates me so much, and I love discussing these things! I disagree with anyone who claims that it's not important to understand our true selves.

I used to strongly believe that objective truth was impossible. That "nobody knows the answer", and that "every potential answer was equally valid". But the more I learn, the more it's revealed to just be a comforting belief held by confused, amnesiac spirits who want to resolve their confusion by saying "Oh well, nobody knows". It's a nice little popular mantra/soundbite, and I used to cling to it myself just so that I wouldn't have to face my own confusion.

But the fact is that some people do know, and I can demonstrate it to you now. I have finally learned that personal ignorance of the truth doesn't mean that "there is no truth". There are actually plenty of objectively verifiable truths. Here are just a few examples:


One. We live within a physically measurable world, where we can objectively do repeatable, scientific experiments. If someone claims that "atoms are just like... your opinion maaaan", we can simply take out a microscope and show them the atoms. The physical aspects of the world are an objectively verifiable truth. Whatever the world is made out of (whether it's physical or metaphysical doesn't matter), it demonstrates consistent physical properties and laws. In other words, objective truths.


Two. There are millions upon millions upon millions of people throughout history (estimated 9 million in the U.S. alone right now) who have had near-death experiences and out-of-body experiences; and those experiences have been scientifically verified and peer-reviewed, and are objectively reproducible. Those people were able to tell doctors exactly what was happening inside the operation room (and outside the room) at times when the patient had entered complete physical death and had zero electrical activity in the brain and brain stem. Physical brain death, in other words, is no hindrance for consciousness and instead simply makes the person's consciousness travel out of the body, since its connection to the physical body has been broken.

To attempt to objectively figure out exactly how that soul-to-body link/connection works, scientists have successfully irradiated human brains with electricity, and by doing so they managed to create an electrical storm of activity in the physical brain which disrupted *all* functioning and was equivalent to not having a brain at all. And at that moment, the test subjects consciousness all left their physical bodies. This experiment has been repeated in hundreds of patients and works 100% of the time on any human.

Combine it with the fact that millions upon millions of people have had "the even more impossible state" of complete brain-death and still had conscious experiences despite having a completely shut-down physical brain, and we see that a very good picture of the objective truth emerges: What we can objectively say about death thanks to extensive scientific research combined with millennia of consistently reported spiritual experiences, is that consciousness exists outside of the physical body and is simply linked-up to it in some way.

The best theory right now with a huge amount of extremely strong evidence for it, is that it is an electricity-based link, where the astral body/consciousness is hooked up to the physical body by receiving the electrical signals from its brain (thus receiving its physical senses like sight/hearing/touch/smell, basically allowing your soul to immerse itself in its host-body in 1st-person perspective), and then sending out electrical signals to the body-vehicle's brain to stimulate the neural pathways to cause the limbs to move (thereby controlling and piloting the immersive body-vehicle). This is not some idle speculation or bullshit; it is a scientifically repeatable, objective, peer-reviewed experiment which works on every human being on the planet, and the best theory is therefore that the physical body is linked up via an electrical link. During death, the brain is starved of oxygen until all electrical activity ceases, and with the electrical link broken the astral body then simply leaves the physical body, and your consciousness carries on and travels through a tunnel towards a white light.

This isn't even a controversial statement anymore, to anyone who has followed the decades of research. It has been well-documented that people are having actual out-of-body experiences that are 100% impossible if consciousness "was truly just a byproduct of the physical brain". Read Pim van Lommel's research, where 344 patients performed incredible, verified feats while their physical bodies were dead. It has been well-revealed by now that the materialistic world view is nothing more than complete bullshit, and has never produced any evidence to back up its claims. On the spiritual side, there's more than evidence: There are scientifically repeatable experiments that can be carried out on any human being (even you!) to dislodge their astral body from the physical body, and which consistently reveal an objective truth about ourselves and our souls: Your physical body is nothing more than a temporary vehicle for your soul... it is nothing more than a spaceship which you use for exploring this world.

