Well I have just started to start back up with my lsd and dmt use after a good 6 - 7 month break after I had a bad trip on the acid .. anyway I just knew it would be best after that if I took a break for a while I was starting to use it too frequently and it took its tole in the end , well things where shit for a while I felt as though id been knocked off my path or something and was having weird headaches for a few months but eventually It went away .. Now im in much better condition and have took it up again but something I am noticing is that the things coming up in my trip are new but things hallucinations that where happening back last year when I stopped are happening again ..

Its like I can see how the light bends or how space-time is curved or my perception is curved and everything is made out of vibrating energy so it envelopes around everything Im looking at like some kind of force-field and If I look closer into the stuff its made of I get drawn into intricate patterns or it zooms out into real holographic looking life-sized blueprints of some sort of machine or something , looks similar to a jet engine of some sort , its kind of super-imposes itself in my consciousness in the position right in front of me anywhere I look like something from the future ... Well anyways it also seems like I can conjure up this perspective anytime I take a sufficient amount of LSD (300-450 ug) but honestly I have no idea what to do with it , if I get to close to this hallucination I sometimes feel like im on the edge of something really .. well really mad haha

It reminds me of Terrence Mckenna's thing he talked about something about a transcendental object , it seemed synthetic yet natural and extremely novel which is why I link it to what he said , anyway I do tend to not dive head first into it I have had some experiences with out of body experience and ego/boundary dissolution and this seems like its likely to pull me down that spiral and im currently a bit apprehensive about that and I would benefit greatly from the opinion of some experienced trippers even just to gleam some insights from ... Thanks People ...

I would say you should ground it, experiment taking these things a often as you like, but always in micro doses, you want it to be barely perceivable, you will need to consume your dmt as a salt though for this, as micro dosing smoked dmt doesn't seem to help so much in my experience.. this will teach you about transitioning at will...and other stuff... you want advice so there it is

Very interesting.

Would it be possible to sketch this "blueprint" while in that headspace? Or rember details to sketch later?

I've actually experienced something similar while on LSD and MDMA. It didn't repeatedly happens though. The few times I seen it, I couldn't remember much detail or grasp mentally exactly what it was. Very fleeting.
I would see it when looking a certain types of textures in a certain light.

Felt at the time something important like a message but I just couldn't understand it, and it passed.


To bad you don't work for NASA or something.. Do you?


Maybe take another break, or use a different entheogen for a while. Or dive into that blueprint and see where it leads!

How would you suggest I "ground it" if its barely perceivable how will I get a good idea of what im looking at ? It seems that as I drift of the peak it starts to fade and then all I can get it a vague imprint of the holographic nature of the thing ..





It would be pretty difficult to sketch as its always moving and changing as I focus on different aspects of it , like If I look closely at a certain part of it ill get drawn into some sort of web of patterns , but then again I haven't seriously made any attempts to do anything with it .. after I look at it for a while if I look a my reflection its as though I have some sort of weird neon-colored exo-skeleton like little branches of digital geometric outlines hovering about 2 inches off my face as if im in some sort of computer simulation , like when people are creating the movements of characters in video games and animated films/cgi and what have you ...

And nah wish I did might make things more interesting haha

And yeah I think im gonna give it a rest for a couple weeks then give it another try , and too bad I have no access to any others all I can get at the moment really is acid , ketamine and dmt .

Dive in it? I thought Higgs Boson was the Focus particle. With about 10-15grams shrooms i kind of had the idea that i could direct my focus to transform into a Boson particle, and all around me is a grid of pure energy. Higgs Boson being the particle responsible for force fields in the universe.. gravity.. You reminded me of it.

This is the reason i want to take lsd.. I advise smoking DMT when this happens to dive into it all. I wish i did, but i got stuck in a loop until my trip was over. >_<

Dive in it? I thought Higgs Boson was the Focus particle. With about 10-15grams shrooms i kind of had the idea that i could direct my focus to transform into a Boson particle, and all around me is a grid of pure energy. Higgs Boson being the particle responsible for force fields in the universe.. gravity.. You reminded me of it.

This is the reason i want to take lsd.. Very happy I advise smoking DMT when this happens to dive into it all. I wish i did, but i got stuck in a loop until my trip was over. >_<



Well I wasnt really thinking about higgs boson when this occurred but before it happened first time I was constantly going through some sort of process of figuring out the universe at a rapid pace like I was being fed information in subtle forms of energy and changes in the environment + synchronicity to point me in directions but that sort of stopped after I got stuck at this point because I got afraid that if I went further I would have to go through some sort of out of body shit and last time that happened I wasn't the same ever again I had to completely re-invent myself even my old memories didn't feel like "Me" after that so I was apprehensive , but the other day I read a quote somewhere "One thing I know is if the universe shows you a problem it will constantly show up in your life again and again until you face it" or something along those lines so I was thinking maybe Ive been holding back from this I just came on here to get some feedback before I made any decisions ...


