Hi everyone! Hope you're all okay. I love this site. Here we go, a quick recap of my life with drugs and how I came to find the Nexus.

I'm 35 years old now. I lost my virginity at 18 and I also started smoking, drinking and doing drugs at the same age. Curiousity and peer pressure more than anything. All my friends at the time were doing it. It seemed harmless. Shortly after trying hashish I fell in love with it and have used cannabis pretty much every day since, switching from solids to weed several years ago when a strange change occured here in England when the quality of the hash went down and the quality of the weed got much better.

In the early years of my exploration with drugs I took them with gusto, as did my friends. We tried MDMA together and loved it. Then came LSD, mushrooms and cocaine. I was very enthusiastic through it all, it felt like I had become part of a community and I really dug it. We were collectively a heavy metal band, me as guitarist. The whole ethos of sex, drugs and rock n roll really consumed me. Things got dark around the time we did heroin together. You know with alcohol people are oft to egg each other on to drink more? Well the same thing happened with me and my friends, a stupid kind of contest to see who could drink the most and do the most drugs. It's amazing to me that none of us died. Although it has messed us all up in different ways.

it was around this time I discovered DMT. New years eve, 1999, a small gathering of friends. A friend of a friend had some DMT that he intended to smoke at midnight, a massive dose apparently. He was very experienced with it and smoking it at midnight was a ritual he did each year. After talking to us all about it he felt compelled to sacrifice some of his dose in order to allow myself and one other friend to each smoke a tiny amount to try it. He showed us the crystal, which looked like brown sugar. He produced a well used old school DMT pipe, a glass pipe with bulb and very long stem. He was going to light from underneath and tell us when to inhale. My friend went 1st and felt nothing at all. Perturbed, the fellow added a teeny bit more to the pipe for my go. He said when to inhale and I did. One toke was all it took. By the time I had exhaled it had me.

The whole room began spinning around violently and a loud noise crashed around in my head. It sounded like, and felt like, my brain shutting off. My eyes closed, I can't remember if I closed them or if they closed on their own. It didn't matter. Suddenly I was in a different dimension. An insanely beautiful world made up of colours and whiteness and constantly shifting patterns. I saw a central figure walking towards me in black and smaller more mischievous seeming creatures to the left and right, smiling and waving. As the figure approached I heard in my voice, "Is that you, mum?". To which the figure replied, "Yes, it's your mum". Just as the figure got within reach I was snatched back from that place and I came to from the trip, my eyes opened. It was mind bogglingly powerful stuff. One of my 1st thoughts upon coming to was, "wow, I can't believe there is something out there THIS strong". My friend had told me it was to be respected and he was right. The experience has stayed with me this whole time, in factfor a long time I thought of little else.

After that time I experimented with every other drug out there. Tried all except for pcp and crystal meth. I've had some problems with addiction. Alcohol at 1st. As well as that I wasn't so much addicted to any one substance as I was addicted to getting wasted in general. I come from a family of heavy boozers. I am ok now. I still drink once a week and smoke weed all day, every day. But now in my life I feel a calling to do DMT again. To explore psychedelics more, they are my favourite type of drug.

So here I find myself at the Nexus! I have determined to attempt my very 1st extraction soon, using information found on this site. Cyb's hybrid atb salt tek is the method I've chosen. I can't wait to see the results.

Well that's about it. Thankyou everyone here, I love this community, glad to be a part of it. Love n kisses xxx

Hey man, nice to meet you. So do you think that it was your maw? Or a memory? Or an entity just saying it was your maw because it knew you wanted it to be? Im interested in your thoughts about it.

Hi and welcome to the nexus!

I wishitwaslegal too... I have no idea how DMT can be scheduled as "class 1" when it's clearly not addictive.

You'll have a lot of fun with Cyb's Salt tek I'm sure, it's one of the popular choices.

May I ask what product you are extracting from? (MHRB, ACRB, Phyllodes etc?)

Hi Legal,

Welcome!

Similar sort of story this end, only trade in the metal band and the heroin for more cocaine and a Hunter S. Thompson writing style.

I eventually found myself doing more and more psyches to treat my depression and various impulse issues, and have now got to the point where I rarely drink and smoke. New to DMT, however. Still working on that

Hey guys, thanks for the response.
Hi, Japansage, good to meet you. No mate, I don't think it was my mum. Sorry, I should've clarified in my post but my mum is actually still alive and kicking. I've no idea why in my trip I called out to her or why I heard her voice. Perhaps it's got something to do with the fact that when I first arrived in that world, hyperspace if you will, the place was so strange and so alien and different that a small part of my mind was like a little lost child calling out for his mother. One thing I can tell you though is that just as the figure got closer, just as it was going to come into full view, I had an overwhelming sense that it was a lie and it wasn't my mum after all. That was when the trip ended. However after saying that, I've done a lot of reading since then and it seems possible that the figure I saw was Mother Ayahuasca, or the earth mother. So perhaps it was my mother all along. All of our mothers. It's a very romantic notion but it's one I like to believe in. Or believe in the possibility of it at least.
Hi Shadow, it's good to meet you too. Yeah, it's weird isn't it? Not only is it not addictive but it's also such a powerful healing substance. For the powers that be to say it has no medical uses whatsoever just seems so dismissive to me. I'm not saying doctors should start prescribing it to people or anything but I've read a lot of reports of people using DMT to treat PTSD and things of that nature. To answer your question I will be using MHRB. I'm close to having all the materials necessary to perform an extraction. When I've done it I'll be sure to post my results. Fingers crossed!
Hi Shanghigher, good to meet you too. Respect for digging Hunter S. Thompson. Love that man.

Welcome and thanks for the bio.
During the read, I was wondering if you felt the entity was one of good or bad intent?
However, if you felt it could have been Mother Ayahuasca or earth mother, I imagine you must have felt love. Is that true?

Good to meet you, Ashema, interesting question. I do feel like the entity was friendly and had good intent. But it definitely had more to show/tell me. Maybe things may have gotten darker or scary from there. Like I said it was a very small dose and I didn't spend long there. It was a seductive, welcoming feeling more than actual love. The other little entities seemed pleased to see me, they were all smiling and waving and were very friendly.