I discovered this forum yesterday, and was intrigued by the community and the energy and the level of mutual respect that is shared by the members here and decided to join

A little background information about me:

Was born in 1992, Aries, and I don't know how familiar you guys are with Indigo children or the whole "phenomenon" but there has been a string of incidences in my life that lead me to believe that I may be one. However, I don't see it as a "one-up" or anything that provides a point of separation from the Source we are all connected to. I believe that humanity is seeing a shift in collective consciousness and us "kids" are just the next generation that will hopefully facilitate some changes.

I'd like to see myself as a fellow traveler. I've dabbled in psychedelics (mj, shrooms, and lsd) and I've heard about DMT but never actually got to try it. I never had any stereotypical experiences on these vessels (sometimes what the media portrays, such as face-melting, crazy colors, etc.) but I have felt a general change in what motivates me and a shift in my conscious being. I wonder sometimes if I'm too headstrong (even alcohol doesn't have much of an effect on my conscious state). However, I (was/am) an avid toker and it's hard to describe what it does for me. I've ditched a lot of friends and people tell me I've become a "shell" of myself but it's hard to explain why I keep doing what I do... I feel like I'm looking for some kind of break-through, I feel like I'm getting so close, shedding all of my material desires, even at the point of deserting physical manifestation, but on the flip side you could say I'm unmotivated, unambitious, and a little bit insane. Don't worry, I've heard it before. I'm just afraid that the journey I'm taking isn't just a modified manifestation of my ego. I would appreciate any greetings and feedback. Good day

welcome , i just joined this place like you
pretty much trying to learn the basics mushrooms were my bread and butter



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Welcome kujo.

I hope you find the break-through you're looking for.

welcome to the Nexus, kujo.

Many people that become interested in DMT feel like they are searching for something. It was that way for me at least.

I'm still waiting for that shift in consciousness to happen, but I'm afraid that it's actually going the wrong way. I see people over dinner tables communicating more with their iPads and smart phones than with one another. Taking pictures of the sunset has become more important than actually enjoying the sunset. Perhaps we are just making way for the electronic lifeforms to take over. Who knows. I guess it's better this way so that once this planet is destroyed most people won't notice a difference because they won't actually have ever looked up from the screen to see the change.

But I stray... If you feel you are not getting to where you ought to with psychedelics, you might want to try a different set/setting or a higher dose. Within the margin of saftey, of course.

As for the ego, I think this is a term many people get super hung up on. "You must fight your ego" or things like this become prominent ideas, but really, all you are is fighting yourself this way. I like to think it's all about becoming a balanced person, in harmony with your surroundings and moving along the best possible of paths for you. The ego is an integral part of your self. it has its functions and benefits in a non pathological way. There is no need to villanize it. Simply strive for balance and harmony.

good luck

Holy moly, I felt the exact same way as you did before my first DMT experience. I also had the same drug history, and while I haven't had many experiences with super-natural powers, I have often believed that I may be more empathetic than most of my peers.

I too am looking for a break-through. I find I don't dream anymore, despite having stopped smoking pot, meditating, and practicing lucid dreaming techniques. Even my first DMT experience felt like I was experiencing it through a dark veil.

I hope we both find what we're looking for.

I feel like a lot of mainstream society would distinguish our behavior as erratic but I see it more as esoteric. We're ALL searching for something, but obviously our current world leaders aren't teaching us anything except that history just keeps repeating itself in a negative loop.



Thanks I hope you find everything you need on your journey as well.



I like what you said about our consciousness almost taking a turn for the worst with all the electronic entities we're creating. It definitely has consumed a lot of the attention of my generation (and subsequent generations). However, I'm still holding out hope- It only took one Jesus, one Buddha, one Gandhi, one Muhammad, etc. to shake up history. How much more of a shift can we create if it's 20,000 people pushing the collective boundaries? That's why I see communities like this one (even though it's online) as a haven for the uninformed. I mean, I only thought of DMT as something that I hopefully run into in my travels in the future until I learned it could be created relatively easily a couple days ago.

As for the ego, I guess I never paid attention to the idea that there might be levels of unconscious behavior in every one of us caused by pain/maya/desire/suffering/etc and I'm exploring the idea of "egolessness" as a way of raising my consciousness. I've read some of Eckhart Tolle's writings and while they are "bookstore friendly" types of spiritual exploration, I think the idea of ego = pain does resonate with me. It's funny how it does say that the more we fight the ego, the more it exists so it makes it hard to be aware yet not fight this "foreign" entity.



