I have had depression, religion that was ingrained into my mind at a young age, and hateful feelings towards the world around me all dissolve at the hands of certain psychoactive compounds. I slowly moved up the ladder, from good ol' Mary Jane, to crappy RCs, to real LSD and shrooms. Finally, I felt I was ready for the big one, and I tried DMT. Unfortunately, the dose was only around 30 mg and I smoked it through a pipe with weed packed on top. My experience was nonetheless mind blowing, and I felt like my spirit was ripped from my physical form and taken into the stars. My ears filled with a high pitch screeching and all the space around the stars in the sky became filled with green flames. I then became simply one flickering tongue of fire in the sky and then fall back into my body.
For one brief moment, I truly knew what it felt like to be just one link in a much larger chain.
Needless to say, if that is what can happen from one small hit taken improperly, I am dying to know what level of self realization can be achieved from a heavy blast off. I refuse however, to buy something this spiritual from some street dealer. I want to make this journey on my own, and enjoy the fruits of my own labor. By collaborating with others on the nexus, I think I can optimize this journey of self actualization.