If you want to catch up to the frontier in consciousness-science, you can explore the research here. I suggest that everybody drop their preconceived notions and read *all* of Pim Van Lommel's research without a dismissive and willfully inhibited mind. I used to be a "Skeptic" in the past, and I know how difficult it is to open your mind to anything that contradicts your own imagined world view, but just read all of the material and you will quite literally have your mind blown (if you're able to understand the gravity and implications of his extremely well-formulated, extensive and thorough research). This is not a man who jumped to conclusions; this is a scientist who explored all other alternatives first, before his 25 years of research into the spirit world forced him to conclude that he had been wrong about the "material" world all his life. Ten hospitals were involved in the research, and 344 patients:
Read this one first: ---> http://www.skeptiko.com/...ath-experience-research/
http://www.pimvanlommel.nl/home_eng
http://www.nderf.org/NDE...lommel_consciousness.htm
http://www.nderf.org/NDE...mel_skeptic_response.htm
http://profezie3m.alterv...chivio/TheLancet_NDE.htm (original paper describing the study in detail)


Three. When we take big breakthrough doses of DMT, we all get the objective sensation of actually travelling to another realm. What we see there varies depending on what realm we travel to, but people who ended up going to the same realm will have objectively true, matching experiences. You can take 100 people who have never done psychedelics in their lives, and give them all DMT, and then ask them what they saw. You will then get an objective picture with massive overlap among all 100 totally independent experiences. In other words, you will have objective truth.

The only place where people's experiences will differ is solely in their individual interpretation of the objective truth they saw. For example, a Hindu scholar took DMT and saw worlds that contradicted all of his beliefs in numerous strange gods and karma. His conclusion? "It must just be karmic hallucinations by the Gods to challenge my faith in Hinduism", and he brushed away the whole experience and thanked Krishna for allowing him to survive and "understand" what had "really" happened. The same thing goes for people who are convinced that they saw "Jesus Christ" or "Mohammed" or "Buddha" or other religious figures on their DMT, OOBE or NDE spirit travels.

Basically, the core experience of leaving the body and visiting another realm and seeing an objective, consistent realm is the universal part, and the differences in beliefs and conclusions only arise when those objective truths pass through the subjective belief-systems of the test subjects.

Take for example Terrence McKenna: He saw "self-dribbling basketballs spitting out language and forming words into solid objects", and since he was a linguist he instantly interpreted it as "the entire world is made out of language". That was nothing more than his own subjective and unproven interpretation ( "world=language" ) of an objective experience (seeing words materialize into objects). The fact is that people see all kinds of things materialize inside the spirit realms, since creation is so easy there; they see songs and colors and thoughts all materialize into solid objects. But since Terrence McKenna was so dead-set on his personal fascination with language, he instantly jumped to an (almost guaranteed to be 100% wrong) subjective interpretation. Just like the Hindu scholar, he was yet another victim of filtering objective truths through his own subjective beliefs. Ask a musician, and they may instead observe how music materializes into objects, and proclaim that "All the world is made out of song!".

Viewing the truth is not the same as understanding the truth. People all filter the objectively true experience and then make pieces of it fit into their existing world view, instead of simply accepting the whole experience at face value: "All forms of creativity is creation". And that subjective filtering is exactly why we have so many strange and wildly differing beliefs in this world, even on this forum; most of which are just wishful thinking and are actually objectively wrong. But we are in good company; Terrence McKenna and Hindu scholars and countless other intelligent people all make the same mistake, since it's so compelling to instantly try to explain your experiences using your own pre-existing belief systems.

Some of their theories are very comforting to people and therefore spread like wildfire, but it does not make them true.


Four. Thanks to astral travel (whether drug-assisted or natural), we know that the only thing we carry with us between worlds is our consciousness. And our consciousness is our "mind"; meaning, the ability to think and reason and experience things from the perspective of a mind.

