ok guys last night i experienced the most intense DMT momment ever.
I have done DMT for a few times. Many of them had weird CEV's they were like sub-breakthroughs.
1 month ago my last DMT was a bit chaotic.
I have done LSD also which it was crazy and chaotic also. I was in delusions which i thought i died while i using LSD
because of something stupid movement of my own that i didnt know.
I had tried LSD with 3 of my fiends. After that night one of them always started to talk about that feeling that everyone knows
about but none talks about.That feeling was so intense for him , it changed is life. It changed is perspective to life.
And ever since we doing DMT he tells me that thing that all is one and one is all we are all one consciousness .
I couldnt understand him . Thats why i always tell him as a answer that he could be right and he could be wrong too. This
thing is just a theory and if its true i should prove it to belive.
There were things that i waited to see from a DMT trip. That things that everyone talks abaout that entities
that aliens machines and etc. The last time i tried the DMT month ago things that a saw came meaningless to me.
They were look like a product of mine mind and because of that , i went full anger. I mean where is the all meaningly things that
everyone talks about or is this bullshit ???
YEsterday when i tried it i was expected nothnig from DMT. I understanded that spice doenst works that why.
I shouldnt expected to see specific thnigs i just enjot what the spice will show me.
So i did.And here it goes...
My friend vaporized the spice for me . Before that i took harmala also. After a very deep and big hit i holded my breath
and whatch the worlds change fastly. İ was observing the astly expanding room and the patterns that forming on every matter
in the room.It started. So i give my breath and after that i remember nothing.
I was like completly blackedout.I was like fell in to a instant dream. But i know it wasnt a dream .
I remember myself in a realm. Where every movement is continously and periodic just like a vibraiton just like a wave.
Where a realm that looks a bit cartoonish a bit high-tech i cant remember very good.
Sometimes that place was agiant room sometimes a specific places take a from with prisms. I cant tell you that ıt is beatifull
or it is ugly... Its was like there is no meaning of ugly and beatifull in that place. They were same in there.
There wasnt my body over there. I just travel with my consciousness. Everything that i think about in that place
a saw a connection between them just like brain neurons how connected with each other everything in that realm
was connected . Everything connected s o thightly..In this world i know there is a connection between me and something
irrelevant like a table. In this world we ccant udnerstand this but in that realm i could see and feel that conenction.
Moreover there wasnt me or something specific like a table... There were just one thing. Everything all in one.
That place could be everything , a beach , a mountain , and eye , a table , a person... It could be everything.
It was like a giant river of "everything".
I heared a voice in my head. If you ask me now , i interpret it as my thoughts. But when i there i heard that voices
or thought of mine in a voice of my friend. Not in my voice. Voice of my friend that vaporized the spice for me.
I heard his voice and he is telling me that in a fast tempo
"It is easy to understand , everything is connected in here
. In this place you are happy..."
from that time i felt happy things that i see were also beatifull.
Tempo of voice slows down
"and you are saaaaaaaaaaaaadd innn thee saaamee tiimmeee."
Then i started to feel sad and gloom and things that i saw was not beatifull.
Tempo of voice speeds up again
"There is no meaning , its not important also ha ha ha . There is no importance how you feel everything is the same."
Tempo of voice slows down
"You can be in a serious pain..."
In that time started to feel pain all in my body and i was scared.
Tempo of voice speeds up
"But in the same time you can be healthy and happy"
then all pain was gone and was happy again in a momment.
Voice continue...
"Did you get it everything is so simple , everything is the same , its about how you want to look at it
how you want to think about it hah hah hah..."
I opened my eyes. But there was no change. Actually dont remember also i really opened them .
But i remmembered everything. Man !! How did i come to this place ?? Yes i used the spice... Oh i was a person
i had a body !!!
I was in shock and dont know any idea to how to tell this thing to other persons. I cant... Its is impossible.
Even i will forget it.. And things that i remember will change in time by time because lack of our language..
It will start to be like a myth.
I was still in strong effects. When i remembered my body i also started to feel its pysicall feelings.
