This isn't so much a trip report as a PRE trip report:
I had a pharma dose prepared, sat on it for a few days, chickening out twice. The night I finally did it I was nervous and pacing, still not sure if I wanted to "go", so I asked for an omen. A very specific omen: I said, "If I go outside and see a cardinal, then I will take the plunge, if not, I'll do it another time."
I step outside, it is evening, and I wait on the porch by the door. I stand and wait, looking around.
About five minutes goes by and TWO cardinals fly by. Wow. Cool. But then I look up at the clouds and I see, very distinctly, the 1111 symbol in the clouds; four vertical, straight lines (not sure how the formed like that, maybe a contrail or something. Either way, 11:11 is an important number for me.
But then a THIRD omen: when I got back in the house I look at the clock: 8:22 ( 22 is an
extraordinarily significant number for me (if you couldn't tell from my name).
So, laughing and full of glee, having received three personally meaningful omens, I drank my pharma dose.
I'm going to play with this more in future trips (next trip is planned for this Friday the 13, which is also the full moon; I'll be making an acacia brew)
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(256kb) downloaded 68 time(s).Fear, belief, love phenomena that determined the course of our lives. These forces begin long before we are born and continue after we perish. We cross and recross our old paths like figure skaters; our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb, we are bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future.
---David Mitchell, Cloud Atlas