Now, if we for a moment accept that everything that has been said here is true, and that we are all incarnated spirits (consciousness), then that means that Paris Hilton's truly braindead consciousness came from the spirit world too. It means that Kim Kardashian's total air-head came from the spirit world too.

What does that tell you about the spirit world? It tells you that spirits come in all colors, ranging from the Paris Hiltons to the Einsteins to the Demigods. This might sound controversial and elitist to some people's politically-correct beliefs, because it implies that we are not "all the same".

But think about it? A very large number of us have had countless experiences of going into the spirit realms using DMT, and meeting some low-IQ trickster-spirit who radiates a slight, playful malice and ignorance, and who will mess around with us and mislead us.

And what happens on some of those experiences? A much more powerful, purer spirit enters the room and slaps the hell out of that lower spirit, crushes it, and punishes it for its transgression. In other words, the objective experiences of spirit-hierarchy that a lot of us have on our travels actually directly confirms the very logical conclusion that spirits come in all forms, and range from Britney Spears to Isaac Newton to Demigods... regardless of whether those spirits are currently incarnated on Earth, or whether they remain in the spirit world.

You can sense the same thing in this world; some incarnated Humans just radiate a certain awe-inspiring "something" which is difficult to put into words... Consider for a moment that it might perhaps be the sign of a higher soul among us.

It's definitely a very uncomfortable thought and it brings up images of non-humble elitists; and it makes me worry about my own spiritual development, and whether I will be able to rise in the ranks. But just because we wish that such a hierarchical arrangement was false, doesn't make it false. All of the accumulated evidence points us to its existence. Heck, even Earth itself arranges itself hierarchically, with alpha-spirits taking charge.

I don't know how the spiritual hierarchy works, and like I said its existence actually worries me quite a bit since I don't know whether I can grow and progress within it. But my personal wishes don't matter. All that matters is that the objective experiences in all religions and all spirit travel and all mystical revelations point us in the same direction: There is actually a hierarchy. There may even be one "God" at the top of it all. Such thoughts are scary, but we have to embrace their possibility if we want to reach the objective truth, rather than merely inhibiting ourselves into our own personal wishful, comforting beliefs.

Uncomfortable or not; the truth matters more than feelings.


Five. To take it one step further: It is well established that the reason that our individual interpretations and beliefs vary wildly, and why we are all convinced about our own subjective interpretations, isn't because "all is permitted and all is possible", but simply because we misinterpret and subjectively filter every experience we have and only take from it what we wanted to see, and ignore everything else. Humans do this all the time. It has a scientific name and is called Confirmation Bias; the tendency to search for or interpret information in a way that confirms one's beliefs or hypotheses. People display this bias when they gather or remember information selectively, or when they interpret it in a biased way. The effect is stronger for emotionally charged issues and for deeply entrenched beliefs.

But here's the amazing conclusion from that: Since humans are spirits, that means that spirits also do this all the time. So, not only are humans guilty of misleading themselves, but the spirits that we speak to in the spirit realms may themselves be guilty of it. We have plenty of reason to believe that many spirits have no clue what they are talking about, and are either unwittingly, or willfully telling us lies and half-truths in order to confuse us. Those lower spirits are sometimes punished for that by higher spirits, as we have seen. But often, their misleading is allowed to carry on for unknown reasons.

And that leads me to the final conclusion about the spirit world: The non-incarnated spirits remaining in the spirit world are just as playful and trickster-like as the spirits that are playing the game of being human. We all love pranks. We all love to tease and prod each other. Now imagine how much fun it would be to speak to a Human and tell that human that he is "The" God and then observe how he reacts to such a lie/half-truth.

