Hi all,

Responding to: https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&t=55222



First up, I realise the OP posted this back in April, but thought it was an intriguing topic and seeing as I'm still a new member, I thought I'd open it up for discussion in the new member area as they too may find it of interest. Great responses on the main thread, btw.

I feel the OP is majorly missing the point of psychedelics here, and is going to run himself into trouble should he continue. That said, there's an array of possible causes behind the suicidal thought process he has described, and it's worth dissecting.

I can totally agree with other nexians on the points made about the superficial nature demonstrated towards materialism. When you construct your life around the idea that greed is good and then take something like LSD, I can imagine the result would be an almost cataclysmic mental event when you realise everything you structure your worldly view around (ie. the greedy pursuit of money and possessions) is obliterated and shown to be worthless.

The idea of suicide is also reminiscent of the fear of letting go my friend described this past weekend whilst doing DMT and LSD (see here: https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&t=56227), where the conflict between the ego and the ego dissolving nature of these substances was exposed. Essentially, when the ego dissolves and you hit that high-energy type state, for a while, your personality and the concept of you dies, and then is reborn in the comedown. For me personally, I find this truly liberating, and makes me feel not only more comfortable about my death, but challenges me to make more of my life, which seems ultimately more precious after these sort of experiences.

It could also be hinting at something far darker lurking beneath the surface - a much repressed depression or mental health disorder which could come back to bite the OP in a moment of strife. Perhaps deep down, the OP does feel worthless, and the trips are bringing that to the surface. His inability to confront it, even in the altered state, is troubling.

There also seems to be a great lack of direction for the trips. As I've previously mentioned, I tripped originally to know myself better in order to treat my own depression, and succeeded. However, without a guiding mission, I can easily see how one may become lost and despondent on the turbulent seas of psychedelics.

There's either one of two ways to approach this. The OP can either go deeper, and have a trip that blows away the ego and allows him to truly confront what lies beneath, or he can walk away from the drugs. Given the tone of his posts and later comments, I'd strongly recommend the latter. Not everyone is cut out for psyches, and if you consistently receive bad trips, you need to change it up. Whether that means changing the dose, set, and setting, or just putting down the tab is a question that the OP needs to ask himself truthfully, and stick to the answer.

I would only want to respond to the original poster here, and I want him to explain why he typed that the psychedelic is telling him to kill himself. How does a chemical 'tell'?

Also, he says he needs to do it 'to escape'. Where is he escaping from, a train of thought? A physical sensation? The planet earth?

And the notion that 'he will kill himself'. I would like to see this poster explain this more fully, because that word choice is very concerning and needs to be taken seriously.