It wasnt like coming down. It was like looking back to what i left behind. My body felt like pissed myself felt like shit myself.
But it was the last thing that i wanted.I dont wanted to ashamed in front of my friend.So i think that i should hold it.
Thats why a dont get too far from my body.
Then i started to think ...
"What a bullshit ! I just cant travel freely in the realm because my disgrace.Foolish !! Peeing is the same for every
being every person and we were ashamed by it !!! Because of that shame i could NOT be free ! Animals dont ashamed by this
. Why just we couldnt be like them. Why we humans add so much proprieties. And every one them every foolish society law
was a barrier for me to be FREE in that realm."
I had tears dropped from my eyes. But i dont know why and when. That tears were just there.
No matter of i tring to be close to my body , that realm still sucks me in to it.
In that realm i was crying and after a sec. i was happy. It was the same. Two opposite things like being happy
and sad had a connection between them in there.
I felt pain from my body. Its like i were stabbed from every part of my body. It was like blood spraying out of every single vein
from mine. It was like i was took a shock from a 220 V electricity current.
Then i scared. Did i died ???
I couldn't be died , i didnt want it ??? i dont want to people to remember my as a young person who died from drugs.
I had loved ones in this world. I also wanted to be in that realm but not now !! There were thnigs i want to do in this world ...
I call my friend. He came over. I ask him that "Am i alive ??"
That time i started to see the room a bit caledeoscopic ... Effects were little down but still strong.
It was like i waked up from a stron nightmare. I mean my body felt like it. I contracted and shocked.
But i know that it wasnt like a dream...
My friend told me , "calm down , you are not dead and you wouldnt be also. You wont die because of DMT. In this world
you researched it."
I started to remember. Yes... this world. Every research i made was for travel more freely in that realm.I relived and pleased.
I was still alive. Then i closed my eyes again.
I still feel that realm seeing but i dont remember.I tried to tell to my friend what i see but i couldn't
put the words together. I still feel like i pissed myself and the shame was still there. I tell myself.
I tell my self "ok this should stop. I want to take a strong controll of my body again." I look in to the room , to my friend
and eveything was so foreign...I was lived in this place in this body but even that they feel so foreign to me...
I tell my friend that i was ashamed by pissing myself in front of you. There is so much thing that connects us to
this world. Our feelings of shame , that pointless race between every person , gaining statue in this world
, that greed , that pride between all humans. What is mattering we are all just same
we are all stardust... If the one want to travel that realm completly , one should die in this world. Only that way
the feeling of shame will start to be unimportant.
That labels that humans give to themselves , drug addict , fat , ugly , loser... Every one of them
will be a problem when we will go to that realm.But why is that. What is mattering we are all the same.
I wish to everyone loved each other and lived peacly in the world with no labels. I wish to get off from society
and go to forest and wanted to live there with nature peacly. So there would be no label no meanigless human rules.
Everyone would be equal in front of the nature. There wont be a meaning how would i died.Because i would know that
nature wont label me. So i can be completly free in that realm with in peace.
2 hours had passed.I was still in shock from what did i saw.But now i understand.
That what religions try to say in substance. Its all about to be more freely in that realm. Dying peacely...
There shouldnt be any difference between when a soldier dies and a drug addict dies or a cat dies..
There shouldnt be be statue difference. There souldnt be any difference. We are just part of the nature.
As a human even how intelegent we are or how our technology will be better this wont change.
We will still be the part of that unity. Everyone should respect and love each other every living thing..
I am sure about that every religion want to tell this and thats why many human in time see the things what i saw.
Meditation , plants , etc.
BUt i can see clearly that many people who is in religion doenst understand this also. They just afraid from hell.
Because of humans "ego" many religon is diverted.
Maybe best thing that explains is that video. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YdwYGu1o8gs)
Things that i saw could just be a hallucination.If it is a hallucination , that all humanity is belives to a hallucination.
It could be hallucination , but anyway things that i learn is beatifull.
My post is long . But things that happen , started me to thinking about that. And i just wanted to share.
Thanks for reading it...
Impossible is just for ignorant fools