Greetings all you guys.
I've been reading the posts since i've got here. All i've got was: beatiful and pure common things and knowing I am not alone.
My type is, you know, not much the talker guy. But this forum, no people on this forum keep stunning, shocking and surprising me everytime. And i've decided to share my thoughts while on drugs, dreams, walking on the road etc. Because they are all connected.
First of all, as you guys interested, I was only smoking weed, but on the 29th February, i've met LSD. In my country, it's really hard to get these kinda psychadelics. On that evening, in a house with two friends, we've tried it: Like Maynard(Tool's Vocalist), i will share my thoughts divide right in two.
* What's happening to me? Is this right? Seriously, is this the right way? Can I drink water? Is it okay?
When the real kick-in starts;
* I was like, umm what is the word, or words;
- Slow-mo
- Epic adventures(You know it, guys. I'm sure of it.
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- Try to help my friend, but later, i was careless.
- Time layers, what happens in 9:00 to 10:00 pm, feeling was different for 10-11:00 pm, until the 3:00 am.
- Switchbacks, like bloody all the time.
I'll never win guys, I'm just a man. But I don't care. It was like: "Good Morning Vietnam."
Three weeks later, my extremely succesful chemist friend who also like my brother, gave me the so called DMT. I said: "Yeah man, whatever"(Oh why am i so reckless, and careless?)
23rd March I guess, same room, full of glass pipes, and eyes shut.
* Am I dying? Nooo, it's just the beginnig effect. Do not be afraid, my friends are here.
Kicking in 3..2..1..
* After the felt of wholeness, it was only dark, but somehow i can see. There was a door, there were ugly-beatiful god tier faces on the door, there was pitch-black blue eyed man near the door, there were wings on back of my head.
* I am flying to the door, because the man said he will let me in.
Yeah you will know that:
* Wings burned up. I fell on the ground. And he whispered: "Too late."
22nd April, same room, with harmala, why are we doing these in a house, seriously.
* Horrified, disoriented, feared.
(Inner sound: No I am better than that. Gather around by my side, come on "everything", you can do this.)
(But on the process "letting all in", there were some unexplainable things i see, felt and thought. And i will never explain that with "Alphabeticly, and with numbers or formulas"
* Lights, big white lights, i was one of them, music was following me, catching me, filling me.
* Went to a civilization, sucked cloud serpent's flash(Like baby who sucks it's mothers breasts.), a woman guided, told some things:
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What? You don't know about us? Whatever. See, that was who you are.(Showing me the Allegory of The Cave - Plato.)* Passed the river, walked in their jungle, dungeon, and the reached the main tablet.
(I called, this is it "Perfect World". Because any of my actions change nothing. If I cut some flower, it was regrowing.)
* Main tablet has 3 points. 2 of them was human palm, last was circle shaped. Pressed two of them, but 3rd was hard, I don't know how to do it.
To be continued, I hope.
Some questions for you guys:
1) I know, inside of me, they were not pointless all. But any thoughts?
2) Can you suggest me better places?
3) I never had breakthroughs, as my friends told me so, what is it like any way?
4) Plus, my mind is full of sci-fi stories, games, arts, literature(mostly underground). My experiences always similiar with my hobies. Is it bad?
Thank you guys who read this or not, thanks anyway. This is only the beginning for me. Share with me, live with me, I know we're "the one", or we're "one".