Hi!
I don't know if I'm in the right place here for this question, so I'm sorry if it isn't.
The last couple of trips I had on sclerotia that contained psilocybin, I've seen an eye of my mother or me in close eyed visuals. It is always only one eye and usually it is copied in a geometrical way. The eye continually stares at me. In the beginning it is just another very strong visual, but after some seconds it becomes very creepy and actually a little scary. It usually stays there for a very long time, or fades out or in sometimes. It even stays while I'm focused on something else.
Because it has happened about five or six times now, I know it should mean something, but I can't figure out what it should mean. After the first five seconds it brings a little negative energy towards me. So I think if I can do something with it's meaning, it will maybe go away so I can enjoy my future trips better.
My relationship with my mother is good. Since two years ago we started seeing each other less, because I was studying and becoming more independent. However, we usually call for a pretty long time about 2 or 3 times a week.
Sometimes I think she has become a little lonely lately and I wonder how much it makes her unhappy.
Seeing the eye visual feels a bit like I am being watched over by my mom and myself, like they do when they care about somebody and want to control their actions, with a bit of a strict or negative undertone.
Sometimes my eyes feel very strange when I am tripping. It then feels like the muscles have to work very hard to open my pupils that wide or like there is way too much blood in there. I don't know if this strange feeling happens at the same time the eye visuals appear, but maybe it could have to do something with the association of this eye.
Does anybody here have any advice or pointers for me on how to figure out what the reason is the eye keeps popping up?
Thanks!