Hi all,
I'm hoping to begin my travels in to the DMT universe soon and I thought I'd introduce myself with some background and an idea of my intentions so that I can hopefully find the right support for this new adventure.
First off my background in psychedelics has been mainly been with psilocybin mushrooms. I believe that these experiences really helped me to positively alter my perceptions at the time, or maybe rather I felt like they released me from certain perspectives I was already questioning, but it's difficult to take those initial steps of breaking away from the status- quo when everyone around you is very firmly entrenched in one view of life. Realising that I didn't have to accept the world the way it was I found at once both liberating and frustrating. Shrooms and some experiences with MDMA and Mescaline I found were nudging me on to the right path, or at least freeing my mind up enough to give me the confidence to ignore the judgement of other people and pursue the life I wanted to live and not the prescribed one within the parameters that other people had set down for me.
Since my first trips I have always approached these experiences with respect and a yearning to learn, about myself and the world. I got to a stage with shrooms where I started to think I was on the precipice of some great revelation. But eventually I felt that the magic was wearing off and there wasn't much more I could gain mentally so I haven't been back for a few years.
Which brings me on to DMT. I nearly had an ayahuasca experience in Peru but for me the setting wasn't right. A 'shaman' and a group of other travellers. For me it has to be with one or two very close people, and safe relaxed environment. Basically my house. Then I read Rick Strassman's book and lots on the internet and became fascinated with it. The idea of travelling to hyperspace and spiritual development. I'm not a religious person as such, but I'm certainly not cynical, except for where it's been manipulated by other men. If anything I would say I am pretty much on-board with Buddhist philosophy as many of the ideas feel natural to me anyway.
I'm not sure how I got here in the end. But I feel it is calling me in a way. Everything I have done has lead up to this moment and although I am very excited I am also in no rush. I know what might await me out there and I know I need to be mentally prepared for it. I know that it is something that needs to treated with respect. However, at the same time I do have my mimosa in a cool dark place so the wheels really are in motion
. I want to learn, about myself, about reality and I want to use it as tool to aid enlightenment and help me to be a better person. If that sounds all a bit grand forgive me, I am not expecting all of that from the DMT, it's just another facet of an ongoing journey. I also want to add that I feel in a good mental state of mind. I have good people in my life and I am happy, however that is defined and measured, but what I suppose I mean is that I am content and I am approaching this with a view of development and not looking to fix anything. I have been reading this forum for sometime now I have a lot of questions to ask especially regarding the experience, interpretations, influences and suggestibility. Hopefully some of you will be able to help me out sometime in the future.
Thanks for reading
Woody