And yeah force field made of energetic particles sounds like a good way to describe it , It seemed immensely complex to be honest sometimes I think im just crazy haha fuck it ...
Yeah im not sure about smoking the dimitri on it though I will take it into consideration in the moment when its happening , wish I could get my psychedelic sea legs back and stop being such a pussy haha bad trips can really mess with your confidence .

I just read a trip report from you when you first joined the nexus and you have no idea how similar your trip with the Alien insect was to my first ego death experience (only I didn't recognize the thing I was in contact with as something outside of myself though looking at the picture of the insect you provided its eyes are extremely reminiscent , the way it looks like its made of pixilated circles ) Well I thought of them as orbs of consciousness and if you zoomed into these orbs of experience there where all kinds of weird realities going on which I could observe and stuff or I could fall back and look at how all the different consciousness's came together to form some all knowing being of some sort , I figured that was me since I was the one looking unless I somehow merged consciousness with a higher being and didn't know what I was looking at ... I even remember talking to a woman and her bringing me places telling me things and everything was just made of a silent vibrating hum of energy though I could still experience things like verbal language in this place even though there was no sound (all very hazy at this stage , again time was meaningless so I cant tell what came when) Well she must have told me something really strange because I cant remember what it was I just remember thinking "Wait so none of this is real ?" then I realized I took acid and remembered who I was and got sucked back to my body and I was just standing at the top of my stairs in silence hahaha Well when I came back down to earth My whole body was completely numb I couldnt feel a thing .. I went downstairs sat beside my bro and just repeatedly rubbed my arms back and forth on the rough fabric on my sofa trying to get the sensation to come back haha it all sounds really familiar I honestly remember something like that minus the alien part though it was an alien experience to me , But then again I did experience what seemed like infinity , realized we are all one and theres some sort of collective consciousness so I do tend to recollect random glimpses of de-ja-vu-ish past experiences , like a flashback you could say

Never have i understood the mystery of the alien insect. I supressed the memory for a month before i could even remember what happened. These days, I carry a deep purple aura and have finally developed a deeper level of trust in DMT and the entity that guides me in these experiences.

Something tells me the alien insect has become a part of me, or has Always been a part of me in the first place. I had a dream that he came to earth and split his consciousness into at least two parts, in order to learn more about human beings. The vibe i got was of being stuck in the realm of the dead, and happy to hijack a part of my consciousness.

Accept all experiences as temporary states of consciousness. Don't be afraid. That's my advice. Merging consciousness is usually the driving mechanism in all of these experiences. Ego-death does not happen for me i think partly because my ego is strong and rather pure in a sense. Atleast, i've been told. A good idea would be to meditate into the experience.

I experience this also with lsd, and also one when I took a high dose of 25i-Nbome, though the latter Was rather unpleasant. For me it's almost as though I can see the outline of the one form that is present in everything. I can see it in trees and clouds and the shape of the human or animal forms. I can see it behind my eyes and see it resplendent in everything, its quite like a complex Mandelbrot that is superimposed over everything, and within everything.

My most incredible experiences with psychedelics thus far have been with lsd, I was hoping to full membership so I could start some discussions over in the lsd sub forum but we'll have to wait and see. I dropped not long after dosing dmt for the first time. I was anxious about the experience because Id recently begun work in a call centre and the fast paced work life didn't seem to me to be conducive to the laidback rhythm that 6 months experimentation with lsd will lull you into, however this did not deter me in the end.

I took 350ugs+, two fresh avatars blotters and and subsequently had the most intense experience ive ever had. My first low dose dmt experience had wiped out my anxiety towards psychedelics and this rip reinforced that. I felt the same prescense that I'd felt during my dmt trip, though if anything it was a more feminine aspect that what I had previously encountered.

"Come in, the waters great" was the general vibe of the message I received. And it was like this thing was this form that I had seen recurrent in my trips and it was conscious. It was also making me aware of its presence and it felt as though it was oscillating throughout entire room, and through all of my being. I had been smoking strong cannabis throughout the experience and at one point, I was wrapped completely in visions of a kind I have not had before or since, I can see the best part of it with my inner eye but it is incredibly hard to language or interpret, it's times like is I regret taking next to no notes post experience, if only because I was far too elated to remember to do so .

Ive tangented here a bit but I hope this helps, I always though everyone saw this with acid, it vibrates with an aura of oneness and inner connectedness when I witness its form. Terrence mckenna wasn't a huge fan of acid because it didn't produce visions, not to say he didnt enjoy it, so I don't think your having a recurring trip it's just this s what the lsd experience is, atleast for some of us. I can conjure up this perspective at any time with enough concentration, though with Lucy it's all that there is, if this wasn't what you were looking for in your experiences then fair enough, I've spent a few hundred hours with lsd at low to medium doses and it certainly is not a one Rick pony! She has a lot to teach still I believe.

Much Love and safe travels! X

@ Miasmatis


Well this only started happening recently ive been doing acid for 2 1/2 years now so I dont think its always been there .. also Ive had incredible visions on acid in the past one of the reasons I love it , I dont know man what can I say haha thanks for the reply anyway