Hi all,
So, I've been using the sandwich method with cannabis and anywhere from 20-45mg of spice, pretty regularly, for the past couple of weeks, since my first extraction. I'd say in all I've smoked about 7 or 8 times, with amazing trips, but never anything I could construe to myself as a 'breakthrough'.
Until last night, that is.
I loaded 40mg on top of a bowl from the night before which still had a nug of cannabis at the bottom. The first two hits I took were enough to send me, and I'm wondering if melted spice in the bottom of that bowl helped create a stronger effect.
It started out normally, like all the others...
Me, in the dark, comfortable reclined position on the couch, Shulman starting "Inner Selves" in my over-ear headphones,
the high pitched noise was noticeable behind the music, and the rolling/morphing/vibrating body effect was flushing over me,
all normal...
the patterning started coming out, and as times past, resembles 'parts' of faces within them. Sometimes teeth appear in the patterns and 'threaten' to be negative. Sometimes the eyes appear and 'attempt' to become freaky, scary, or morbid. This is a normal thing I'm used to with the other trips, but this time it was noticeably more intense, and I was aware that this time, these attempts at a negative influence were stronger than they had previously been.
This passed fairly quickly though, and I was now past where I had been before. I was following an entity down a hall, and it stopped, and soon the whole image swirled and took me with it.
Now I was entering a completely new space. It looked like a psychedelic night club. There was pinks and blues and purples...it looked like a play area almost, or again, a modernist, futuristic nightclub, with fuzzy walls and sitting areas. There were sitting areas that looked like a typical booth at a restaurant but without the table. In these sitting areas sat giant entities congregating casually.
I entered this room very tiny compared to the entities, and also feeling as though I was in a little flying dish. I had 2-3 very distinct smaller entities above me (it felt like they were on my shoulder, unable to really see them), who I felt were kindly 'guiding' me around this space.
However, once I noticed the much larger entities sitting in the room, I lost the feeling of floating in a dish and got the feeling of becoming a floating orb. I floated towards the large entities and one, momentarily interested, reached out to touch me...he moved me around in his hand and then lost interest quickly and casually pushed me away.
As he pushed me away it was like you'd imagine an astronaut suspended in the space station pushing away a tennis ball. I floated into the next section of the room, which had another seating area and this time an entity reached his arm past my 'orb/face' and I got this crazy/incredible perspective/view of his arm.
It almost felt like when you're a kid and your grandpa 'pulls a quarter out of your ear', the position his arm is in when touching the side of your head is the blown-up, high detailed perception I got from this view.
I believe it was at this moment that I realized that the peak had just passed/happened. I realized that I was having this trip and that it was indeed far beyond anything I'd experienced yet. At this moment I was able to take a bit of control and really observe this incredible psychedelic space I was in.
As the entities moved me around the room, there was no empty space in the air...everything was touching something else. All the space was filled up with psychedelia. It's as if I was inside a blow-up bounce house that kept getting blown up fuller, and fuller, and fuller, until all the sides were touching on the inside. The feeling as I was moving through the 'air' was incredible, as I was feeling every molecule that moved over me or that I moved past.
So upon this realization, my trip started to fade to colors and patterns and wildly running random thoughts. But all was very pleasant as I was still smiling inside to myself regarding the amazing trip I'd just had.
I was asking myself if it truly was a breakthrough because I didn't experience any intense fear or ego death. There was a moment when I felt the ego was being ripped but it either subsided or I gave in. Anyway, I decided that because I was in a completely alien place, fully seeing, being, and feeling, that I indeed had broken through, even despite the fact that I was still an active 'narrator' in the process. I should mention that there was no narration for this moment that I entered the psychedelic nightclub up until the moment of my realization of it. This is the main cause for me labeling it a breakthrough.
But as I was coming down, oh my! The entirety of my previous trips were devoid of entities. Only something that my mind was stretching to entity-like had occurred. There were literally hundreds of entities in this trip. There were entities hanging around me when I first hit the pipe, giving me the feeling that they wanted me to hit it again. I obliged, and felt entities in every stage of the whole trip. Aside from the significant ones I mentioned, as I was coming down, I felt a viny like presence standing over the top of my head. Like if I was laying on a bed, and someone came from the head of the bed and looked down at me, she was there, arms/vines around me/my vision. She was just holding me, really, it felt very maternal.
As I was coming down I kept seeing entities rush up to me, they were taking pictures. It was like entity paparazzi reaching out wildly and flashing things in my face. Pointing, touching, just kind of rambunctious. Not threatening, more childlike and unable to control their immature behavior.
I hit the pipe a 3rd and 4th time, and went back in.
I honestly can't remember a whole lot from this second leg, except that I was being shown more psychedelic palaces with beautiful architecture and design. And the most important parts of these palaces were these special places to 'sit'. The architecture would mold around and create a centered and peaceful looking place to just sit. There were several of these places to sit on different levels of the beautiful palace.
After this, I experienced a similar thing, only the palace was the inside of a cactus! It was a green, psychedelic inside-of-a-cactus hangout lounge, and there were little entities with mustaches smoking cigars. It was just like the previous vision where there were all these specialized places to sit.
I got the feeling that just 'sitting' in harmony and perfection is the most enviable activity in all of the universe.
Around this time I feel like I met some kind of plant guide. He looked like a big microchip with mayan artwork all over him, and he was all shades of green. I kept getting different visions of him standing next to me, then standing next to me holding my hand, then me zooming in on his belly - which led to infinity or something..., and then repeating that cycle a few times.
He seemed like a really nice, very gentle, timid even, entity.
Of course there are some bits and pieces that just boggle my mind to even think about beginning to describe, so there are some other significant portions left out. However, this really gets the meat and veg. of it!
I am very happy with what I consider my first breakthrough - looking forward to many more to come!
Thanks for reading!
