--Last night I swallowed down 3g rue + 15g ACRB with two glasses of orange juice.
I am fit, healthy, and mentally ready for the unknown.--
I call upon the angels and other spirits and invite them to dance.
I shut off the lights and ignite the sage incense, and watch as the pale smoke unfolds before my eyes.
I already feel like I am in a different head space after a mere 10 minutes. I feel fear writhing in the pit of my stomach. Trust it, I tell myself.
I lie back down on my bed, slightly elevated by a series of cushions so as to relieve the nausea of my protesting stomach. Reality begins to shift. I begin playing my psybient playlist.
Behind closed eyelids, visions of pain and suffering wash over me. This is very unsettling. My heart is racing. As much as I try I cannot change the nature of these visions. I open my eyes and stumble to the toilet, and sigh with relief as I emptied my bladder. I return cautiously to my bed and visions. Things are speeding up now. The fabric of reality begins to reveal itself in a breathtaking display of color, patterns and vibration.
Then out of nowhere, this rush of warm pulsating energy surges through my feet and out the crown of my head. The energy is very sexual. The universe is playing with itself, dancing, making love, breathing. With a contempt sigh I flex all the muscles in my body, the feeling is a shock wave of pleasure. I feel beyond powerful.
I begin to slip into a trance. Areas of tension in my body are released with conscious intention, each release I sink deeper into the altered state. I am a river of energy. Everything is flowing freely. Waves of energy surge through me, my spirit is aflame!
I reopen my eyes, against the protest of the spirits. I look at my hands absent recognition, they appear elongated and alien. I place my palms together and feel the energy flow between them. My hands merge and energy begins to overflow from them. I have found the key! Reality begins to tremble. My identity begins to fade. The floodgates of infinity is released. I've found it! I scream with joy! My hands flop limp to my sides. I am drowning in the most complex, divine energy imaginable.
Eehm mah val tul eee waa...God begins the sacred chanting. The words flow effortlessly from the mouth of the body, but is not of its origin. The arms are moving, swaying, swirling, fingers flailing. It is the divine language. Everything is visible, nothing is hidden, eyes everywhere. Time is a choice. There is complete control. The chanting and hand gestures get more powerful, reality is being woven like a web, where consciousness is the spider. There is no judgement. There are no limits. Infinity is the only truth.
'As within, As without' God murmurs.
Eternity is a terrifying, yet beautiful thing.
The god mind is forever chanting, it is the essence of all that is and all that will ever be.
The ego begins to return. The identity slowly reforming. The infinite senses the distress of the identity. It falls silent. Reality continues to ripple with energetic programming. The identity is on its own now. The identity can hear his breath in the distance. It is slow and calm. What am I?
The Universe is Breathing
As Above, So Below, As Within, So Without ~ message from the divine