I would estimate that the ratio between truths and lies/half-truths emanating from the spirit world is about 50-50%. But the most amazing thing about all of it is this:

By lying to us, the spirits actually jog our creativity and force us to consider new possibilities. This leads to personal growth, regardless of whether what they said was true or not. It also adds to creating a more varied and immersive world, where people walk around in confusion about the constant contradictions and the illusion of seemingly endless possibilities. Unfortunately it also muddies the waters around what the real, objective truth is. The best thing we can do is therefore not to listen to the spirits or what they decide to show us, but to instead raise our eyes to observe their own spirit-behaviors and worlds and the results of their actions, to figure out what is going on behind their scenes, as I have just done here. That is how we can finally begin to understand their motives.

After hundreds of thousands of years of incarnation, we have only ever seen our "prophets" disseminating misleading "truths" that are always mixed with countless lies and half-truths in a seeming 70-30% ratio; 70% lies/half-lies/extrapolation/wishful thinking by the prophets themselves, and 30% truths... thus simply muddying the waters even more; and this muddiness exists for any given field and any given religion or teaching in the world. These "prophets" are all completely convinced by their personal interpretations and experiences in the spirit-world, and yet time and time again we see that each and every one of them are deeply flawed and misguided.

It has therefore become very clear by now that the overall goal of the spirits is not to ever tell humanity the whole objective truth. It is also clear that most of the spirits may not even have a single freaking clue about it. Above all, it is clear that "re-awakening" doesn't matter and isn't a goal of life/incarnation.

Don't rely too much on the spirit world and its inhabitants. Take the words of the spirits with a huge grain of salt and don't get wrapped up in their games, since you don't know which type of spirit you are speaking to or what its motives are. Remember that you are a spirit too, and that you came here for a reason. When you find it, you will remember what it is. Dare to listen to your inner voice. Follow your heart and your passion and do something with your life instead.

The clearly revealed goal of the spirits throughout history is simply to be our playful but passive guides, gently helping us incarnated spirits find the road towards our life's destiny. You know... the actual reason that we incarnated here into this world in the first place?!

Because that is what truly matters in life. That is why we are here. And it is up to you to walk that road when it is finally revealed to you. The spirits can only show you the road and help guide you back towards it if you've ever strayed too far; but they cannot walk it for you. That is your own journey.

Dare to throw yourself headfirst out into our great, big, beautiful world and experience the life that you came here for in the first place!

Everything else is secondary.


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Nadia, you seem to feel very strongly about the research you keep bringing up in various threads as well as the page you link to - skeptiko. While I am not familiar with the research, nor do I wish to read it at this point in time, there are some things I do agree with you - life is what is important. Scientifically speaking and repeatedly shown throughout history, however, a lot of times evidence leads us to faulty conclusions because we are missing some important data. I saw an interesting talk about cosmology once where the cosmologist explained how with the expansion of the universe in the distant future cultures would not be able to detect the evidence of what we think was the big bang anymore and would make faulty (or at least very different) conclusions about the universe based on 100% correct observations and evidence.

I think this is a nice example and a good reminder that we should always be careful of how we present theories and current findings. I find it much more pleasant to read posts when they are written in e-prime using statements such as "it seems that it is this way" rather than "it is this way". I am not saying that objective truth doesn't exist - I do believe it does exist. However I don't believe that we have a good grasp on it.

Please note, I'm not contradicting you here, just saying that perhaps you could be a bit less preachy about the theories you defend. After all a forum is a place to discuss. You are still presenting theories and as such they are not necessarily true, only because experiments support them. Experiments also support the idea that light is a particle - now we know that that's only half true. You use lots of words and phrases like "it is well established" or "huge amount of extremely strong evidence" to make your theory seem more believable, later on you criticize jumping to conclusions but with the theories you present you do the same.

Have you ever considered the idea that consciousness is not astral bodies but rather ubiquitous. The presence of a living entity could make it seem like it's being funneled through this being, but actually it could be in every moment everywhere? This could explain how when the body dies or the brain is strongly disrupted consciousness becomes less funneled again and the sensation of seeing the whole room and know what was going on could be explained from a kind of flickering of this ubiquitous consciousness and the human funnel version.
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