Greetings Nexians!
I have been browsing this forum for quite some time and have been INTENSELY lurking this past week as I performed my first extraction with Acacia Confusa root bark and took my first steps (followed by a humongous leap) into hyperspace.
So a little background considering this is my first thrrad . I'm 20 years old, 5'9", and roughly 160 pounds. I'd like to think I have a fair amount of experience and a solid understanding of psychedelic states of consciousness. I had taken LSD over a dozen times and have eaten Psilocybe Cubensis about a half dozen. These teachers actually helped me crawl out of a living hell that was heroin addiction . With all of this out in the air, let's get down to my experience last night. .
I carried out a standard STB tek with about 250g of ACRB, 300g of NaHo, split into two half gallon mason jars with 1500 ml of water each. My yeild for this first extraction was less than impressive(some jars still in the freezer so crossing fingers!) Being my first extraction, I wasn't too disappointed and was prepared to end up with an oil/paste type substance. I tried smoking my product a few times but couldn't seem to get the dose and smoking method correct. To solve this, I whipped myself up some of what I now call "changahuascAHHHHHHH!"
instead of standard prep, I kind of threw it sloppily together by putting my smoking blend(lemon balm and caapi vine) in the pie dish I had all my goo in.. I proceded to mash all of it together making sure I had totally saturated the herbs and salvaged as much of this precious alkaloid as possible.
Here is where it got extremely deep, spiritual and perspective shattering. The next day my friend had some high quality LSD. Not any DOx, but Hoffman's hypnotic helix itself. I couldn't pass the opportunity up so I ate one single dose. Toward the end of the come up, I figured that the LSD would act as a launch pad to help me reach what I was looking for.
YES, my first DMT breakthrough was while peaking on LSD. I would not suggest you do this for your first time, but it called to Me in a way I couldn't resist.
Note: what I'm about to describe is me putting into words something totally alien to this place... an amazingly raw and profound experience.....
I felt the peak coming soon. So I loaded up my door with a full cone of my changa, along with a few ice cubes in the chamber .... I lit the bowl and watched the cherry turn from red to purple to blue, and the smoke filling the chamber demanded my respect. I filled it as long as I could, exhaled and cleared that bong with force. The taste of my blend infused with that tryptamine taste was outstanding. I held this one for about 20 seconds and immediately lit it again. Half way through filling it I knew it was coming... THIS WAS IT.
My awareness heightened to a level far surpassing synesthesia. I got the rest of the bowl in me and laid back and closed my eyes.
It came on so fast and so hard.... I was literally catapulted out of this world. Mid flight, my body started to tingle before my boundaries and any sense of self I had left were completely obliterated by this thing. I was no longer Tyler, no longer a body, no longer anything but an observer of this brand new place that my center of being was thrust into. I was flying light speed in this infinite SRA of impossible shapes and patterns that contained colors that don't even exist here. I was already in absolute awe and up until the point where I was somewhat self aware, I thought I had died. Once I remembered what was happening I resorted to a breath awareness practice and surrendered to the power.
This next part was the most incredible experience of my entire life. While floating in this sea of quantum information, I felt a presence of which could only be described as absolutely divine and all knowing... this started as a sensation but he soon made himself visible
In the center of this dome shaped web of experience emerged a being staring down at me. Its hard to remember the size of this head but it was bigger than anything I've ever seen. I stared up into his eyes and was overwhelmed with the feeling that all my beliefs about "god" were externally generated by this thing. It became obvious at that point I was in the presence of the great observer that is responsible for my entire conscious existence. This moment was so profound and spiritually raw that I could've cried
Then, he started vocalizing one or two syllable "words" that echoed through this entire space. With each noise there was a rapid change in color and a building of energy between its eyes. Along with these vocalizations came these incredible, impossible 5D shapes morphing into even more impossible shapes before imprinting themselves on my consciousness like a branding iron. I understood that these were the sounds of creation and I was being shown how its done beyond the veil. The overwhelming onslaught of these "self dribbling jeweled basketballs" (RIP) continued for, well, it doesn't matter... time was merely information bring transmitted to us in 3d space..... I was far beyond this. After this entity had its fill of showing me the unspeakable, he left me with a message,
"I have planted a seed.... and you must allow it to grow."
As I instantly opened my eyes I was confronted with extremely intense LSD visuals which seemed very dismal in comparison. This would've been an amazing first journey regardless of whether I was on LSD or not, but coming down off the spice into the Lucy experience allowed me to deeply reflect on what I had just experienced and left me with the most amazing feeling of accomplishment, deep understanding, and total oneness.
Overall this was the single most profound moment of my life, and I can honestly say that I feel reborn. My previous mental state of anxiety and emptiness was alchemically converted to a deep appreciation for life and enstilled a new concept of faith that I never dreamed possible.
I'm sorry for the long post but I hope some of you enjoy reading it. I'm so excited to be a member of this great community. I have to thank all of you for spreading knowledge and good vibes to everyone who is willing to accept. You were as much a part of this experience than anything. Much love to you all!!!