Yes I hope we find it!

I have been smoking almost religiously for about 1.5 years. It's really hard to describe why I keep smoking other than, I feel like I get closer and closer to the veil every time I do. It was never this way before I tried psychedelics (shrooms then LSD). I've stopped smoking for now just to explore consciousness sans MJ.

I'd like to hear more about your DMT trip. I know that when I was on LSD, I managed to drive MODERATOR EDIT: PLEASE DO NOT ATTEMPT THIS, HIGHLY IRRESPONSIBLE!! about 10 miles out to the outskirts. I drove perfectly, but in my mind I felt like I wasn't driving, but levitating myself / gravitating towards a certain destination. And when I got there I was hit with words and cycles of thought that I've never seen/heard before. I asked myself what this feeling was and a thought in my mind told me "clairvoyance". my brain center was vibrating like never before. It was surreal.

Welcome, Kujo. I hope you enjoy your interactions here on the forum

Some of what you posted deserves a bit of cross examination. I hope you don't mind if I offer some thoughts - I do it without the intention to rattle.

So, a little about myself. I too am an Aries. And while I don't buy into all the astrology stuff all that much, I have noticed that a: I seem to have a lot of fire sign friends and b: most Aries types, like myself, are egotistical to some degree.

I could even argue that I have more right than most to be. I stand at nearly two metres tall. I've got an IQ that puts me in the genius bracket. I have an ability to empathise and socialise which has made my life easier over the years. I've also come from a working class background to becoming the editor of a UK tech mag before I hit 30. I'm well evolved, technically, and I put it to good use. My only massive hold up has been a mind crunching depression I suffered from for quite some time, but evaded thanks to trips.

The danger, of course, is believing in your own hype too much. The Indigo Children thing is pseudoscience - don't let your own ego and flair for the exotic get in the way of a good bit of critical thinking.

As for coming into these things for change, I feel a lot of people seem to expect the drugs to do all the heavy lifting. For me, it acted as a catalyst. I wanted to change - in my case, to break a decade of depression. I thought about it at length. I used trips to challenge myself and the way I thought. I then took what I gained to accelerate my own development. It's a gradual process, IMO, and one you need to put more effort into than merely acquiring drugs.

So far, DMT hasn't been a massive life changing thing for me. I got to the point where I had explored myself to the point of completion. My recent move towards DMT has been more because during a pretty spectacular LSD trip, I finally lost all ego and blended with the universe. It's that that I'm chasing now, and if there are more bits about myself along the way, then bonus points.

As for driving on LSD, seriously? I doubt I could even get into a car, let alone drive it. Have more respect for the drug, dude. Driving on lucy might not only fuck up your trip, but think of all the other outcomes before you get behind the wheel. It's not just you on the road.

Greetings fellow traveler.

A lot of what you said is very interesting and does resonate with me, at the same time I believe we do have some differences. Maybe that is what distinguishes us Aries (heh), the natural desire to lead with our strong intellect & intuition mixed with our flare-prone egos makes for a dynamic concoction.

I too, suffer(ed) from depression. It wasn't until my journey into psychedelics did I start challenging the labels of mental stability placed by Western thought, medicine, and society. I, like many other of my peers, had a "let the scientists & the doctors know what's best for my health" kind of attitude, until I started to see even they did not have an end-all answer. I became disillusioned with standard education. I was a 3rd year in uni when I decided to drop out; "higher education" in the U.S. costs an arm and a leg and I had a growing sense of dread that I was learning nothing beyond the status quo.

I agree that it's not smart to drive while on LSD, nor would I recommend anyone to do the same. However, I'm sure you will agree with me that everything is a matter of perspective. If I did not fully believe I was capable of driving 10 miles while on LSD, I might not be here on this forum with everything that happened to me as the way it did up to now. I believe that everything happens as it does, and the life we live is not the one we want- but the one we need. Yes, you could say I threw a lot of rationality out the window. But what is to say that a deer that sees a vehicle rolling down the man-made street is rational? The idea that we give rules and regulations that need to be learned through conditioning could be seen as very irrational. I'm not trying to say one is right and one is wrong, it's all depending on the frame of mind (or no-mind) we decide to look at our existence do we find the distinguishing between what's right and wrong. Sorry if some of that didn't make any sense.

Good luck on your travels!