I would like to post this in the experience section, but it won't let me. I have to post it here instead.
I've been trying to get into DMT fumarate and pharmahuasca recently. See my recent posts for more information. I did my first fumarate extraction earlier this week. The extraction went poorly, and I only had enough DMT fumarate for 2 trips. I also have a good bit of DMT freebase as well. I've done many freebase extractions in the past.
It's Spring Break for my college, so I've been doing DMT more this week than I have in a long time. I've either smoked DMT or taking pharmahuasca almost every day this break. But nothing compares to last night. I used the small amount of DMT fumarate that I had.
Since I was out, I did a second DMT fumarate extraction 2 nights ago, and last night it was ready. Unlike my first fumarate extraction, this second one went much better, and I came away with a hefty load of fumarate! I still have a good amount of both fumarate and freebase. After preparing a 4.5 gram syrian rue tea, using as little water as possible to avoid having to drink alot of that that yucky stuff, I took around 180mg of DMT fumarate. So I got that usual pharmahuasca feeling, nothing out of the ordinary. Then I decided to smoke DMT freebase. I had never smoked DMT while on an MAOI, let alone pharmahuasca.
I smoked the DMT out of a bong. My bowl is glass on glass, and it is tall and narrow and it can hold ALOT of herbs. It's basically a narrow, but large, party bowl. It's great for DMT. I put some parsley on the bottom. Then I put in the DMT, then I put a very fat load of parsley on top. I must say, parsley makes it super easy to smoke. Much easier than with weed. Damn I love parsley.
I don't know how much freebase I used, but looking at my pile now, I guess I had quite a bit in there. I used more freebase than I would usually use. I started smoking around 12:28am at night. I don't know how many hits I got in, but I think I got around 5-7 nice hits that I easily held in. As soon as I let that last hit out, oh, my, god.
My source for all these recent extractions was Acacia Confusa. I gotta say, the visuals are much lacking compared to Mimosa Hostillis. I'm guessing it's because Acacia contains more alkaloids than just nn-DMT. I believe it also has NMT. I'm not too great with the chemistry, so you guys probably know more than I do. It's worth mentioning that I still have a pound of vacuum-sealed Brazilian Mimosa Hostillis from the Sonoran Song days, but I'm saving that for a long time. I may never use it. I treasure that Mimosa Hostillis package, and I can see myself keeping it as a keepsake. I might never have an opportunity to find such potent root bark ever again. While I enjoy Aciacia Confusa, it just doesn't compare to the adventures I had on Brazilian Mimosa Hostillis. The visuals were just on another level. The intensity was similar though.
Anyway, onto the trip experience.
The trip itself was rather scary and particularly unpleasant, but I want to start by saying that I'm very glad I had it. I needed a good asskicking and this trip was what I was looking for. Otherwise I would have been left wondering. I'm happy that I got to experience this.
When I let out the last hit, the world "winked" at me. I started getting DMT vision in my kitchen. I closed my eyes, and I kept seeing this divine head, and when I breathed it would "drain". I really don't know how else to describe it. It kept feeling like I was going to die and this was it for me. I've been in similar situations with large amounts of mushroom tea, so I knew deep down that I was going to be okay, but I was still pretty scared. My anxiety was very high and I kept telling myself to calm down, but it didn't work too well.
I play alot of competitive Pokemon, and it influenced my trip. I thought I was in a Pokemon battle, using the Pokemon Online server. It had the distinct PO look and everything. Except my opponent was not a Pokemon, but it was DMT. It had the name "infiniti" and its sprite was just a white/yellow shade that took different forms. It was the same color as my DMT. Infiniti was completely invincible and my team was totally helpless. No matter what I did, infiniti had an answer. It teased my Pokemon and it took them down one by one. After my last Pokemon got knocked out, I died. I threw up into the bucket I had on hand and I went through a series of flashbacks, mostly regrets and things I could have done differently and how I could have been a better person. This felt like 20-25 minutes, but it turns out it was an hour and a half. This is the first time I completely lost track of time on DMT.
I spent the entire hour and a half curled up on my couch tightly squeezing my teddy bear. Yes I have a teddy bear, don't hate. I got up once to put on music to try to distract me, which helped. My coordination was awful, that was an experience in itself. After the hour and a half, I checked the time. 2:07am, wow time flew by. I threw up a second time. I should mention that both times I threw up, I did not throw up much at all. My stomach was so empty that I had barely anything to throw up.
After that I began to come down. I tripped well until 4:00am. I watched the trippy late night shows on Adult Swim such as Space Ghost, Children's Hospital, Delocated, and Tim and Eric. I spent much of the time laughing my ass off. The shows were retarded as hell, especially Delocated. It felt really good to watch stupid TV and laugh. Physically, I felt drained as all hell. Like I was super fucking tired, but I was too tired to sleep. Too tired to dream. Sitting up was a chore. I was drained.
And I still feel drained. I haven't eaten anything since 6:30pm last night when I started fasting before the trip. It's past 8:00am now, and I'm going continue to fast. I intend on going to sleep, and then being hungry as hell and eating something flame tomorrow when I wake up. I'm looking forward to it.
I've put both my DMT fumarate and DMT freebase on the dresser in my room. It will probably be a long time before I do that stuff again. It will happen again eventually I'm sure, but after this crazy week, I'm ready for a break. That trip kicked my ass. It was what I wanted, but I'm not touching DMT for awhile. It was a great Spring Break. I did pharmahuasca on its own twice. I smoked dmt twice. And, most importantly, I finally smoked dmt while on pharmahuasca for the first time. Yeah, it kicked my ass, but I'm never going to forget it. I'm really lucky to have gotten to experience this. Trips like this motivate me in the future and remind me that I can do anything and to always try harder and to get up when I fall. It sounds cliche yeah, but dmt is just so special. It can beat you down, but there's nothing else like it. I know this trip will make me stronger.
- Poads
POADS is gone!