It's not a problem in time it took for reply i completley understand! Thank you soo much for the reply and empathy twards my story. She means the whole basis of who I am to me as a person (my nana. She taught me with beleifs and values that I try to take every day with me, but she was a fiesty old lady, lol never get on her bad side lol.
My wife I love and cherish and always will. It feels like shes been with me since, well, forever, before this life and after, and into the new, a soulmate I will always find. As for her doing psychedelics, well, lets just say Im the one whod does it for both lol. She does nothing in the sense, but accepts me for who I am, shes completley straight edge, no drinking, no smoking, nothing, lol little funny she would be with me
But we balance eachother out, Im a risk taker and shes conservitave, we kinda need eachother in the sense that we could fall out of balance very easy without oneanother lol, ying to yang, negative and positve. Opposites attract. Definatly keeps me from old bad habbits and makes me develope better new ones.
As for --DMT--... I heard about it through a friend who was also into psychedelics, we both had a head for em lol. But one day we were trippin on LSD, havin a crap load of fun at his house tellin old stories back and fourth to eachother. But he mentioned something about DMT.....
"It occours naturally inside our bodies and its a mechinisim to help see us into the after life, and at birth, its supposed to be extreamly strong, as strong or stronger than lsd..."
Thats what he said and i was intrigued (hope i spelled it right lol), so i forgot the whole idea for a while, and went about my regular psychedelic consumption for a while u know, once a month maybe twice sometimes i would go a year without but then i would hear the calling again... "to the other place", and do it all over again
But I met a friend who mentioned DMT again, not the same who introduced me to the idea. But a later friend, he said something about doing dmt but we never got around to doing it. Sooooooo, I made my Own...
ACRB was my first tech to obtain the special molicule that is DMT. I used Josh Isoms tech, (dont know why he put his name on it) to extract, I ran into the delema that i only had 250g of ACRB when the recipe called for 1 kilo, holy crap i dont need that much dmt for just trying it out! lol so i scailed down the mesurments to a quarter of what all the measurments for the liquids and base mixes should be and did my extraction, it worked perfectly i got about 5 grams of some killer spice that rocked my world, harder than lsd, shrooms, anything else before, I use the expression "Its like being strapped to a Saturn V rocket and blasting off into orbit, then you float and admire the view, then you return to earth pretty quick."
Dont know how else to describe it, but INTENSE on the come up, but once your there its pretty smooth. That is why in my opinion, its pretty strong. Its definatly up there with lsd and fungis. As for my experiences with dmt id be happy to share as well.
This one changed my perspective for a new sense of well being, sinergy and overall empathy for the better. I was listening to a piano instramental, very beautiful i thought how elagant, I could have a good flow with an aid right? As I drew the hit in the melody started becoming more visual, then the wall of colors, the geometric shape took hold then, poof, broke threw, I was a rich man in a millin millin dollar house. I had money and I knew it. As I walked outside with my morning coffee I saw my gardeners doing work, one owned the buisness, and the other was the emplyee, the owner looked like he was doing good he was well dressed in the right attire to be doing work, as for his assistent, he had shoes falling off from the joint soul of the shoe had holes in them, as for the jacket same falling apart appearance, but this was the first time i have seen both of them doing work at my house since i have hired the company. I walk out to start conversation, not to the owner but to the poor emplyee, I asked "Its hot out here huh." Landscaper replys "yeah it is, hows your day going sir." With that my whole world shattered for this kid, hes working as hard as he can, putting blood sweat into his work, and is still considerate of me, and cant afford good work clothes?!?! So I puilled out my checkbok and wrote him a check for $20,000... I said "Here, It seems your a good person a hard worker, somebody who has morals, I would like to help you if i could." and handed him the written check. After the check touched his hand, i faded back to earth, It was pretty intense seeing something like that for me and not do something about it.
I was always empathetic to another but actully being there and seeing it, it makes you think stronger about it, its no longer a thought, Its a feeling.
The second breakthrough was even more intense but my fingers are tired lol lemme know if your still reading. Thanks again soo much for your time to read and Bless you all here at the Nexus, lots of good people here! Namaste, and Peace to all